Aeo's Dream Journal

[Aeo]

Well everyone, I finally decided to grab my laptop first thing in the morning and write out my dream. I would love any comments or interps...thanks ------------- 5 - 12 - 06 2 dreams last night. The first dream is way fuzzier than the second. The only real point I remember from this dream is about a friend that i'm curious about. In this dream some friends and I are running from the police. My friend (we'll call him J) is handycapped (this is true) in that he needs a cane to walk. He's going to be one of my room-mates next year. Anyways, I'm not sure where we are, but it's unfamiliar. I recall hiding, but being found by the police. No consequences though. Next thing I remember is J talking to his dad on the phone, then he throws the phone on the ground. We're talking about stuff and than J says that his dad raped him. For some reason it made sense that because his dad raped him, it caused his condition, even though in reality it makes no sense at all. Regardless, I felt like "how could his dad place this upon his son? Doesn't he care?" I don't know what's actually physically wrong with J, but i'm very curious to find out (this is in real life) I want to ask him but I don't know how, and I don't think I should because I know what it's like to be sensitive about your physical apperance because of my scars. I feel like I understand what he's gone through in a way, having to wear your faults for everyone to see, yet he is so much more vulnerable than I. My scars are only visible with my shirt off (obviously) and he always has to walk around with a cane because one of his legs is shorter than the other. I used to be extremely self-counscious about my physical appearance, and although I still am somewhat, I am at an accepting state. It's hard though....it must have been hell for him. The next dream is really cool. In this dream I am at my old grade school playing with my band. Not quite sure who all of my band members are, but Jason (my room-mate/really good friend) is there playing bass, and i'm playing my guitar. We're playing in the gym at the school, and there is a huge crowd there, and they all love us. I remember playing Fall Out Boy's "Get busy living or get busy dying...." (For whatever reason, fall out boy has a lot of significance in my dreams. And we were kind of playing along to the song as it was in the backround) Alright, next thing that happens involves 2 people that I know, Mark and Karen. Mark is the kid who has appeared in many of my dreams. He is my friend in real life and we will be living really close to next year (same building). I really like him, yet in my dreams I usually fight with him and he sometimes tries to kill me. His presence has a lot of significance in my dreams. Anyways, he comes on stage, and I guess we're on a break from the show or something, and he says "Hey, do you think if you hung out with those girls over their you'd be able to hook up with Karen?" and I reply: "Umm, I think if I hung out with her by myself i'd be able to hook up with her...." at this momen Jason looks over and shakes his head 'no' and I say "But I don't want to." I really don't want to, i'm not attracted to her at all. She's a sorority girl and I do like talking to her because she's really nice and only recently have we become friends. At this moment Karen comes on to the stage and sits down. I say "Speak of the devil" and I go to Karen and say hello in my stupid fashion (I can talk to girls that i'm not interested in so naturally, and they love me). She doesn't say anything before she gets up and walks off the stage. That's all I remember.

[Aeo]

5 - 16 - 06 at least 2 dreams last night. The first is at dougs house, I remember calling him hella late at night for some reason, and john and sally were asking me about it. I had a question that I needed to ask him that I thought was valid for me to call his home at 1:30 in the morning, even after he didn't answer his cell phone...weird. the next dream we are watching a clockwork orange, again at dougs house. After the movie finishes we all tell justin (dougs brother) that it's really good. Next thing I know we come out of a room that wasn't even there before. I walk to the kitchen and there are these spiders crawling all over me..i hate spiders. I'm freakin out. I go upstairs to that same non-existant room and lie down only to find that the bugs have made a nest in my shirt at my belly button. I get up and freak out and take my shirt off putting all the ants on the ground. I remember doug or justin saying that we'll just leave the ants there. I'm having trouble lately remembering details to me dreams....i'm sure they'll get more vivid. Edit: I recalled skateboarding in my dream. I havn't scateboarded in a long time, and it felt amazing. I always sucked at skateboarding, but I felt like I was flying. I'm pissed, 'cause that should've been my cue that I was dreaming. If only I went lucid!

