Thread: In need of interpetation please....first post....newbie

Hi all, this is my first post but I keep having dreams about my dog which died.

A bit of background info....I have a rescue staffy called Gladys who we got in 2002 and in 2004 my husband and I decided to expand our family with a bull terrier pup which is a breed we have both always wanted. So in July 2004 Lottie was born, we fell in love with her immediately and in september 2004 we brought her home.

After a few weeks, Lottie started showing signs of aggression, anyway long story short, she had tests and was found her heart was the size of her ribcage and she has the dog equivalent of Schizophrenia . Her eyes would glaze over green and she would just go on a rampge, sinking her teeth into whatever she could get hold of, including, windowframes, gladys our staffy and myself and hubby. Due to the size of her heart we knew her lifespan would be shortened a lot. She started medication and life carried on.

I adored her but hubby grew to hate her and we had many arguments over her. When she was nice, she made my heart sing and it hurt me to see her distressed from an attack of Schizophrenia. She had been put on the raw barf diet by the vet to curb her aggression. On xmas eve 2005 Lottie choked to death on a piece of ox tail. I was and am still heartbroken, The vet said due to the size of her heart she will have only missed one breath before her massive heart will have given out.

Since Lotties death I have seen her on more than one occasion but I have always seen spirit and it brings me comfort.
She has also told me she will be coming back as a bull terrier again,this time she will be how she wanted to be last time but couldnt because of her ilnesses. she wants to be called Gretchen! Not a name I associate with anyone or would have thought of calling a bull terrier. She even gave me the name of a breeder in Philidelphia, we live in the UK but plan to emigrate to Colorado in the USA and when I typed it in, they are indeed a bull terrier breeder and heart and temprement test all their puppies

However whenever she comes to me in dream she always brings back her death and I relive it in my dreams. Obviously this upses me a lot as it was hard enough the first time. However whenever I dream of her she always appears as a white bull terrier with black a stripe on her nose, the exact opposite of her coloring in life, she was black wth a white stripe. The dream is always the same, Lotties last moments relived in detail but with her being white instead of black.
I have also dreamed of her coming and licking my face and when I have woken up I have been wet on the face, just like when a dog licks you, my other dog doesnt sleep in our room and our bedroom door is closed at night.

However last night I dreamed of her again. This time she was black with a white stripe as she was in life, she was very obedient to me in the dream and knew lots of commands. When we went on walks in the dream we would always find money and would pick up the pound coins and the silver coins but leave the 2 and 1 pences. She also licked me in the crease of my arm, the other side of your elbow which is something she did in life. But in the dream she was extremely aggressive towards other dogs and we had decided to rehome her (which is something I would never do). A couple came to see her and decided they would take her, they were walking away from us when she looked back at me, then jumped at the woman and bit her in the throat, I had to rush and prize her mouth open.
The couple then insisted she was put to sleep. The most vivid part of the dream was me taking her to the vets, watching them inject her with the anasthetic and watching her rib cage slowly rise and fall until it stopped. Needless to say I woke up very upset but the dream is so vivid and wont go away, it's been playing rond and round in my head all day. Is she trying to tell me something, does my dream have a meaning, it's been nearly 3 years since her death and still it haunts my dreams, I feel there is a meaning but I dont know what.

Any help, info, or advice would be greatfully received. Thanks so much for reading this far, I know it was long. Thanks again.

I hope I have included enough info, if anyone wants to know anything else, please feel free to ask!