Last night I had a terrifying dream. Me and my husband were walking on a street in a new city. I go into a shop to buy some stuff, which they do not have. So I leave and join my husband.. everything is normal till now.
Suddenly I hear random people saying that someone called <my name> has created a huge ruckus in a shop and behaved badly, verbally abusing the shopkeeper. I do not understand why they are saying that, I felt confused. I thought they probably mistook me for someone else.
My husband and I then walk into a building and stand in the balcony of an upper floor. Suddenly we hear a huge crowd of people below screaming out my name and claiming that I should be arrested for my behaviour, while I did no such thing. They were searching for me not knowing that I was inside the building.
I felt confused about how such a rumor was spreading. I wanted to go down and explain to the mob that I did nothing wrong, but I was afraid that they would lynch me. I woke up at this point.
My mind usually never moves bad dreams to their conclusion - I always wake up abruptly before the dream's problem is solved .
I rarely have a clear memory of dreams after waking up. Today I remembered the main scenes of the dream a long while after I woke up.
A bit about my real life mental state -
I'm a young wife and a software professional. I have been seeing a rough patch in my career this year. I have also been asked to leave by my last employer, which is not really my fault as downsizing is being done. Even then I feel guilty for being unemployed. I'm very confused about my goals and abilities to achieve, even though I have been a reasonably successful professional for 7 years.
This problem has been in my mind for over 3 months (even since I was asked to leave) but I have never had this kind of a dream till yesterday. The only significant difference last night was that I let out a lot of these feelings - of guilt and confusion - in my journal. During the process of writing my journal I understood that these negative feelings were blocking me from trying hard for a new job.
Also, in the dream, I was accused of fighting and verbally abusing the shopkeeper. I did no such thing in the dream and I don't behave like this in real life too. I'm usually very polite and humble, especially outside my home. Rude behaviour occasionally surfaces when I'm arguing with my husband ... I don't show it toward anyone else
I suppose that my dream is a result of my confused guilt. Could there be other possible reasons?
Thanks for your time in reading this! Appreciate your response
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