Reoccurring Sex with Familiar Strangers

[farfromhome]

Alright so, a little background information: I'm 18, female, started college this year, and in about March-May I became a part of a long-distance relationship, which was when the first of these dreams had started up. I literally NEVER have sex-related dreams UNLESS they are shaped like this. That's to say, the only time I dream about sex is when it's with a familiar stranger like in these situations. However, I've been told I'm a very sexual person in person (I have a bigger sex drive than my boyfriend does LMAO). In my first dream, I met up with a man in my bedroom. I don't really have any recollection of how we got there, it just seems like the dream started with us in the bedroom. I was with a man who was not ANYTHING like what my boyfriend looks like--he was very tall, Caucasian, muscular, bald, at least in his 40s, and had a handlebar mustache. My boyfriend is literally the direct opposite of this man--short, Asian, very skinny, 19 years old. Somehow in my dream though, I had been convinced that this man was my boyfriend, and so we began to have sex. In the middle of our sexual encounter, however, I became aware that he wasn't my boyfriend all of a sudden, and I felt terrible and scared and I freaked out. I remember I tried to stop him but I physically couldn't stop him, he was too big and I couldn't get him off of me. I woke up as our sexual encounter had finished. This was the first time I had this kind of dream, and at the time my boyfriend and I had not met IRL yet. At this point in time, we have met up and spent an entire week together during the summer. We'll be together again for winter break. We've had sex and physical contact and all of that. About a week before I met up with my boyfriend IRL, I had a similar dream, except there were more people involved this time. I had been in a house with my boyfriend and 3 of my other friends, who in the dream I had recognized as everyone they were supposed to be. Someone had proposed that we should have an orgy and record it for a contest or something, and I had cautiously agreed--once again, in the middle of the experience, I had realized that the people I was engaging in sexual contact with were not anybody that I knew, they were complete strangers. I freaked out again and that time I was able to escape and get out of the situation. Last night, I had a dream that was similar. This time, it was a girl who in my dream I had recognized as a former best friend, and we had reunited after years of not seeing each other. In the dream, she was familiar to me and I recognized her as an old best friend. Again, we had sex with each other, and midway through the experience, I realized I didn't know this girl. This time however, I didn't really try to run away because the girl seemed very happy--I just felt incredibly guilty and cried because I was conscious of the fact that by sleeping with her, I was cheating on my boyfriend. I felt absolutely terrible after we had finished, and all I remember is seeing her smiling face sleeping on my chest before I woke up. I had this dream last night, and again, by this point I have met up with my boyfriend IRL and we've had physical contact/sexual experiences. I'm not really sure what this could mean? I'm curious about the insights you guys could provide.