Thread: continuous nightmare

so a few nights ago was one of the worst nights of my life.

first let me start off, i have had the ability to lucid dream as long as i can remember, although i don't have much control o it, as far as the regularity. they are always quite erratic however i've noticed they happen most often when i'm under stress or something big is changing in my life.

anyway.. i'd had a similar dream about a week before but it wasn't very vivid. this dream i wasin this sort of hotel and there was a gunman running around killing everyone but specifically trying to kill me. i would keep finding a hiding place, then he would find me and i would just realize i was about to die and give up. then the dream would change, or somehow he was gone but then it would start all over again and i would be running again. anyway this kept going on and finally i became lucid and woke myself up.. but i was absolutely terrified... like i had this eerie feeling that this dream was trying to tell me something.. and i had to pay attention to it.. i woke up seriously believing this man was in my house and couldnt get back to sleep the rest of the night

anyway the worst part was i just sat there ready to die, didn't try to fight back, didn't take action and i don't know why. usually i don't have nightmares at all and this one i even became lucid.. well at least semi lucid but still couldt change the dream or take any action. i just wondering if anyone has had experiecnes such as this? or ideas why this could happen.

i started becoming lucid again last night but couldn't even fly.. which is always the first thing i do when i realize i'm dreaming. i just woke myself up instead. i'm afraid i'm losing the ability!! ahhh.