dream 1: Bears country vacation with issues
ENEMY TERRITORY
You went to an area in yourself you normally are not, or maybe to get away from things, that favored your male or in-charge side.
But not the whole thing, not the uniform, just part. Not the hat or role, not the shoes that you would walk in, in this aspect. But maybe just the basic or main area, to cover you.
Though bear may mean what you said, maybe bear country means the potential danger or out of control wildness here.
But maybe even better is the Chicago Bears are the biggest rivals of your husband who means your in-control driving side.
BREAK DOWN
So your driving or control broke down. The wheels already came off this venture! So you were left with no choice probably but carry this part the hard and slow way - instead of the other way around. With one hand might say it had no weight to it anymore, little substance or reality. But you carried it in your open view to take it to be fixed.
EASY FIX
Hence your in control side was already there, which realized it would cost you nothing because this driving area in you should already be fixed, but failed. It's like you already had done work on it, so you could basically pick up where you left off. In fact you did pick up where you left off - literally. That could be why it was so easy to pick up, after all.
CREDIT WHERE IT IS DUE
But you still need valid credit, and to check that.
But your in-control side was expired - it broke down.
So of course your other side had to give yours. It was what broke it, and that needs to learn it.
IN CONTROL
So, you had to look to your control side on what to do.
You hated this outing, or endeavor, the way it went. Maybe you took a vacation, wanted to enjoy your driving abilities, and that is why it failed. You failed to still do the needed work or control.
Anyway, you were not going to think anything of it, because you knew the young control part of you loved it. (I guess not your real boys did.)
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REAL CONNECTIONS
VACATION
"First time we went (on your real vacation in Ohio), I hated it, but I noticed how much my boys loved it, so we went again and the second year, I really enjoyed it too."
This seems to connect with you doing what you hate in the dream for your own benefit, because you know you will soon love it and enjoy it.
CREDIT CARDS
I had just discovered that one of my credit cards had expired. It's pertinent that my husband and I share all finances so whether it is his card or mine does not matter in real life."
It seems the dream used your expired card in a meaningful way, symbolizing your in-charge credit had expired.
It's like your reality is like how your dream or inner experience is becoming: it's pertinent that your husband side and you share everything ~ like all value or credit.
dream 2: spies and memory wiping
SPYING ON YOUR OTHER SIDE
Now you are the male or in-control you, spying though not experienced, on the other side of yourself that may be suspicious, or kind of an enemy, opposite.
Separate from your other side who is learning this control, or power, or being in charge side.
You needed to check something at one point.
FEMALE LEARNS MALE
You gave the male side of your story.
Then went back to coach your female side in which story to give - learning the male story.
You waited long, only to discover you didn't need to help your learning side to make it through to the other side of this mental checkpoint! It had learnt the needed control or quality to pass.
That seems to flow on from the easy fix from before. You had already learned quite a bit.
SPIES LIKE YOU meet MEN IN BLACK
Now, passing that test, you had the chance to help the network of other areas you may need to spy on, to improve yourself. To gain the information you need for your intelligence, which you had wanted to be involved in.
However, you understood, once you integrated both sides of yourself, learnt what you wanted, the memory of who you were before and what you were involved in would be erased.
THE PRICE OF CHANGE
Maybe part of you thought you could function successfully with part of who you know yourself to be now. But really this is your fear of change. It's quite profound. It's transformation. And you know your previous self will be gone and, like a butterfly, its previous form will be no more or just partially remain.
Another part of you thought this destruction would be too much, especially after doing it a lot of times because you would change more all the time.
This must indicate how much you are changing, how much sacrifice must be made to do it.
And perhaps that you may not want to change so much, or so soon.
So maybe control comes into this again, and a new form of being in charge. Can seem a bit daunting.
YOUR WILL, or YOUR WON'T
So you advised yourself to make a will - of what exactly your will is I suppose, or what specifically you will leave to your future self to become that - if you would like to 'kill' your old self which you unnecessarily feared would make you like a vegetable - totally without movement - because your old self would be gone. I gather that's what it means. Or your fear you'd fail.
Or perhaps you were just going a bit too fast, and it became too much at once.
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TRIVIA - I mean PROFOUNDIA
At the start, you asked about cars in dreams:
"When will I recognize them as dream signs in a lucid dream?"
I thought maybe when you have the full control of one, because then you will be lucid in that way in life.
It seems to make sense.
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