Strange deram I've been having for weeks

[SpiderLily_x]

I get this dream a few times a week, and I'm wondering if anyone can help me figure out the meaning. I have a biasic idea, but I need help with the details. In this dream, I'm unaware of my suroundings, or where I am exactly, bit it's verry hot, dry, flat, and the ground seems to be rough and sandy. The sun is always verry high, so it seems it would be around Noon. (This could be significant because I rarley go outside at the hottest time of day when the sun is out, because my eyes are verry sensitive to light, and I get a temporary loss of vision and a headache when I stay out too long) I'm standing with a pile of wood, and tools, and evidently I'm trying to build something very big, very fast. It seems like a shelter of some sort, however I have no plans to look at while I build. Something seems to keep knocking them down as I go at the wood with the tools.It always seems to fall over or break apart. The strange thing is, it never falls over as if it were unstable, it always seems to fall as if something is knocking it down or shoving it over. Each time this happens, I continue to build it, going faster and harder, and the tools get duller and duller. By the third time or so, I'm covered in scratches and bruises for the wood falling over on me before it's finished and I'm left with a pile of wood and the tools scattered. By now, it's far to bright for me to see clearly, however, my vision stays flawless. I have a large headache, and all my senses seem verry strong. Things are also verry loud. Not literaly, more inside my head. It's as if I'm standing in a large group of people that are all experiencing a different emotion and constaly crying or yelling, however this is all inside my head and as far as I can tell, I'm all alone in the middle of nowhere. I'm also verry tired, and panting from the heat, I have no water near me, and it seems like I'm running out of time. That's the basics of it, a few other details and background information are listed below. I always seem to wake up before I've finished building whatever it is. I wake up panting and sweating, with an increase in heart rate, and feeling verry tired. I'm weraing a white sleevless shirt, which is unusual, because I have permanant scars on my shoulder from an accedent in November of last year. I can't stand large groups of people, without something to distract me at the verry least, so the sensation of people being aroudn me when I'm alone in the dream is frigtening to me. This dream is usualy the only one where I cannot become lucid. It's never that hot or sunny where I live, (near Seattle) In the dream there is never a cloud in the sky, however, the sky is never blue, it looks brown and unclean, as if from all the dust everywhere. On the topic of weather, I also love the rain, so I assume the fact that it's too hot and dry in my dream to be a negative aspect. I also don't have to be completly asleep to recieve this dream. Ity's happened when I'm only partialy awake. (Like verry tired or just woken up and not fully awake, a verry light sleep, when I haven't had a decent sleep for a few days, ect. However, it's never as clear when I'm not in a deep sleep) I'm also wearing a metal chain around my neck, a necklace I always wear that works sort of like a luck charm to me. I always take it out and weave my fingers through the links when something bothers me. I'm also murmering words in my dream as I build. It's always the same words, one of which being Psychosomatic. Psychosomatic is one of my favorite words (yes, I have favorite words, strange as it may be) It defines as something that is only in your head, or only exists because we think it does. It's also 13 letters long, and 13 is one of my lucky/favorite numbers (Aside from 10, 12, 16, 39, 144, 169(no, it's not because it has '69' in it, it's because 169 is 13 squared.) and 86400). I also have long hair, which is strange because my hair has been cut short scince December. It's pulled back, so I think the dream is supposed to take place in the past. I hope that's detailed enough for people to help me interput, I'm sure theres something I've been missing that maybe only I would be able to guess the significance of, because this dream seems to have more personal symbols in it then universal ones.

[Swikity]

Oh no. This is bad. This means that you will die sometime in the next few weeks. Probably perishing in a horrible fire. hahaha Just kidding. I really don't know what this means. There could be a chance that it means nothing at all, and that your mind is just thinking of stupid stuff. Sometimes after I play video games for a long time, all night long I will dream about that game, eventually waking me up after a long time. I just try to think about something else, such as Hockey as I drift to sleep.

[SpiderLily_x]

I figured after the first time that it was just not going to happen again, but usualy I'm a better lucid dreamer. I also get it more and more frequeuntly.

[laurasdream]

Recurring dreams occur because your subconscious mind is desperately trying to convey a message that you are just not "getting", as you may be well aware. Also, universal symbols appear in every dream, whether we remember them or not ...this is just part of the framework of our psychology and the way our subconscious mind works. I really feel like this dream is centered around the accident that you mentioned; was this a really bad accident? I feel that this accident has had a greater impact to your well-being than you may realize. Are doing any kind of physical therapy at all? Let's get to the details of the dream. First, there are some universal symbols we need to look at first: Heat, Desert, Tools, Wood, Headache, Building, Scratches, Bruises ,Sun The setting of your dream takes place in a desert and suggests that you are in a very lonely place right now. You may feel a lack of certainty about the direction of your life and about your self worth. To dream of over-exposure to the sun suggests being exposed to your inner most feelings without knowing how to cope with them – again this seems to revolve around the accident that you had. You may not be ready to cope with the emotions you may be feeling. Attempting to work fast and hard to build something with no plans, is representative of your lack of plans for the future, as you may be trying to build a future based on a whim without any long-term recourse. Buildings, like plans will not last unless built on solid ground. The tools in this dream represent your skills and abilities in building your future. This could be from a career-standpoint or on a personal note. Your tools become duller and duller as you use less and less of your true abilities and talents to build your future – this may be due to some hidden depression that has not yet come to surface. Bruises and scratches are symbolic of life’s bruises and scratches and the obstacles you will face in securing a stable and productive future for yourself. Your dream also suggests that you thirst for future stability, a sense of self-worth and the ability to achieve your goals in a timely manner. You still have long hair in your dream because you long for things to be back to the way that they were before you had the accident - you still see yourself the way you were before. The voices that you are hearing in your dream may be two fold: First, they are suggestive of many inner voices that you have and you may be attempting to hear the one voice that is true to you. Another theory about the loud voiced: You may be experiencing astral projection (which is more common than we think). This type of loud voice phenomenon happens to me quite frequently when I experience astral projection. This can be quite annoying. What I would suggest is sleeping on your stomach if possilbe. Sounds a little strange, but it gets rid of the loud voices when you are sleeping. :0) Back to your dream: *Overcoming the psychological impact of this accident, whether it be in a spiritual, physical or emotional is within your power, your mind (psychosomatic) - you control the ability to be able to move on and this is what this dream is trying to convey to you and will continue to try to convey until you “get it.” My prayers are with you and I wish you many blessings in your journey. Hope that this helps.

[SpiderLily_x]

Thanks you, Laurasdream, that was verry helpful of you. I think your theory about teh accendent may have some influence over the dream for sure, but then I wonder why it's been happening over the past few months instead of ever scince?

[nightplayr]

I agree with Laura that this could be some residual subconcious trauma related to your accident or recovery. Your dream appears to be a manifestation of physical feelings more than emotional. You're stuggling physically to build a nondescript structure and suffering physically under harsh conditions while doing it. Then you wake up feeling physically exhausted. Your subconscious creates a hot, dry, sunny setting because it knows these are conditions that you find especially harsh and would suffer the most under. It's telling you I feel like you would feel if you were here. Your efforts building the structure may mimic your subconscious efforts to deal with its feelings and its failure. You might try reassuring yourself that it's over and you're alright now but I'm not a trained mental health proffessional. Your dream doesn't strike me as an unusual response to your experience but if it continues to bother you, you should definitely see someone about it. np

[nightplayr]

Spiderlilly, I wanted to add that it's also entirely possible that physical problems with your sleep are creating the dreams instead of the other way around. You could be having some sleep disturbance form your injuries or something like sleep apnea that is triggering them. np