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5 - 17 - 06 Last night there were 3 dreams I think, but they all kinda blended into one. It was very strange and confusing...here we go! So in this dream my good friend jason and I are out in some small town in the middle of nowhere. We're like really far from home, and I don't know what we're doing here. We're wanting to head home. We met some guy who said he could get us beer if we hung out for a while (we're underage) but we later decide to screw it 'cause the guy could only get us 3 beers. I really have no idea what's going on in this dream. The next dream is very weird. I think that we are almost in the same location, but I am way younger. Either i'm way younger or I just feel like i'm younger. I'm laying next to my mom and she's reading me a book about native americans. As she reads i start to get really sad and she says a certain line about how white people came and killed millions of them, and when she says this I just start crying really really hard. Makes me sad thinking about it even now The next dream things start to get even stranger. I'm on my college campus and we're getting ready to move. I'm in another guys dorm, but it looks completely different from my actual dorm (where i live now). I'm with a bunch of people that I'm not quite familiar with, but I do know them. A couple of the guys decide that they're going to Germany I think, and they're going to be back in time to for us to move. Don't have any idea what this means, but regardless I really didn't want to go 'cause I was scarred. Something about me being part jewish which made me not want to come with them. Possibly a genocide connection with the native americans and the jewish people Either way, I stay on campus and the dream switches to me going to a sorority with a few girls that I know. I was talking to a friend of mine yesterday about hanging out with her at the sorority to eat their food (supposedly it's really good, and free for guests). Next thing I know i'm at the sorority and i'm being interviewed to be a 'male guest' or some shit. This dude was being a complete jackass to me, but I was being very polite. He asks me a question that stuck out in my mind. He says "What is your height, and weight?" I'm like: "Well, I don't know my height (which is true lol) and I tell him my weight." He starts getting on my case for not knowing my own height and saying how i'm not being responsible for something I should know. I'm like, umm ok. Than he says something really weird to the extent of "When I saw you walk in here looking like some fake kid with fake abs I didn't think that you were right to be here." I don't know why this guy was talking shit about my abs...not like my shirt was off or anything...who knows. Either way, I reply with "well, i'm a really nice person and blah blah" I don't know how this turned into an interview! Next thing that happens is that i'm walking around campus and I run into a kid that I knew in high school named tyler. We were talking about something, but I can't recall at all. I liked tyler sophmore year but I began to really dislike him afterwards after he turned into one of those 'hardcore emo' kids and just started being a dick to me and everyone else in general. Don't know how that kid popped into my head! Alright, still in the same dream, we go over to the complex that i'm going to live in next year. It's referred to as the 'sophmore dorms' which is funny. Anyway when i'm there we go to an upper floor of this place (again, it's the actual complex but it doesn't look a thing like it.) Upstairs there are pools and stuff and everyone is relaxing and having a good time. I talk to a lady there who had some significance with the man that interviewed me earlier. She was talking to me about food and I was talking about the point system that we have to buy food at school. She was very sympathetic to my dillema in that I always run out of points. Remember, I wanted to eat at the sorority with my friend, and this lady was very understanding. At this point things get fuzzy and I don't really remember what happens after this. Alright...not done yet. This must be another dream, because now i'm at my driveway for my actual home. I'm walking up to the main entrance and I see that there is a package waiting for me. It's a new apple laptop and an ipod. Don't know why I would have ordered these things because I have both already, but as I approach them I notice that the box for the laptop is open. I go and look into the box and the laptop is missing, it appears to have been stolen. I feel my body heat up as I'm expected to start freaking out. When I was a junior my ipod got stolen and I was so pissed for a really long time...maybe this is connected. I felt myself, in the dream, feeling the pain of anger comming on...and anger doesn't get you anywhere exept feeling depressed. I put my hands on my head and started walking away from my house breathing really deeply thinking to myself that i'm not going to get pissed off. I'm standing out front of my neighbors house now. I mowed her lawn two summers back every couple weeks and got some money from her...havn't really talked to her since than. I'm talking to her now, me on the street and she is in her lawn. I remember i'm trying to hold my dog back 'cause he really wanted to go over to her, but I let him go. My dog runs over to her and than runs right back. this is all I can remember.

