Ravenne's (Leo's) Journal

[Ravenne]

First I shall start with my first LD which I had last night and have posted on the Lucid Experiences forum, I shall also put the fragments of my other two dreams that night, I'll do other posts from my scrappy bedside notebooks of past dreams. I have always been really interested in LD but never able to have them, I find I am always to accepting of all situations, and it was only through talking to my friend about Reality Checking and being aware of strange things, that i was able to have this one. This might be a bit long, I have an ok dream recall, although I dont usually choose to write them down as they are usually nightmares and I want to forget them, I shall start though. It starts off at the point from where I can remember it, sitting in a loft apartment with a huge glass roof, with a load of girls who were my friends but who I have never set eyes on in real life, we were watching a nights sky full of moons all clustered together, half moons, crescent moons, all stages, the lot, they kept changing positions and some of them were eclipsing, it was really beautiful. Then New Years Eve fireworks started to invade the night’s sky and we were all standing in a Londonesk square, a new year’s countdown started and everyone was shouting the numbers out of time. I realised I didn’t remember the Christmas that would have been a few days ago, and I thought how depressing it would be to go through January and February again, as it was only April. So I demanded to know from one of my friends to know what the countdown was for, as it was only April, at first they were disgruntled and told me to shut up, then they told me Christmas had moved to April, but I was having none of it. So as we were walking back to the loft apartment, I linked arms with one of my friends, again don’t know her in real life all I can remember was that she was pale, had black curly (permed) hair and was taller than me, I told her I thought I was lucid dreaming, from the Christmas in April evidence, which she thought was cool, I tried to make things happen, like fly or get someone from earlier in the dream back, but it didn't work, and from reading the information here, i realise it was probably too early to start doing that. Just as we were going past the main entrance door to the apartment building and past a shadowy stairwell, I said to her, I hope I don't lucid dream anything bad, to which she replied, "I was just going to warn you about that". What started to happen then was I began to hear my brother’s voice, playing world of warcraft in his bedroom next to mine, talking on his headset, I said to my friend, He’s waking me up the bastard. What happened next is weird, she looked straight into my eyes and said, "Don't let go". Then I woke up, or at least I thought I did (FA), and was having sleep paralysis, a common occurrence for me - i have had both HI and HS from early childhood - , I was lying on my bed on my back unable to move, strangely i could still move my arms. I could feel I was still holding her arm, I could feel right down the length of it down to her hands and move her fingers, but it was limp and like a deadweight. All this I could only feel and not see because my head and gaze was fixed upwards through my supposed SP, and when I brought the arm into my field of vision, my eyes blurred and I couldn’t see it. After what seemed like ages I decided to let her arm go, which was a wrench as she said not to, I tried to get up but my head and field of vision stayed the same even when I was struggling, I managed to get onto my stomach but even though I could move my limbs I couldn’t get anywhere. Suddenly there was a release and I sat up, I turned towards my pillows and saw the indentations and patches of sweat, through all the struggling, of two people. Then I really woke up. That night i also dreamt that my boyfriend and his housmates all lived in tents of varying size supported by scaffloding sanding in a big body of water, I think this took part in my garden dreamscape. There was a dream that partly took part in my shopping centre (mall) dreamscape too, It was a vast Library, like the bookshop in the mall dreamscape. It was in america. Me and a second DC turned into Aeon Flux-esk shape shifting assasins, running through the Library looking for the two head women who ran it. We also did this fishing technique with a camera on the end of some wire as it was the only way to get around their defense mecanisms.

[Ravenne]

