Hi guys,
For two non sequential nights, I've had dreams that involved my searching for a knife. I'm sorry for the vague descriptions, but most of the details escape my memory now from the first night:
The first night - I knew someone was going to come and hurt me as I slept, so I found a sharp knife and as I waited, I gripped the knife by my side. I was in a bed, and I was under the covers. I felt an impending sense of dread knowing that someone would be coming to hurt me. Eventually I had a confrontation with the people looking for me - and my knife was extremely sharp - it sliced effectively and easily and I was able to defend myself. I remember being excited about getting a knife that would defend me.

The second night - I had a similar situation - I was at a school-like institution with a group of people I felt familiar with. Suddenly there arose a situation that I knew I needed to defend myself - so I went about searching for a knife. We were waiting together with each other as the intruders made their way to us. I remember going casually through a drawer of knives, and this time being really disappointed. I was looking for more of a kitchen-cleaver type of knife - the kind I had in my earlier dream - but this time all I could find were really cheaply made, flimsy "knives" that had no real danger to them. this time I felt more anxiety and disappointment that there wasn't the proper things I needed to help me when I needed it. I dont remember confronting anyone in my dream the second time.

Neither dreams were nightmares - just tinged with anxiety and were extremely interesting and exciting (in the case where my knife worked).

Some personal background on me: I am female, 24 I recently started a new job where I am being pushed to my absolute limit; I am in my early 20's but in charge of a lot of people and have a lot of responsibility on my shoulders. I'm wondering if my dream might tie in with that. I am in a solid 4 year relationship and recently got engaged, and am extremely happy with my relationship. I dropped out of college early. I tend to doubt myself and have a lower-spectrum self esteem when it comes to my talents and abilities. I work very hard and I am passionate about my profession.

Also, as a side note - I always tend to have dreams in very large spaces. Most of the time if my dreams are in-doors, it is in a very lofty and big room. Part of my second dream took place in a dorm/loft-like area that had very big windows. My dreams tend to be cinematic and have large geographical places or spaces involved in them. Any thoughts about this?

Thanks so much!