My own body and a tarantula...

[Seisui]

So I haven't really been able to remember my dreams a lot lately, but I found this one so vivid and bizarre that I have been really interested/desperate to have it interpreted. I tried to do it myself, but there were too many things I couldn't find exactly so I thought I'd try to get some help from some more experienced dreamers. So my dream... It starts off that myself and my friends (and some classmates, I guess) are apparently in Japan, in this very autumny-forest with all red leaves on the trees and on the ground. We're standing on this wide pathway, and this man, who I guess is our guide or something, comes and tells us that some girls who are students in Japan are going to join us. They're all these girls wearing red and maroon school uniforms, and they all have long, blond hair. For some reason, my friends are really fascinated by their hair and keep playing with it, but I tell them to stop it because they're being rude. Then suddenly, this guy who I used to like a few years ago walks by, and my friends and I see him and I start to follow him. There's this door behind us on the path, and I follow him and suddenly I'm in my bedroom. My whole mindset and the situation changed at that point, because apparently, I have two bodies and one of them died. My friends know about it, and the guy who I saw earlier goes into my closet, which apparently behind is a shower. I can hear it running, and I'm really nervous he'll find "my" dead body (although I'm not really scared of the body itself), so I keep trying to hide it underneath a bedsheet, but it keeps looking really obvious. And I'm trying to cover something on my dead body, like there's something coming out or something (sorry for the grotesque image) of the chest but I can't stop it, even though one of my friends is trying to help me. And then at some point during this dream, I look up at my wall, and there's messages from my friends written on it in permanant marker, just really stupid things I don't really remember, and this poster is on my wall I've never seen before. So I leave my room, and suddenly I'm in this living room and my friends mom is sitting on the couch, smoking. She asks me who wrote on the wall, and I say I don't know, and she tells me to go find the marker, so I go back to my room and I find it. It's kind of weird/blurry after this point, but a different man comes out of the closet/bathroom-type thing apparently behind it, kind of looking like Drew Carrey ( ). I'm trying to find my glasses, which I don't feel I really need, but for some reason I'm really desperate to find them, and I start looking through the garbage can. I find this other pair of glasses, and I put them on and I look at my desk and this woman appears in this little screen and tells me to do something, but I just make a face at her and I look in my mirror and I see that there's circles drawn on my glasses. I take them off, and I keep trying to find my own in my garbage, except there's a tarantula inside (I hate tarantulas and spiders, btw) that I've apparently hidden in there, and I keep trying to shove it back under and hide it. I find my glasses at some point, and then I sort of woke up. So it was kind of long... but thanks for your help .

[Leo Volont]

Dear Seisui, This morning we had another 'dead girl' dream. Then as here, that means that you have gone from being a child to being, what, an adolescent. It is a 'loss of innocence' dream. Notice you try to hide the body. The gross stuff coming out of the chest are the odd feelings that you are uncomfortable with. Notice you try to hide the body in bed, but it sticks out and is obvious. These are anxieties related to your budding sexuality. The dream moves on to the Lost Glasses. I'm surprised you ever found them. Usually lost stuff in dreams stays lost. Anyway, these glasses, that you know 'you don't really need', became quite an obsession for you. This indicates that you think you must be missing something about the World around you. In real life, everybody's actions and all the social situations seem a bit confusing to you, so you conclude that there must be something that you are not seeing. So you are looking for the Glasses that will clear everything up. But you are looking in the trash can -- the discarded past. When you were a kid you understood things well enough. Now, it is all confusing. But you DO in fact find your glasses. In the Trash.... so I suppose your reexamination of your past childhood does give you some useful perspective on your present situation. This dream is basically an anxiety dream regarding your changing life situations, but it becomes hopeful in the end because you do find that glasses that will help you see things with less confusion. What about the tarantuala spider? It was a reminder that to make sense of our Past (looking through the trash) we must confront the ugly things too. You may notice that a lot of people only remember the good things. Our mind tries to protect us by making it easier to remember happy times then remembering the bad things. But for a total perspective we need to keep at least a mental note of the bad things so that we may have enough awareness in the future to avoid such things if the same patterns should ever arise again.