lucid

So it has been a while since I updated this. Dreaming kind of took a back seat to life, but I am hoping to get back into the swing of things!

Dream:

I have just fallen asleep. My medication allows for quick falling asleep and vivid dreams. It is overly dark. I keep getting flashes of people, and colors, and images, like pictures. It is hard to make sense of it. Everytime I try to focus on something it flashes away. I can hear voices. I think I'm in a sort of void, where nothing exists but me. Its hard to make sense of anything. The voices continue, compounded on each other and getting louder.

I am suddenly in a room with Kathryn Janeway. Her overshirt is off, and she is in just her pants and grey long sleeve shirt. She is sitting on a bench, with a light focused on her. She looks up at me. "Embrace the Dream." That was an odd thing to say.

I look up, Hermione Granger is laughing with me. I must have said something funny. We are in the Great Hall. She leans in close to me, whsipering in my ear. "Embrace the Dream." Huh. Didn't Janeway just say that. She shoves me back and I am falling, through the void.

I can see light, but I am moving away from it. It feels like I am falling back into something. I land with a thud and the light comes rushing at me. "Easy, easy now." I can hear Janet Fraiser saying. I carefully open my eyes. A pen light flashes across them. I am in biodome medical bay. I try to sit up. "Careful." I see Wasau there too. She helps me sit up. "Welcome back." She says then leaves. "Back?" Janet looks at me, scans me with a tricorder. "Yeah, its been a while." I think. "I thought I was back before, a few months ago?" Jaet pulls me into a hug. I kiss her. "Yeah, about that. A lot has changed here since then."

I look up at her questioningly. "What? Why? Were we attacked?" I know the biodome is a place for all dreamers to meet. "We weren't attacked." "What then?" I ask. "I think its better if I show you." We step out of the med bay and into a deserted hall. Its grey sleak walls seem a dull comfort, and unnerving at the same time. "Janet, what happened here?" No one is around. "Well, when you, and the others stopped coming... more like stopped dreaming, it all just fell to shit." I looked around again. We had made it all the way to the end of a hall. Janet was starting to put on a space suit. "You should do the same." I look at her. "If this is a dream I don't need to." She smiled at me. "Very good, but I still need to." I help her put it on.

We have to wait for the room to depressurize before opening the other door. There is no power and I equip myself with a flashlight. I change my clothes. I am wearing miltary style pants, a thigh holster with a gun, and plain shirt. I check the weapon. "How much time?" "2 hours, what's that?" Janet asks. "This?" I hold up the gun and she nods. "Its a plasma gun. Got it from... well I forget. You still didn't tell me what happened."

We are walking toward the emergency beacon. "When you stopped dreaming, more off on your own quest for things, people stopped coming." "Yeah, but the biodome was for anyone." "True, but without you, and Raven, well things went down hill. Stuff started breaking. You're the heart of this place Commander." I look at her startled. Only one other time has the biodome called me that, and I have never heard Janet call me that. "If I'm the heart that makes Raven the soul. But what about Nomad, and MoSh?" She looks at me and sighs. "They just helped build the thing, just like anyone else can. Really it's been linked mostly to you.."

I take a good look around. This place looks bad. I guess it makes sense. I have't been feeling the greatest about things, and apparently subconciously translated into the dream state. "Did you ever find your answer?" Janet asked me. "Well I claimed her, in a dream, if it wasn't a DC (dream character), and nothing happened in the waking world. That I can tell. But it sure does look like something happened here," I draw my gun. I feel like we are being watched. I tell Janet this. She smiles at me. "It's your dream, you make it what you want." I tell myself that there is nothing there. No enemy. Its the biodome anyway!

Finally we come to a long set of stairs down. In the middle of a circle is a large machine going down into the Moon. I look at it. "Well, I guess we better start down." After the fifth story down Janet asks who built this. I tell her I did. She just looks at me. I suddenly understand her point. I close my eyes and will the machine to be smaller, and suddenly we are on the ground floor. I see the control pannel. I rip it off and start messing with the electric cords there. I am trying to get power back to the emergency beacon. "Shouldn't we have gotten the generators back up first?" Janet asks. "No, this is supposed to have an backup systen.Why its not working..." I shrug. I ask Janet for some tool and she get it for me. I stand up. "Thanks." She looks at me and shoves me. I fall down a long hole. "Embrace the Dream."

