Falling in love with a dream girl

[Loegaire]

Last night was one of the strangest I've ever had. The FIRST dream was usual, so far as dreams go. I've forgotten a lot of it because I didn't have my notebook handy to write it down, unfortunately, but I remember some of the important stuff. A lot of the beginning I'm forgetting, but I remember being in a very fast-moving jeep style of car with a girl standing a little behind and to the side of me. What I remember of her physical appearance is really only three things- shoulder-length blonde hair, a long narrow face, and a long and slightly curved nose. The nose was the most important thing in that I had a very clear picture of it, while the rest was clear, but less so. We were driving through this long field sort of thing, kind of like you find in video games: really wide, with woods on either side, small rolling hills kind of thing. The grass we were driving on was nothing but tulips in a thousand different colors, though it was predominantly red, with a little orange and a bit of yellow mixed in. This dream was also the first time I have EVER remembered seeing color. I was going out of control (and it was me in a different body, but still me) and she put a hand on either side of my head really calmly and started steering the jeep by turning my head. The girl is the daughter of Mrs. Newnam, one of the teachers at school (I didn't even know she had a daughter until someone told me today) merged with Terry Pratchett's Angua (who's a blonde werewolf). This girl was definitely a werewolf and I knew it, though she never transformed. She also seemed a but melancholy, which will make sense after hearing the second dream. That dream ended there when I woke up. Dozing off again, however... The second dream was strange in that it was almost a continuation of the first. The same girl was there, except now I was House (TV show doctor) talking with Mrs. Newnam. I was pulling off surgical gloves and telling her that her daughter had (ovarian? Might have been.) cancer and only had a year or so to live. Mrs. Newnam said something to the effect of "No, no, she's got nine years." and I got- not angry, exactly, but annoyed- and sort of very forcefully said, "She's got ONE year." Mrs. Newnam just nodded and left after that. Then all of a sudden I was me and not House. I had what looked like a PSP in my hands and was using it like I use my laptop, in a sort of three way chat with Mrs. Newnam's daughter and a guy from OD (another forum). I started tearing up during the conversation, though no one knew it. The daughter already knew she had cancer and seemed ok with it, but I wanted to tell her I loved her before she went on a trip in a little while. We bantered a little bit, and then I typed up a long message saying that I loved her, and then just as I was finishing, she signed off. It was like I'd been punched, minus the physical pain. The guy from OD came back online (he'd been away for a minute or two) and tried talking to me, not knowing what had happened, but I didn't reply. It was like somebody cut a piece of me out and I just couldn't deal with it. I signed off, and then I woke up. I honestly think I fell in love with that girl in my dream- and the feeling persisted even after I was awake. I don't know if she was maybe just my ideal lover, put together by my subconscious, or just a random dream figure that caught my eye. It doesn't really matter, I don't think. Oddly enough though, I think this dream may be the most helpful one I've ever had, because up until now I was never sure of what exactly love was. I think I got a glimpse of it and a brief feel of it, and now I know that it's real. WHY COULDN'T SHE HAVE BEEN A REAL PERSON?!

[Leo Volont]

The most interesting point in these dreams is the field of colorful flowers. these are to clue that these dreams represent a new tier in your Dreaming. The Girl represents some level of Integration of Opposites within your character. Every new synthesis, rite of passage, or stage of maturity is accompanied by some manifestation of Muse, Goddess or Oracle. One must guard against any particular fixation on any single one of these Goddesses. Indeed, I have learned in my dreams that such Goddesses come in pairs... no, not at once, in a single dream I will engage in the company of one in the first part of a dream, and then move on and engage with the other. And I have consistently found that while I had always been very fond of the first, the second one always managed to render more than adequate consolation.

[Distant Clone]

Originally posted by Leo Volont At the beginning, I had been in the university library studying for finals five days. My twin had been re-arranging tables all over the place, left a whole bunch of crumbs on one, and I ate the last brownie there. He ran off without cleaning up his mess, and arguing with him about it made me angry. As I was cleaning off the table, one by one, four others sat down at it. The last guy to sit down was not paying attention and spilled soda all over my fairly nice gray *colored pants. He was the only one with a drink, and I cautioned him about what just happened. He did not think it was him, but at this point he had already started with an orange drink now that his other can was magically empty. He was not paying attention, again, and the can came unbalanced as he poured more soda on my pants. Everyone saw it this time as he was standing, and instead of getting mad I just said "Oh man, my pants are getting owned". At this point, unlike the first dream, the librarian entered from the left. She was the oracle/muse/goddess figure. She was dressed in white, blonde hair, surrounded with an almost golden aura. She looked at me and said "You have no idea how many people you have made smile with all the good that you do". Something to that effect, as three girls were in the background. They were exemplifying her comment, all smiling and in awe of how calm I stayed. The librarian leaned in and gave me a hug. I understood that this was my last semester at college, that I would not be seeing her again. After that though, I did other nice things, like teach class for my teacher, while she got rid of an elderly couple, and gave a fellow one of the foot rests under my bench, but no other "sign of maturity". This happened at most a week ago, could it be still to come in a later dream? I have also had at least 10 repeated dreams within the last week. Is that related to all of this?

[Leo Volont]

Dear Distant Clone, yes, I acknowledge that I am fortunate that my dream girls come in tandem, but I would insist that it is a very good thing and would hope everyone might experience about the same thing. Why? Well, because it has kept me from being overly fixated and attached to any one Girl. It has created a situation where I am open to integrations and personality synthesises from every direction. If every 'Girl' represents a seperate and discreet Aspect, Function or Talent of Character or Personality, then am I not so much further ahead of those other dreamers who pine away for those single apparitions. All while I am getting them All. But it is true that I don't remember ever consciously deciding for or practicing a policy that would bring about these multiple appearances. it simply began to happen that way. But, yes, I do consider myself both fortunate and lucky. Monogymy may be the order of the World -- the way Society has come to decide how women are to be regulated as property. But in our dreams we should stop being moonstruck boys and instead become Men of the World, and decide upon welcoming wityh open arms as many ladies as choose to appear.