I know that I should be afraid by this dream but actually I was really cool about it, no fear, no sweating, but it was a nightmare. The overall feeling I had was guilt.
It seems in the dream that I had a very close friend to me that I cared about, a young woman about the same age as myself. I couldn't see her face yet. I was walking all over the place with her and we were inseparable.
One day, we meet a boy/ short guy - couldn't tell for sure - who pulls me on the side for the first time separated from my true friend, and tells me what I am doing walking around with her because she is dead. He told me that she threw herself from the tenth floor and was crushed on the pavement, but she started walking again. I was upset, I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Suddenly as I was walking next to her I found out that her body was decomposing in front of my eyes, but I couldn't run away from her as I loved her as my own flesh. She seemed in pain and anguish, and I felt so sorry about her pain, that I wanted to do something to ease it out.
So, I went to the little guy and asked him what should I do. He told me to take her heart out and feed it to the birds. With regret, and reassuring her that it's only for her own good, I took her to my place. my home where I spent my childhood, back in my home country, that I havent' seen in 8 years. I opened up her chest on the kitchen counter and inside her everything was black and brown, no blood; everything was decomposed. Her heart was small and dry, and shapeless. I plucked it out with a rod and threw it out on the window. The pigeons approached it but they wouldn't eat it. So the little guy said that I should just put it back in her chest. But, I could not reach it as I threw it way too far from me. I felt guilty, so guilty for her pain that I could not forgive myself.
She was in so much anguish now that she couldn't say anything anymore and could barely move. So I helped her to lie in bed, and I went like a nut on the streets to find someone to help her to ease her pain. I found a big guy, almost a giant, very charming and attractive, who promised me help, but by killing her. He also told me that for that act I shall be the only one responsible, and not himself. So, I accepted in order to stop her sufferings, and I brought him to her bed.
Then I wanted to say goodbye to her, and I lied down next to her and I looked deep in her eyes, we were both crying, and I noticed that my friend, was myself, she was me, looking at me. I then cried and promised her that we will meet again in Heaven, and that she should not be afraid. Her face was clear, full of tears, but not rotten at all. It seems that her whole body was decomposing, but her head. Then I woke up.