What the fuck? Is all I can think as I'm falling. I land with a thud, her words echoing in my mind. Embrace the Dream. Seems to be a pattern going on. I look up at the light, just a tiny pin prick. I hate wells, and why I think I'm in a well is beyond me. I will for a set of stairs to apppear. It does, on the side, but is more like a ladder. I climb out, and the hole vanishes. "What the hell? You have dream control?" I ask Janet. I'm not really mad at her. She is trying to teach me something. She smiles at me. "Only beacuse you let me. Lets finish up." I ask her how much time we have left for her oxygen. She says 1 hour. We finish working on the beacon, a bright white light shoots out of it and stays on. "Well, anyone that sees that should know we are in trouble. Now lets get the generators back on."

As we head up Janet says she doesn't have much time left. I tell her to go back to the waiting room. I can do this myself. She leaves and I head to the generators. Once there, its more like an engine room, I start my work. The main generator looks like the engine from Serenity, off of Firefly. I start messing around with it, trying to get it spinning again. I can hear Janet in my ear piece. Something went wrong, the room can't be pressurized back. And she can't get out of her suit. This makes me work faster. I can hear her laboured breathing. "How much time?" I ask. "Thirty mintues." Her suit beeps. "But only because you lowered the levels you're taking in?" Its less of a question as it is a statement. "Not the point." She replies. I see her slding the the wall before I am brought back to the engine room.

I start to work faster. Flipping switches. The engine begins to turn the stop. I take a large wrench and start banging on it. Dirt and rust and grime fall off. I flip the switches again. Again it starts then stops. I can hear Janet beginning to breath really heavy, like she is suffocating. I start kicking the engine. "Work damn it! Spin! Do something!" I leave the switch flipped up, and keep kicking the machine. Soon a large boom, happens and I fly back 20 feet. I am covered in dirt and grime. The engine kicks to life, and with it, the biodome begins to live again. No people, but its a start.

I walk to where I left Janet. Wasau is there, and is helping her. Janet has her helmet off. "I see you did it." I nod, still covered in dirt. "What happened?" "Exhuast port was jammed. Got it cleaned out." She laughs, "Looks like it did it kind of on its own." I smile and nod.

We head to the gardens. They look sad, and withered. I call out for Raven knowing she can help bring them back. "I hope she gets the message." I smile at Janet. "You did good. Just remember," everything is starting to fade. "Embrace the Dream." Everything goes to black.

I was Mr. Darcy. Well sort of. Really I was a woman, impersonating Mr. Darcy. For some strange reason, my goal was to get to Jane. To make her love me. I was going to show her that I was a woman, make her realize that sort of love was okay. I was at a bar, drinking with the rest of the guys. It was actually quite enjoyable. I was tired, so then went to sleep. The next day I was at Jane's house. We were kissing under a tree. Something happened and we needed to run quickly. It was as if we had been discovered. I grabbed her hand and took to the air. I told her it was faster to travel this way. I figured we would just head to the moon when I heard this meow... and my cat licked my ear, waking me up.

This starts out as a long non-lucid dream, but I did manage to become lucid! YAY!

I was on a ship in the middle of the sea. I don't know why I was there, nor how I got there, but it all seemed natural to me. I was watching some of the crew members run around. A few of them were working, a few of them were playing games, and a few of them didn't seem to know what they were doing. I felt like something was off, but at the same time had spotted a nice looking woman. I walked over to her and smiled.

We engaged in mindless chit-chat for a while. It was like neither one of us wanted to say what we were really looking for. I knew what I had wanted. It wasn't soon after that, that I was in a brand new place. Having no idea how I had even gotten there. It looked a bit like the forest. I was wondering if I had teleported. That would be cool. The pretty sea lady was gone, sadly, but there was nothing I could do.

I walked around, looking for other signs of human life. The place was void, and it seemed a little dark. I promised to myself that I would not panic in the face of unknown dangers. I took a deep breath in, and calmed my nerves. I didn't want to enter the forest, so I instead walked along the outside of it. There was like ocean and cliff side next to me. I wondered if I was in Ireland, when the scene changed once more.

Now I was in a room. My current girlfriend, Silver Wolf, was there. Also there was my ex-girlfriend. My ex was laying on top of my legs. I had always joked about her chest size. We are all just talking, even though I feel like I am a prisoner in my ex's house. I feel like something is off. I know something isn't right and begin to analyze everything. My ex sits up and there are two weights left where her chest would have been. I can't move my legs. I tell myself to remain calm, and take a deep breath in. She says she had gotten a reduction done, and this was how much they took off. I looked up at Silver Wolf and ignored my ex.