Just as i was falling asleep I'm in a competition up against a conventionally pretty girl, *a gossiping female voice beside me,* "It would be her, shes all brown because shes been in south africa, look at her hair its all blonde." almost went lucid when i realised 3 of the girls in the competition had identical highlights in their hair. Thats what woke me up. During the night I was in a huge hotel/housing complex owned by my friend Sian from uni, she was hiding from me and had locked herself in one of her many rooms, I asked her for more rooms as I only has a bedroom, and she replied in a harrased tone "I will give you some." At this I banged on all the doors down the corridor I was jn, shouting "Wheres my rooms Sian? Wheres my rooms?" She shouted through the door that she had added some through a second door in my bedroom, becoming very exited i ran to go see. When I got to my bedroom - pale green and white in a mixed style of, the one i have now, my uni dorms, Fushias room in Gormenghast, and Art Deco - I found the door open and a mesh/cage run (like you get for rats and hamsters but larger for humans) going from the my door to the new door provided by sian. Loads of people were standing in a messy queue waiting for the other door, which i opened and ushered them through. It was my own museum, about me, with a gift shop, and an expensive gift hall for rich people. I had seen it in a previous dream and was shocked to realise so, there were tooled leather "tapestry" wall hangings, and it was stocked with large things like cars "All done up like georgian shoes." Turned out i was a model, had a second or so of 3rd person on my face, which wasn't my waking self. I think my friend Lewis was there. Just before I woke up My mum woke me up with birthday presents before she went to work so this dream was broken and faded quite fast, I was trying to prove something, arguing with a bullish male, like Stanley from, A Streetcar named Desire, which I watched last night before bed. The argument was over a Citroen zara picasso people carrier, go figure. Seeing as it was still early and my birthday I went back to sleep I was living in halls with 4 girls sharing my room, they were younger than me and very loud. To get a break, I went down the hall a computer on a desk, to look on this forum, I was wearing my grey dressing gown and a turquoise sequinned scarf i was give for my birthday. After spending a while on the computer I got called back to my room, because the girls were too noisy and tina, another friend from uni, had come down to complain. When i reached it she wasn't down yet, but i realised i wasn't wearing my gown, but it was ok because I was in a black long sleeved top, then I realised i had no jeans on and was just in my underwear. A guy similarly dressed in a shirt and boxers, ran down the hall from the shower, which helped me feel at ease. Tina came down to complain and i placated her with "I know, I have to live with them, I'll try to keep the noise down." She looked at me pityingly. Then Patt (my bf) and Martin (a friend) arrived to pick me and my stuff up, we were driving, Martin at the wheel with Patt in the front and me in the back, through Whitechapel and as we stopped in traffic lights a man opened the back door furthest from me and said, "Taxi?" then, "No....passenger." He just stood there and Martin laughed and drove off. But the door was still open and i had to get over a big stuffed rabbit belonging to Emma (a friend and Martins gf) to close the door. The car was going fast so i was scared, and trying not to let the rabbit drop out. Me and Patt were dropped off at my parents house, and were sitting in the living room on the sofa, he gave me birthday presents, a big picture frame box, with japanese prints, his mum thought I would like, one with a geisha with a black/green irridecent face, and some venitian masks. He read my dreamjournal on this site and said it was nice of me to include him in them and that he thought it showed our closeness. It was around this point I realised i was dreaming, because it is me who gives him masks and I hadn't had a dream with him in it from starting this journal, I tried to calm myself down to stay lucid, but i felt I was loosing my grip on the dream, so I decided in the dream I had to go back to sleep, on the sofa, suddenly feeling extreemly tired i layed down, closing my eyes saying I must stay lucid, I must stay lucid - There was a loud hissing and blackness, like fainting - and i came back into the dream looking at Patt on the sofa again, but i had forgotten i was lucid. The T.V. announced that Baron Munchousen was on next and Patt said, "I've been wanting to listen to that," I replied "We should watch it then." Then a robot arm came out from the answering machine on the wall above Patts head, at first I thought it was changing the CD but then it came towards us, with its wedged shaped head covered in gold mesh. I said, "Patt its trying to stab you!" and moved him out of the way, I grappled with the robot arm, then realised again I was dreaming, so I made a pushing motion with my arm and shouted, "Blue," this was the first thing i thought of after reading that a woman did this in her lucid to turn the sky blue, because she didn't like the dark. It made the arm go away but patt turned into my little brother and I said to him, "I was lucid dreaming, did I say anything?" he answered, "yea, you shouted blue and were waving a sword around asking if you hit something."

[Ravenne]

Really rough night, had broken sleep and couldn't remember my dreams only fragments and not even in order. Fragment 1 Suncream - that makes you strong? Fragment 2 Secret world while you sleep, like a video game, where my dad - who was nothing like my waking dad - was god. Fragment 3, linked to 2 Dropping a big stone down into the sea of souls, then having to go and retrieve it, having them come out of the sea and chase you, really slowly. Like in Nightmare the kids T.V. program, which pretended to be a virtual reality game. Fragment 4 Part of a ship, maybe pirates, but with no boat, visiting a weird cult in the woods that made you forget everthing about your life, and remembering that you have been there many times before. All in white robes, starting a fight with them, winning the fight. I think i also did the nose plugging RC last night too, except i had to put my hand over my mouth aswell because I breathe through both, but i got distracted by the sensation and lost any lucidity i had.

[Ravenne]

I only had 3 1/2 hours sleep so only one dream remembered today, and not very well. It would have been in so much more detailed, if my mother had not woken me up and started talkimg to me non stop, still i'll be back in uni in 2 days Started off with Blue Markk ( guy from old college) and me sitting on a sofa talking about a party we were going to, The guy who is throwing it owns a club we went to, earlier in the dream, Markk steals sweets off me because they are blue. LInk In the big house ready for the party, host talking to us trying to impress us, Had an opera singer reflected all over the house, There was a medical/chillout room that got hijacked by stoners - I saw their decision to light up as a seperate movie in my dream - and there was a staircase where all the women congregated, one was really fat and said, "No offense, but I have no clue who you are," Link i think i met up with Patt at the party Me and Patt switched bodies, I think it started off as a fetishiy thing but it ended up normal, I'm not sure if we switched bodies or minds. To me I was still the same build, long hair - but definately male - and i was wearing all my jewellery, even our intonation was still th same, but my mum seemed fooled when we decided to tell her about the road trip we were going on, to Brighton. We got lost when there was a bit of narrative and I saw a map with an arrow going along it representing our car. We came to a limewater spring, like the stuff you used in science experiments as a kid, and I had a flashback to when the spring was used in medieval times, in stills. There was a local family by it, and they showed us if you drank lime water with actual limes, you got lime cordial. They said that we couldn't get back to brighton, but we could follow them as they walked back.