[Aeo]

5 - 21 - 06 First things first, I was very drunk after a long weekend of partying Anyways, my dream is very fuzzy, but here it goes. The dream starts with me and another friend at a party. We here the word "cops" and take off. This is a crazy coincidence because on friday we heard that the cops were comming to a party that we were at so we all took off. Back to the dream, we're like hiding under cars and stuff and just doing all this crazy stuff to avoid the cops. I'm feeling quite a rush from running from the cops. We make it back to my dorm room and my room-mate is there. We're talking about how crazy it is that we just ran from the cops. So in reality there is a girl that lives on the floor above me that I did have a crush on, but I got really mixed vibes from her and basically didn't do anything. Anyways, I run into her in my dream and she tells me that she's probably going to go back to the party later, and i'm like that's cool. Anyways, i'm in my room with a couple other people and the door is closed. Suddenly there is a knock on the door and it's the RA's. We aren't scarred because we aren't doing anything, but they unlock the door and just step right in. They aren't allowed to do this, so I get really mad at them. They have 2 cops with them, and there are 2 RA's. They RA's and police are like questioning us, asking us where we've been and what we've been doing. I say that we weren't doing anything, and they have no right to be in here. I get really pissed at them, I even think I put some water in my mouth and spit on one of them They say that they have evidence that we were running away from the police and I kept denying it. It was really weird...all I know is that I didn't back down to them and I felt good about it. they eventually left. A lot more happened in this dream, but I can only remember a bit. The next thing of significance that happens is the girl that I spoke of earlier came to get me and see if I wanted to go back to the party with her. I felt really infatuated by the fact that she came to get me, and of course I said yes. I come with her and her friends and we get to the party. I specifically remember it being about 1:30 am. There is like a bouncer at the door and we all get in. I suddenly remember that I forgot something, and I need to run back to my room to get it. I'm pretty sure that I had to take my pills (i'm supposed to take them every 12 hours, give or take 1 or 2. I'm really ashamed of this part of my life in that I feel I am not fully myself. I don't like the feeling that I depend of medicine to stay alive, even though when I do take it I am completely healthy. ) Anyways, I come back to my room and I take my pills. I quickly get back to the party only to find that the bouncer won't let me in. I'm like "Dude...my friends are in there, they're all girls and I was just here!" But he wasn't having it. I'm feeling like I missed a chance to get closer to this girl...like I totally blew it ohhh....another day, another broken dream

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5 - 24 - 06 My dream seems to be like 2 dreams condensed into 1. I really got the theme of travelling with the dreams, going from one place to another. I'm in a sort of tropical beach place, a place i've been to before. I was at this location a few weeks ago in another dream. We were passing through the place. I specifically remember that my cousin was there, and one of my friends was there. This is the first time this cousin has appeared in my dream, only she didn't look like my cousin at all. She looked like Elisha Cuthbert, or whatever her name is. My friend was like "Dude, your cousin is so hot!" and I was just like whatever My mom is also with us in this dream. I don't really remember what happened and why she was there, but I do remember that something significant happened in a store at this tropical place. Next phase of the dream is that i'm with my sister. My sister was in my dream the night before aswell. I'm driving home (to my actual home) with my sister. We're going to my friends house, and I knew that we were going to smoke weed. I felt kind of worried because i've never smoked with my sister, but I know that she does smoke. I'm shameful of what I do with my friends back home, because all we ever seem to do is drive around and smoke weed. I don't think that I want my sister to know that that is what I did at home. I really didn't want her to be in the car with us smoking. Either way, we never actually made it to my friends house...the dream ended. There is definetly something going on with my sister's life right now that's changing. I havn't seen her in a while, and i'm going to see her this summer. For some reason the idea that comes in to my head is that my cousins beauty (in the dream) is that of my sisters. I feel that I want to protect her from men, 'cause she is a beautiful girl, and the world can be cruel. Who knows... edit: literally the second i posted this message my sister called

[Aeo]

