drowned/raped in bathtub

[lostgirl]

Would like some interpretation. I dreamed last night that I was with my husband and we were going somewhere on vacation. On the bus to the resort, we got hijacked and held hostage. He and i tried to run away. We were caught. Then we tried to run again, onto a highway. People were coming after us. I hid in a bathtub that was filled with water and he hid behind it. Then a long-haired blond man found us and got my husband caught. He started putting tarp over the bathtub and I realized that he was going to drown me by forcing me to be under the tarp and in the water. So I tried to get him to stop by suggesting that he come into the bath with me. Even though he was married, he got interested and got in the bath with me and then raped me. In the dream though, suddenly it's not real and I'm reading the whole scene in a book and at the same time watching it in a movie and my eyes keep going from the book describing the scene to the movie watching it. Then I woke up. About me: I'm not married in real life, though I live with my boyfriend. I am generally anxious, depressed and I've been having a particularly hard time for the last 3 years or so (though lately it feels worse). I recently started taking anti-depressants (cymbalta) and increased my dose last week. I have bad dreams a lot, but this one stood out as particularly strange.

[neptunian]

Hi, what a dream. Maybe the vacation part suggests a need to relax and that you are stressed from a relationship or work situation. There ia also a need for emotional relief (bathtub). I think that we become depressed aand in need for medication when we do not accept and feel our emotions but press then inside and cause suffering. Feeling requires flow and expression not supression (putting the tarp on). But there is a natural fear from experiencing negative emotions so we supress. The last part is interesting, it could be saying that most of the anxiety comes from believing or identifying with stories you tell yourself... but it is not real. In truth we can and should be detached , observing our drama and not identifying with it. Getting caught up in stories creates needless suffering. So why don''t you start with a vacation to relax...