Dragging my Mind Over the Gap Between Is's

Thursday, July 7th

I. First Actual Experience With Vibration State

Went to bed 11:30, woke up at 5 trying to do a regular WBTB. I decided to do something I wouldn’t want to deal with when I woke up. I cleaned the kitchen. This took about a half hour. My goal was to fall back asleep normally. I stayed awake too long and/or got too much light for that.

I tried lying still for awhile but was feeling exactly the same after another half hour. After relaxing thoroughly I lay back down and closed my eyes to listen to music and wait for morning.

Music helped me let go a lot more than binaural beats or even silence. First of all I didn’t have to wear headphones, and second I have found every binaural beat I’ve ever listened to extremely creepy. If it’s completely silent then I am distracted by even the tiniest noises. Music worked perfectly, however it may have prevented me from falling asleep later.

While listening I began meditating briefly on each chakra point. After this I did something with my breath where on the inhale I thought of a ball of energy forming at the root chakra and on exhale I thought of this ball shooting up my spinal chord, through every chakra point and out of the top of my head.

I did this only three times and suddenly an actual beam of energy came shooting into my head. This was quite surprising but then I remembered this was actually something I was inadvertently trying to do to myself. I have experienced what I thought was sleep paralysis one time, it was incredibly uncomfortable and I felt like I had stopped breathing, but this was different. This felt like electricity, and it spread out of my head to the rest of my body. It was altogether very pleasant but also quite powerful. Staying relaxed as best as I could, I continued the breathing thing.

The room that I’m sleeping in formed on my closed eyelids as if I was seeing through them. I engaged the vision but this caused my physical eyes to open – and they then became a problem through the rest of this attempt. It was then past 6 a.m and despite there being a blanket on my window there was still enough light coming into the room that it took effort for me to keep my eyes from opening up. I decided I was going to have to move.

I grabbed a shirt, put it over my eyes and lay down. I could still feel my body literally buzzing. The vibrations weren’t hard to get to come back. I wasn’t able to leave my body or form a dream image from this state because of either my eyes, the music or both.

However, some other things happened. At one point, (it could possibly have been the music but) I distinctly heard a voice say something to me in a loud whisper I couldn’t understand. I could still identify the voice as somebody who is in the downstairs of this place sleeping right now. I heard it right near the door, but knew at the time not to acknowledge it. I also felt my body fall asleep a little bit later, experiencing a sleep paralysis that was much nicer than the first one I brought on months ago. Feeling my eyes roll back into my head was peculiar.

They wouldn’t stop moving around and I really could not shift my focus away enough to get anywhere past the vibration state, so I lay there for another hour or so just feeling like a charging battery. It is now 8:40 a.m and I feel like a charged battery.