A dream i need some feedback on

[nakedsoul]

Dear people, Yesterday i had a rather strange dream which i cant completely remember, but it gave me a new vision on life, i'll try to explain it and, please feel free (i insist even) to respond or share your comments and views or whatever you want. Me as a person (in reality) Im a male, 36 years old, i have a form of adhd combined with asperger and obsessive complusive behavior, also after some tests, it seems i can also use some of these disorders in mij advantage. My passion is playing drums, i play music from all cultures, like latin, african, balkan, even electro, and bebop jazz (the more notes the more i like it) Another passion, or obsession is rachmaninovs 3rd pianoconcerto, even though i dont play the piano i still have the sheet music, and know almost every note by heart, i listen to it every day 1 or 2 times for about 7 years now, as far as i can remember (and i also like the 1st 2nd and 4th for that matter) Also one of my obsession is programming, hacking, 3d stuff, and how virusses work and are structured. I dont really believe in god, or higher powers, i do believe that music represents a universe of emotions which are as magic as some people have with religion I am addicted to amphetamines, this helps me to control some of my disorders, i know its a form of self-medication, but it works for me, and i dont use it for fun, i never did, but sometimes i cant sleep for days and then i notice an instant rem sleep after about 2 minutes, this sometimes wakes me up again with very negative physical reactions, feelings of choking and drowning or death The Setting before the dream: I can only remember images and moments of it, but they were very real, and at that moment i didnt know i was sleeping, it was very intense. Before this dream i was awake for about 72 hrs, it was about 17:00 when i was completly tired out on my bed with my drumsticks in my hand having played for about 60 hours of mindexpanding jazz things with complex multiple time signatures at the same time, this puts you in a sort of deep trance where after 1 or 2 hours already you start feeling high, i didnt eat much the whole time i was awake, and i was really tired and still full of energy. Then i fell asleep with the lights on, and my clothes on, i live alone, no pets, and there was no music or t.v. on, my apartment is on the 4th floor, i dont have many windows and keep the curtains closed mostly When i was sleeping: So what i can remember is the following: I was somehow captured by a voodoo-tribe, and i felt they did experiments on me, they made me drink muddy water with little babyskulls in it, and some other things like leaves and things from the forest or something i felt a little scared, but i did drink it myself without fear for the drink itsself so after a while i dreamed i got high in a strange way, but i was at my house again, then i went into the bathroom and looked in the mirror, my eyes where covered with blurry white smokey spots, and my vision was very vague, it made me feel like i was in someone else his body, but it was my own, like i never was myself before after that i knocked-out, and i knew i would be oke, and the fear would ge away, one of the final thoughts in my dream was that the voodoo-tribe wanted to help me, or tryed to do something to make me better After the dream It took me a few hours before i started remembering what the dream was about, i woke up confused but not in panic, i knew i had some heavy dreams, but when i remember the images i feel they are very real, and even though i dont really believe things like this (i am open about it) this experience gave me the feeling that it could actually be real. I never had a dream like this before I hope that this story makes at least some sense you you, and if you have something to say about it, plz post it here, or pm me, or let me know, i will be greatfull

[AnotherDreamer]

I Don't have a definitive idea of what your dream means. Sounds like those voodoo guys were trying to give you a bitter remedy though. I've had similar dreams where I drank something that healed me, for me it reflected that I was going down a dark path that I didn't like. The potion I drank was knowledge and truth that helped liberate me from what I felt was an unavoidable way of living. What does the potion they made you drink represent to you? I also just have to say, I love what you said about music. It resonated with me quite strongly. i do believe that music represents a universe of emotions which are as magic as some people have with religion I kind of have an obsession with bebop and stride, really any genre that has a lot of notes, complexity, or strangeness. I also listened to Rachmaninov playing Piano Concerto 3 while reading your post. What a fantastic song, I think that I can somewhat see why you are obsessed with it. One song that I am a little obsessed with as well, is this one version of Autumn leaves played by the Bill Evans Trio https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r-Z8KuwI7Gc I hope you get some better feedback on your dream than what little I've said, some of these unconscious knots can be quite tricky to untangle.