It seems i never go a week without dreaming these two things, and i always wake up crying or shaking...I don't know how to deal with it.


Dream 1: It starts off (usually) with my being rushed to the hospital because i tried to kill myself, my friend is there with me, and i start to tear at my eyes, he tells me to stop and tries to stop me but it doesn't work, but even though i tore my eyes out i could still see (and i don't want to see). I feel very uneasy, but at the same time, comfortable with the fact that my friend is with me.

Than he ends up leading me to a dark room which turns out to be a lab, and he doesn't speak and just leads me to a tube and in the tube is a baby, the baby opens it's eyes and says "i'm not you" I usually feel relieved when the baby says that it isn't me but still i wake up crying.


Dream 2: Starts off back when i was in foster care, one of the worst foster homes i was in, and i'm looking for the dog because he was my only friend, and i can't find him, so i keep running and running looking for him and i just can't( i feel really really scared at this point almost lost) i usually give up and than an old friend from the foster home starts to read me a story, but than he disappears, and i'm scared again, and can't find him(at this point in my dream i am freaking out), then the same friend from dream the dream 1 appears just looks at me and smiles and takes my hand, and leaves part of me behind (i'm not really sure how to explain this, when he takes my hand, one me steps out of the other) and he starts to lead me out, but the me that's being left behind is still scared and is still freaking out,But the other me is feeling okay and it's usually around this point that i wake up...