I dreamt I got raped last night

[BenQ]

Last night I had a dream of being raped. I am a male, and in the dream I was male, and the person who raped me was some kind of combination of male/female. In my memory, the person was a big black female, but, there was some kind of penis since I got raped. But what's weird is that it happened in the dream - I was held down and penetrated 4 times - but later in the dream, I remember telling this person I loved them. Ah! Talk about a psychologists wet dream eh? To add a twist, I saw a porn yesterday also of a woman getting raped. (Not for real - it was acted, and badly acted at that, on all parts involved.) But what I find so disturbing was that even though I was raped in this dream, I clearly recall having feeling for the person. Interestingly, I'm going through a divorce right now, having been separated just a month ago. Perhaps the dreams is some kind of mind melt of those thoughts floating around my mind in combo with having just see an effed up rape porn video. Weird... any thoughts?

[kristabella]

Last night I had a dream of being raped. I am a male, and in the dream I was male, and the person who raped me was some kind of combination of male/female. In my memory, the person was a big black female, but, there was some kind of penis since I got raped. But what's weird is that it happened in the dream - I was held down and penetrated 4 times - but later in the dream, I remember telling this person I loved them. Ah! Talk about a psychologists wet dream eh? To add a twist, I saw a porn yesterday also of a woman getting raped. (Not for real - it was acted, and badly acted at that, on all parts involved.) But what I find so disturbing was that even though I was raped in this dream, I clearly recall having feeling for the person. Interestingly, I'm going through a divorce right now, having been separated just a month ago. Perhaps the dreams is some kind of mind melt of those thoughts floating around my mind in combo with having just see an effed up rape porn video. Weird... any thoughts? Hi, Im going to take a stab at interpreting you dream. I am new to dream interpretations, so bare with me ok? You dreamt that you were raped but you actually had feelings for that person. Such a dream typically symbolizes, you are having physical desires for someone, someone you feel you shouldnt be having these feelings for, causing you guilt. You wont allow yourself to act on such desires but deep down, on subconscious level, you wish they would act on it. Therefore, should anything happen, they would be accountable. You dreamt you were raped by a woman, but in the dream you had feelings for her. You went so far as to tell her that you "loved" her. The woman represents your femine side. Since, you loved her, it means you honor your feminine side. Even if it is on a subconscious level. However, the penis you dreamt about is rather telling. It symbolizes your desire for a stronger masculine energy. Perhaps feeling comfortable with your femine side causes you some sort of inner conflict? Hope I was some help. If its off, im sorry. It is my first interpretation ever.

[soreal]

Its possible you were attcked by some alien energy posing as this male/female rapist. They are masters at manipulating our feelings by creating various frightnening or pleasing scenarios and feeding off the resulting strong emotion. Or it may be wish fullfillment but its obviously connected with watching that rape porn which you had some stong felings about.

[Clytemnestra]

I agree with Kristabella's thoughts, and I'll just elaborate on some of the symbols that might also hold more clues to this dream. Your divorce has an important role in this dream, as you pointed out. We often instinctively know what our dreams are about. It seems to me to be a big dream of polarities. You are white (I think you are!) and the woman was black. She was also both male and female. This means at this time in your life, you could be trying to find some inner and outer balance. Maybe you even seek out a more balanced relationship in the future. You say the man/woman was big. When something is 'big' it's dominating your life and it's telling you to really look at it and pay attention. There is a big need for balance. The woman being black could symbolise something 'in the dark'. Perhaps you don't quite know what you really want, or how to achieve it. A penis symbolises personal power and also sexuality, but I'd put more emphasis on power. This could mean that a woman in your life right now, is trying to have power over you. Being raped can indicate vengeful feelings toward the opposite sex. Divorces are stressful times and this is quite understandable - but this dream is basically telling you that you could deal with it in a more healthy way. Alternatively, it suggests that you are feeling violated in some way. Something or someone is jeopardizing your self-esteem and emotional well-being. This could be the effect your wife is having on you. You say you saw a video about a play acted rape in real life. Well, as above so below, I say. Perhaps you were guided to see the video to lead you to have this dream. You still had feelings for the person in the dream. This could mean several things. One, you're recalling the feelings you once had for your wife. Or two, you still have some loving feelings for her, despite the emotional difficulties with her right now. It could also mean that you should deal with this situation in a more loving way - forgive the other person, and the situation you've got at the moment will be a lot easier to deal with.

[BenQ]

Wow - kristabella, soreal, Clytemnestra - Thank you for such wonderful replies. I have never posted to the dream interpretation board, and I was not expecting such thoughtful, heart-felt responses. Much appreciated, seriously. I really enjoyed reading your interpretations. I do think this dream is about my (ex)wife and divorce, and the feeling associated with that. Even in the dream when I was being raped, it wasn't particularly traumatic, it was like...I was just going through it. Much like the negative experiences I'd been having for quite some time in my marriage in the last year - I was just "taking it", so to speak.

[kristabella]

No problem, Ben! Thanks for posting and letting me practice on you Also, thanks to Clytemnestra, because I took notes on your response. I am just now getting the basic meanings for the symbols, so that i can start doing intuitive interpretations, too. I hope that is not cheating.