Questioning My Morality [Sexual Content involved]

[IDreamOfWTF]

Well, first, a bit about myself. I'm a 16 year old male who hasn't yet gotten into an relationships. My family doesn't seem to have anything to do with this, so I'm leaving them out for now. I technically dislike anybody under the age of twelve as precaution [to keep from being annoyed to death], but for some reason, I ignore that little precaution in the following dream segment. Another thing, I am not one to fantasize about little girls, before anybody suggests that. This is going to probably come out like a jot of ideas for a novel, or the bit by bit outline of a play, but here it goes anyways. The room appears to be dungeon-like or bunker-like, whereas the walls, ground, and ceiling are all composed of concrete. There are no windows or doors, nor any lights, yet there is some invisible source of light, as it was not completely dark inside the room. There is three to five inches of water on the ground. The only other person in this place is a little girl [appearing to be eleven at the most]. She is naked, as am I. Her features are rather bland. Barely any breast development, hips have barely begun to grow. She had hair that seemed to be constantly changing from blond to brunette, to red, and cycling whenever I looked at her head. Her face seemed blurred, as if I were not meant to recognize her face. My feelings at this point were that I am at peace somehow, and that nothing was wrong. Then I blink and find her bent over, rear end poised in front of my face. Needless to say, I begin cunnilingus, and she doesn't seem to mind, instead, welcoming it. And for some reason, this whole time I don't feel anything wrong in the dream. Then I find I am lying down in the water with her fellating me while I am still licking her nether regions. +I even recall finding her hymen. This is where things start to get blurry and I don't really recall anything else from the sleep cycle relating to this specific dream. [I dream in episodes, whereas everything is new each episode.] +Now the reason I'm posting this one at all is because this dream disturbed me greatly, and I don't know what to think.

[Mes Tarrant]

My opinion is that dreams aren't worth interpreting unless they're recurring. I'm pretty damn positive that this isn't some sign that you are into little girls. We all have dreams that disturb us. For instance I've dreampt about nursing a sick man back to health then stabbing him for the pleasure of seeing him die. I'm not sure why my subconscious chose to give me that dream, but I know it's not because I secretly want to do that.

[IDreamOfWTF]

Well... I can't help but feel that it is important somehow. I never really remember a dream with that much detail unless it is somehow important.

[Mes Tarrant]

Can you give an example of a previous detailed dream that turned out to be important? I think one reason why you remembered this dream in detail is because you knew on some level that it was wrong, hence an emotion was attached to it. I don't remember my dreams unless I read about them in my journal, but there are those few that I've remembered for years now because of the emotion that went along with them.

[IDreamOfWTF]

Well... On a few occasions, I've actually had premonitions a few months in advance, causing myself deja vu. I remember in third grade I predicted that on the little field day thing we'd do, two of my classmates would be put in to the odd group, whereas instead of just a 3 legged race, it was a four legged race. Even what I said was exactly as it was. Another incident where dreams were important was involving a rather painful dream [litterally] where I was mauled to death by a pack of wolves and then forced to watch a pair of girls that I was with get torn to pieces. It wasn't until much later on that my mind was trying to force me out of my little mental slump. That my feelings of depression and sadness would just tear me to pieces if I didn't cheer up. This was last summer.

[Mes Tarrant]

I see how the second one may be important. I'm skeptical about the dream about the wolves being a premonition of what would happen to you (since it only occurred once). It may be that we just create meaning and importance that was never meant to be there? But back to your original dream, thinking about it further, it may reflect a transition that you are going through in life at your age. You're maturing and becoming an adult yet you're not quite there yet. It may reflect the clash of your body and your mind: your body is ready for sex while your mind is still stuck in childhood, hence the sex with a young girl.

[IDreamOfWTF]

Uh... Yeah... I've actually decided to myself a year ago that I'm going to hold out on relationships, because I don't want to hurt anybody, or myself. Could that little bit have any bearing on this dream?

[joey11223]

well if you've told yourself that then maybe that dream is what your brains conjured up to enforce what it's been told. If you have a relationship that's what will happen, as in your hurting them because obviously you shouldn't be a torturey room doing that to a little girl. I don't know but that could be it.