One of my dreams last night involved being in my grandmother's house with her and my aunt who also lives there. I looked out the window to the back yard and they had a small black bear chained up to the little doghouse where they used to have a dog. It was pacing up and down the yard, getting more and more angry. I said to them, you can't keep that as a pet! If it gets free then we are all fucked. But they didn't say anything or seem to want to listen.
I don't know if it makes a difference but IRL the back yard used to have a lot of junk in it from when my grandad worked as a mechanic from home. It has been cleared up in the past few years but I think in the dream, a lot of the junk was still there.
So I kept watching the bear and it was so aggressive, biting at its chain and trying to get loose. The chain was very thin and I just felt so frightened that it was surely going to escape.
Then it was night time and I was convinced the bear had bitten through the chain and when it woke up it would start to attack us. So I phoned the police, and tried to get my granny, my aunt, and my little sister who is 5 to the same room to make us safer.. I kept trying to speak to the police and the phone kept going dead. But eventually I told them our name and address and what the problem was, that there was a vicious wild animal loose in the house and to please come soon.
I think at this point I realised the bear was still chained up, but the police came anyway and we watched them go out and shoot it with a tranquiliser and then bring it through the house and away.
This is where it gets hazy... .and weird. I'm pretty sure in the next part of the dream, I sort of turned into the bear. It's hard to describe. I just kind of knew I was the bear. And I was doing sexual things.... showing myself to certain people. One of them I think was the man that I have just recently broken up with.
I'm trying to work it out because there are a few possible meanings and I can't figure out which one is correct. I've read that bears can represent anger, which would make sense because we broke up because of serious trust issues on his part, and then he did something to betray me and really hurt me. But they can also represent solitude and the need to live alone, which is something that could make sense because I had been feeling like I need to live single and independently for a while and have been through a couple of intense and rough relationships in the last few years. The confusing part is that I was starting to feel like I could be with this man and that I wanted to stay with him. I wonder if the bear represents sexuality, because I've had feelings like that I want to become sexual with him again and undergo some sort of sexual healing (it's been very difficult since we broke up to even think about sex... I still feel attached to him and that he's the only person I want, but when we're together I can only think about what he did. He is regretful of what he did btw and I've been trying to forgive him).
So I just can't work out if the dream is telling me that my independence is being kept chained up and is angry at me or if it's my sexuality that needs to break free. I would have gone with the first one, until the last part of the dream where it began to get all sexual...
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