Okay so last night I had this really weird dream... and i had the feeling that i'd seen it before. so sounds like maybe a reoccuring dream right? i dont remember having it but i had the overwhelming feeling of having seen it before.

So im in this insanely crowded house, well i guess maybe it was more of a building or a mansion that someone lived in. it was very confusing, both the mazish layout of the house and what seemed like thousands of people. to me it was all of the world in there. and no one knows where we are, we're all no where near where we live. well all of a sudden we realize that the building is in flames and theres mass panic, people trying to run out in every direction and getting in each others way. about half of us get out, when i realize that i left my friends in there and i turn around and oddly turn into a man to run back in and save them but its just impossible to find them in the confusion so i run back to the gate where a hippiesh girl (shes very pretty and looks about 20) is standing inside the gate and slams it shut. managing to pull a few people back in from far past the gate and far past the reach of a normal woman who she tells 'you have pushed and sacrificed others in order to save yourselves. you must stay.' but there are also innocent people left inside the gate. and we're yelling at her to get out of the way that we have to get out or we'll all DIE and she says 'no you must remain. this is my house and you must remain.' and calmly walks through the crowd back into the burning house. people are trying to grab her and get her to unlock the gate. but no matter what anyone does or how big anyone is trying to push her she will not be moved. she tells us all that we must go back inside the house. and she walks into a part of the building not in flames. and strangely people follow her. everyones scared and thinking that we're going to die and that the flames will have to eventually reach this part of the house. she waits a few hours then speaks, i can get all of you out of this situation. away from the fire. but you must give up your most prized possession. somehow she conveys to everyone exactly what that might be. mines my laptop. which is weird b/c i dont prize my laptop or anything i own THAT much. i happen to have it with me. she warns 'if you use this posession... you will be returned. this is your second chance. use it wisely.' suddenly i feel this rush of wind and im laying on the ground in a field near my house my laptop and phone are lying next to me. and suddenly i hear it beep and reach over to turn it off when suddenly i feel a rush of wind and im back in the house with about 15 other people. she says gravely, 'i gave you another chance. and this is how all of you repay me. acting like school children, not heeding my word. well now you will all pay as school children. you will stay here for the next 70 years and come in to clean the school house and clean chalkboards. and i will teach you. everyone seems confused, and she says you heard me, you will come in at 6:45 every morning to do this. after you pay your sentence, you will be returned to your time. everyone sighs and i speak up 6:45 in the morning? no she says looking angry, you will come in at 5:45. we're in there cleaning for about a week while she supervises and comes around to talk to everyone (im still a man). she says what do you think of your sentence? about cleaning? can it compare to morally cleaning your slates? you, both the innocent and guilty must repent for the sins of your kind. together. sacrificing, together. and i say something about how i dont understand how mankind cleans there world physically and never makes an effort to morally cleanse themselves, to take a look at their actions and make the world better. she stops, and says, that is a very intelligent statement. one that i have wondered, and hoped for my children to realize for all eternity. that must have been very difficutl to make come out of the mouth of a moral while he pays in labor for the sins of his kind. you may all leave. and suddenly, i feel a whirl wind and im laying in the field again. my phone i yell! and it comes tumbling down along with the laptop. which is broken and it starts making a beeping noise. i look at its screen and feel the overwhelming urge to close it and suddenly i feel the wind again. NOOOOOOO. and im back in the house. which is still in flames but not in the part we're standing in. she says to me sadly, my son, why did you feel the urge to use your most worldy posession? 'but i didnt'!' i reply i just looked at it... 'it is enough' she answers. and she takes me outside to her beautiful garden. where we sit together, sometimes in conversation, sometimes in silence for what she tells me has been 40 years. 'i am sooo sick. of all this beauty' i tell her. she looks at me, 'what?' 'i just cant take it anymore,' i say, and she looks around and makes the garden bloom into even more overwhelming beauty. trees blossom, flowers grow, a stream runs through it. 'how is it not enough? this is the world at its best, how i meant it'. ' i dont understand how you do all this. how do you have these powers. who are you?' i ask naively. 'my son, she answers, i am the creator. i am mother earth. i am everything. i am you. i am god. how do you not see? i have kept you here for so long and you still do not see?'
and suddenly i understand it all, what shes trying to teach me. and i feel the wind rush and look around and im in the field again. with no laptop. (not that i understand the meaning of life now in real life lol)

this is just plain weird.