My ex walked over to me. I was suddenly listening to music and she takes the earplugs out of my ears. I can still hear the music. Wait.. I must be dreaming.

I tell my ex that I am dreaming and I want her to go away. She laughs at me. I notice then that I am handcuffed to the bed.. What the heck is that all about. I focus my energy to try and change the scenario. Nothing happens. I am sure I am dreaming. I can't move my legs, sleep paralysis. I can still remain calm, my breathing rate is normal. I am in charged of my dream. I go through reaffirming and solidifying the dream. I looked back at my ex. "I know this is a dream!" I make the handcuffs disappear and my ex cackles. "You are good, that is for sure."

I sigh. I don't have time for this crap. Not now that I know I am lucid. And its so vivid. I pinch my nose and breath in and out. This action gives me dream control.

I laugh back at her. "So who are you really? You know.. it doesn't even matter. You're gone." She vanishes right in front of my eyes. Now I look at my girlfriend. 'What should I do?' I ask myself. I decide to have fun, after all I haven't been in complete control for a while. I change her to be blond, and skinnier than she is now. Now we are going to play a messed up version of cops and robbers, where I am the caught robber. She attaches restraints to my wrists. She is teasing me by going slow. I see a shadow move across a door way out of the corner of my eye. I look to it and command that there be no interruptions. Then its like I can see into another room. "And no parents!" I shout. The image changes slightly. I look at Silver and tell her to hold on for a sec. She freezes and turns to shades of gray.

I walk over to the figure I see in the room. It's my ex's mom, Bree. I haven't seen her in a while. "Surprised to see me?" she asks. I know she is not a DC. I go to sit down, trying to summon a chair at the same time. It fails and I sit on the floor. I am overwhelmed by a vast array of emotions. She tells me everything is okay, and that I am doing good. I am on the right path. She is trying to get my attention to tell me something important. I can feel the dream slipping. I take notice of how my non-dream body feels. I am still dreaming lucidly. I look up to her. I am going to stabilize the dream when my cell phone vibrates.

I hear it in the dream and feel like I am being pulled away. I try to reach out for Bree to hold onto, but am awake before I can.

Bree died a couple of years back. So I was especially surprised to see her. I think its part of an ongoing attempt to give me a message.

Okay, so I had one major goal last night, and that was finding my friend M. He complained that he has been having nightmares. I told him that he needed to focus on the Koi Pond in the bio-dome on the moon and that I would try to meet him there.


Finding M
I focused on the bio-dome. More importantly I focused on the Koi Pond. I was trying to find M. I could feel the dream fading. I focused it by rubbing my hands together. It helped. I walked over to the bench and sat down. I figured it might take M a while to get there as it was his first attempt at reaching the moon. It didn't even occur to me that I should go find him. I had confidence in his ability to get here.

I suddenly felt a presence standing over me. It was somewhat eerie and I stood and turned around. Standing there was M. I gave him a hug and told him we would see about his nightmare problem. He hugged me tightly saying it was good to see me again. I grab his hand and am getting ready to teleport us to his world when everything fades to black, and I don't mean the dream was lost. I mean there is a big black hole where the rest of it is supposed to be. It's not even a dream recall issue as I can usually recall small vibrations of the dream. Now, there is nothing. Not even a hint as to what happened. All I know is somewhere I lost him and my lucidity, but retained my goal. It is in the next segment.

Into the Old Life....
I am driving my dad's truck. We are in a parking lot. It is overly bright and I slide my sunglasses on. I am steering around other cars that are parked, and even being worked on. I narrowly avoid missing hitting someone that stepped right out in front of me. I cursed at the idiot that must have been trying to kill themselves. I finally make it home.

I then am riding my bike to school. It is high school and is like I have gone back in time. I don't think anything of this, but I just keep going on my way. There is construction all around town. I get to school, which is more of a warehouse. One of my teachers, Ms. S, is looking at soda. It is a big shipment. Several of us are joking around when someone hands out some fliers about going to Rwanda. I feel that there is something I need to be doing. I suddenly want to find my friend M. For some strange reason I feel he is in Rwanda. I volunteer to go. The flier updates itself and now reads that 25 people have signed up. I am getting my gear together when I hear my dad say... "Its time to get up."

I guess I will have to try and find him again tonight!