New here, and stressed, :)

[Xentec]

Yup, i'm a stressed out guy so heres my dream. I don't remember most my dreams and thats fine, but when i do remember them they stand out to me as odd. I had a dream i was back in the place i lived through my 4th to 8th grade years. Now i love asian/latin women, so in this dream there was a beautiful latin girl that i murdered, if i remember right i broke her neck the first time. Then after that i wondered why i did this, tho i was NOT upset, just slightly botherd and wondering why. Then these two large guys pull up on a 4 wheeler and drop two bodies in the yard and drove off. Then lo adb behold the girl i killed was now climbing around this large oak tree in the front yard. I shot her and again feltt he same, yet i tried to cover up what i did. Then i woke up. I didn't know this girl and and she was wearing a blue shirt and white pants, all in all a beautiful girl. Why would i destroy something i would strongly desire in real life? Real life and me. My oldest brother is mentaly ill and he is the major source of my stress, my life is not where i want it, i've made stupid choices and i just feel bla bla bla for a lack of a better word, not motivated at all. thoughts?

[Inspirer]

First of all I very sorry to hear that your brother is mentally ill, it sounds like you worry all the time what he will do. Dreams often come in three parts. In the first you're in your childhood home, where you lived during 4th to 8th grade. The home is your psyche, and this one is about what was going on back then. The beautiful latin girl you murder for no reason by breaking her neck probably represented your desire for such women or your approach toward them. The breaking of the neck means detachment between the head (rational) and the body (emotional) and I'm guessing some of your stupid choices are concerning the impression you made of yourself onto women, and now some women see you badly, and you don't know why you did that. In the second the two large guys pull up in a 4 wheeler? A car is generally control over life, or factor of it. The guys must be strong forces in your life, and the two bodies are ways of the past (perhaps the way you and your brother use to be.) In the third the woman is alive again and climbing the large oak tree. A tree, similiar to the house, is yourself, but it is your personal growth. I think the woman is your relationship with women in general, and ascending up your personal growth, whatever that would mean. You shoot her killing her again, perhaps to mean that you said something horrible, killing a relationship. The white pants is probably innocence in the walk of life, and the blue shirt is a character type of depth of spirituality or wanting. I'm guessing that your love life is suffering as a result of your stress, and you are mistreating women without knowing why.

[Xentec]

Well, no i get along great with women, tho i am single right now. But i will say that how i feel inside is never shown outside, i'm an army brat i'm used to keeping things inside and people never really getting to know me, so now i don't let people inside me. To all people i know, i'm the average guy, but inside i'm stressed and generaly fed up with everything it seems. I'm not violent at all, i'm the guy that don't flip out on people and fight, rather i'll take it out on my door or something. Again, i treat women great i have more friends that are girls than guys. My only real stupid mistakes with women are having sex with women i wouldnt generaly date. basicly jsut getting laid, and i do feel kidna bad about that. I want a serous relationship and i want to not have to stress over my family life, more so that anything id love to be able to leave the worry of my family behind me. That i know is my number one source of stress. I still don't get why i'm killing a girl i consider to be so beautiful.