Dragging my Mind Over the Gap Between Is's

Saturday, July 9

I. Lucid #13 – I Brought This Hand to Your House

The first memory I have of this dream is being in the passenger’s seat of a convertible that A.J.R is driving. I pop a zit and watch in the rearview mirror as a huge amount of stuff comes out. It looks like a soft-serve ice cream cone. We are on our way to stay with someone at their house. I do not know them or recognize them when we meet them later in the dream.

More things happen which I do not remember now.

I then remember sitting in their living room. The couches that A.J.R, S.B and I are sitting on are red. A.J.R picks up a magazine and opens it to find that it’s full of ants. This doesn’t bother him though, he goes on to observe that they have chewed a hole through the middle of the whole magazine. He sticks his finger in it although we tell him that’s probably a bad idea. The ants also are growing larger, they are suddenly a little more than half a hand’s length long. He flicks one of them onto the table and S.B kills it. This greatly upsets A.J.R. He yells and disappears suddenly, leaving the floor covered in these large teardrop-shaped gold or lighted objects. The owner of the house comes in and gives us a dirty look. I say “well, I guess we’re cleaning these up then.”

I close my computer, which to that moment I don’t remember having in front of me, and I place it on the footrest in front of me to find that my computer is already there. The one I put down has two stickers and the one sitting in front of me has three.

I start questioning reality as I’m looking at this, and as I ponder it I am suddenly in a completely different place. There is a blond girl next to me I haven’t met. I am in a place with a stone and walls, and I think it has a ceiling yet I am still looking up at the sky. I look down at my hands, and I can’t really explain the problem but I notice something wrong. I think I may have even had an extra hand. I start figuring this out loud to the girl.

“I had this hand with me when I got here, and this hand I brought to your house…” I pause for a second, looking at her and then say “we are in a dream right now!” I ask her some question, something like “do you know what this means?” I look at her for a moment as she stutters and babbles nonsense. I leave her and start walking around the room, stabilizing the dream. I’m not sure exactly how long this lasts, anywhere from 30 seconds to a minute and a half. I look at my feet and jump into the air, feeling the dream’s gravity.

The moment I had start running around doing all this, B.R my guitar professor walks in from the distance (the outsides of the room are completely dark) and comes slowly across my field of view, getting closer and closer to me. He gives me this strange smile, almost like he was daring me to talk to him. I don’t, I think I may have been afraid to because of how many weird dreams I’ve had recently about playing guitar with him in them.

I stabilize this dream pretty well, however I am still unable to bring myself fully into a dream and gain control of what I think and do. I still lack a specific plan or goal to accomplish in a dream, so as soon as I become lucid my thoughts race and I just run around, preoccupied with racing thoughts that I have to DO STUFF! Since there’s nothing around me except B.R whom I stupidly ignore, I run back up to the girl and try to kiss her, but this makes her mad. After a moment she has disappeared and another appears. I ask her nicely and she obliges. The act of closing my eyes is what ends the dream, I black out briefly and wake up.