Dream of 2 places at the same time

[Ilumirath]

Im a 16 year old male, 68-72kg, 1.75m tall, dark brown hair, dark brown eyes, white skinned, real name Nicolai but my friends call me Gino Im Christian, Evangelic Im depressive, angry, hatefull, negative, asocial, selfish I lisen Heavy Metal, Gothic Metal, Gothic Rock, Metal, Death Metal, Shock/Rock, Rock, Hard Rock, first i lisend to rap but then i met som1 who lisend gothic rock and shock/rock and since then i founded what music i realy like and that guy is my best friend now I feel like my life is ruled by other people, and cos of that i feel like i dont give a shit what woud happen with my life I cant stand if strangers look at me it pisses me off, i coud walk to them and push my fingers in their eyes and say: WTF is your probleme? Cos i got this negative feeling of hate if som i dont know looks at me. I dont want to be like this but thats just the way i am, it only gets worse if i try to be diffrent. I talk alot to myself and unconcious answer back to myself that somtimes i forget im talking to myself, if im with people i talk against myself in myself and when im alone i do this loud. Cos of this i get to hear that im a very quiet person, im all by myself. I hate to be ignored, it makes me feel like im just som fucking background decording. People often ask if im high cos i dont show emotion and dont want to. Thats the reason friends call me Gino, çino speaked as Gino means ghost in turkish. I dont do drugs, smoke cos my mother died when i was 8 of drinking and smoking way to much. And i felt unhappy when she was drunken. My dad left when i was 2 years old. I do drink alcohol but very rarely and its not for getting drunk only for the taste.( Belgium beer FTW! This is my dream i was at school and i was looking around and then i stopped at the door suddenly i tought of goin out of school and by thinking that it gaved a good feeling. So i got up walked to the door and then my teacher came standing in front me asked me: Where are you goin? I replyed back: Somwhere thats not your business nor your concern. Then he pushed me back and yelled: Sit down!! That got me realy agressive and maked me wanted to break his neck (i hate most of my teachers and this is 1 of em) But i tryed to keep myself calm and somhow i got telekinetic abilitys and tooked him and did him aside i keeped him aside as i walked forward to the door. And then i got a flash and while i was seeing my classroom tru my eyes i was also seeing my bedroom it was like 2 images in 1. It got me confused so i coudnt keep my telekineses on my teacher and then he jumped on me and tryed to get me back sitting i struggled with him but at the same time i was sitting in my bedrooms window it was midnight and i was thinking of running away and never come back. I heard a gentle female voice behind me say: This is not want you want it wont get you any further. I replyed back: I dont give a sh*t, this is what i want. (dont forget im also still at the same time in my classroom fighting with my teacher) Back in my classroom i tryed to reach the door but my teacher kept pulling me back, i punched in his face evrything but it seemed to have no effect then i somhow got a knife and i putted my arm up ready to stab him in his chest i stabbed as hard as i coud but right on time an other teacher of me stopped my hand (i realy like the teacher who stopped my hand IRL) But i tryed with all my strenght to still put the knife in his chest they were holding my hands with 4 hands and still i coud come closer to his chest with my knife (it felt realy good that i was fighting with him and close of killing him) Then a other teacher wich i dont like came and pulled the knife out my hand it made me even more angry and agressive. In my bedroom i was talking with the female the whole time about if it was good to run away. She was realy good and seem to be carrying about me. Mostly i feel rejection and hate of people, but i dont care. Then i got loose of my teacher in my classroom the whole time evry1 of my class was yelling: Com on you can do it, kill him, hurt him!!! Run away!!! Then when i got loose i walked out of my class room and the 3 teachers standed there and where dissapointed cos they coudnt keep me in the classroom and the 1 i fighted with said: Let him go. At that time i was not being at 2 places anymore i was just in my bedroom. Sitting at the window i looked at the girl who i talked with the whole time, i saw her before in a dream it was a very violent and bloody dream. She gives a peacefull and warm feeling if i am near to her. Then i stood up and jumped tru the window. I saw myself walking away from my bedroom window as i was looking at my self i felt a pretty strong feeling of negativity, hate, anger. IRL im not angry all the time, but in my dream as i saw myself walking away it was if i was looking at som1 else, even if he looked exactly the same as i do.