ok so i had an extremely scary dream last night and i was hoping someone could interpret it for me....
so i was at the YMCA i think, and i had just gotten out of my hip-hop class. i went into the locker room to take a shower, and chose a really extravagant shower near the back. it was essentially a bathroom. i noticed two army caps on the toilet and on the sink, but i disregarded them. as i was showering, i noticed a small laptop in the bathtub next to me (there were two partitions to the bathroom, a bathtub and then another bathtub where you shower). it was getting wet with suds and such so i put it outside my bathtub. at the moment i had curtains around my bathtub. Then after i take that laptop out i notice that i had my own dell laptop in the bathtub with me, on the side, and it was getting wet with suds as well, but i left it because it's extremely hardy and would live. Then some woman came in wearing a towel and was surprised to see me here. I apologized for taking her shower and she left taking her laptop with her. then i continued showering, but for the longest time. i remember wondering when all the hot water would be gone because my shower was so long. then some man walks into my bathroom. i remember thinking that i knew him, but in real life i don't. the only thing i remember about him was that he was a dark haired/dark man in general, and much older than my 16 years, maybe about 20s or 30s. at that time my curtains changed into clear sliding doors, exactly like the ones at my home. we began talking about things that i don't remember, but he inched closer and closer to my bathtub until he was right near it. i felt uncomfortable being naked near him, but at the same time i felt like showing off. i knew that something good wasn't going to come out of this. as i reached for some shampoo, he slammed the sliding door open and started going into the shower with me. terrified, i started screaming, and as i did, he shoved his penis into my mouth. i resisted again it, scraping my teeth against it and causing pain, but i felt like i didn't really want to cause him pain, and that i liked it. i could actually feel it in my mouth. he kept saying "stop screaming, you know you like it. you want it." and though i kept screaming, it felt like i was just doing it because i was supposed to, not because i actually wanted him away from me. (which makes me sound like a sex freak, but i'm not....) then after his attempt to get a blowjob from me failed, he started to try and have sex with me. i started screaming, and in my dream i could scream much higher and louder than i actually can. after a couple of minutes, someone hears me and some redhead girl around my age jumps into the room, and beats the man off of me. actually before this, the scene shifts into watching the redhead, who hears my screams and runs into the bathroom. it was sort of like a movie, where you could hear my screams and watched the redhead tilt her head, the rush in. i feel an intense sort of relief, but even in my dream i was disturbed that i even liked it in the first place. the redhead leads me out of the room, carrying the man with him while i somehow am already dressed and ready to go. we walk into some busy hallway thing, like a circular hallway with staircases in the middle. she pushes him away, telling him to never come back, and i remember thinking that since i knew him then i would easily be able to have him convicted. the redhead left, and i heard something about it being on the 2nd floor. then my dream ends.
i apologize for this being so long =P
i know this sounds really screwed up but i feel like this coincides with a fling that i once had with an older boy, who was 18. i didn't really want to have sex but then when he asked i decided it was alright and that i didn't mind.
i really hope someone can help me interpret this dream because it's been bothering me ever since i woke up and i really can't concentrate on my finals studying haha.
thanks!
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