5 - 27 - 06 Well, I finally did it. I finally went Lucid!!! It was so amazing....I can't wait for it to happen again. The weird thing about the dream was that I was only lucid for a short period of time, than I guess that I forgot that I was dreaming because I went back to normal dreaming. Oh well...at least I got a taste of it...it was so rad! In the dream I was in the future. I'm obsessed with the future, so this was cool I thought. It was at this moment that I realized I was dreaming. I tested this out by looking at a tall building and flying up to the roof of the building. I remember looking at the scenery and thinking about how cool it was that I was lucid dreaming. I went to what was apperantly my home. It was a sort of apartment complex that was very small. My mom was in there and I was talking to her but I don't remember what was said. The house was really cool, but it was so small....something about classes of people being devided up. I walked outside to what was my friends house and his complex was a lot bigger. I was confused as to why my friends house was bigger than mine. Either way, I had to go somewhere for some reason. I think I just willed myself over to the next location. It was at this point that I decided that I wanted to have sex with someone, and I manifested a girl We do some good stuff, and all along I remember someone was watching me, and I think I was in a public place. It was really weird, but it felt bomb as hell. Next thing that happens is that i'm going to see my friend, who apperantly lived at this side of town. He lived in a very strange futuristic complex. I really have no idea how to describe it. The only word that comes into my head is "community center" Whatever happened, I meet up with him, and he seems so different. He seems almost 'holy' I don't know. There is an aura about him that's strange. He's been my good friend for many years and he's a great guy. He was introducing me to all these girls that he knew, and I was like this is cool. The dream ends around here.

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5 - 29 - 06 I went lucid again!!!!! Hell yes...it was amazing. Here it goes: Events had transpired before this moment in the dream, but this is all that I remember, so i'll start here. I'm in my dorm room, but it's not my actual dorm room. This is getting really strange because I keep finding myself in places that I know what they are, yet they look completely different, yet familiar. This happens constantly, different houses that I believe to be my home, different buildings that I know to be what they're not. It's really strange... Anyways, i'm in my *new* dorm room, which is a fairly large circular room. It has a yard to it that goes outside also...it's really weird. Anyways, my dog Conan is here for some reason. There is like a party in my room and Conan is looking really frightened. Someone opens the door and Conan almost runs out. He can't be in the halls because the RA's would find him and I would get in trouble. All in all, he's not supposed to be in my dorm room (no animals). As Conan runs out i'm kind of on the ground and I grab him so he can't leave. I grab him kind of hard and I know it's hurting him but I don't know what to do...I feel crushed inside that I have to hurt him. Back in the room now, Conan bites my hand really hard, but it doesn't hurt. I feel like I deserve it, so I don't take my hand away. I just stare in his eyes to say sorry...I look really deeply into his eyes and show him that i'm sad. He releases my hand and begins licking my face. This makes me REALLY happy because I know that he's forgiven me for what I did. I give him a big hug and let him run around in the dorm room. At this moment like 3 or 4 girls from another hall come into my room and I remember thinking "It never ends!" I mean this because they're throwing boomerangs back and forth at the outside area of my room and Conan is chasing the boomerangs and barking. I really want them to stop because if Conan is barking the RA's will know that a dog is in the room, and i'll get caught. It's at this moment that I realize this entire situation is completely nuts, and I remember to do the trick where you plug your nose and see if you can breath. I'm standing in front of Joe and Megan in my room and I plug my nose. I take an extremely deep breath and it feels amazing! This is the first time i've consciouslly breathed in a dream, and my nose was plugged. It's at this moment that I know i'm Lucid I look to Joe and I say "Dude...this is a dream!" and he gets a huge smile on his face and gives me five. He kinda says "yeaaah!" and he starts laughing. I start laughing too and my body begins to float around slightly off the ground. It's so amazing...it's the most amazing feeling ever. I'm trying to think of what to do now that i'm Lucid, so I think of making a girl 'C' appear. C was a girl that I had a crush on, and I really thought that she liked me to, but she doesn't. I was so confused because I thought that this girl would actually be something to me, but she was just nothing. I really didn't understand how the situation went so awry, 'cause I barely got a chance to say what I wanted to say to her. It's just awkward seeing her now Regardless, I saw to myself: "I'm going to turn around, and 'C' is going to be there." I'm not really sure why I wanted her there, but I kind of wanted ask her what went wrong. Basically to get some insight. She had never appeared in my dreams before, and I just wanted to see what would happen. I say the line to myself and turn around only to find that she isn't there. I was really confused, because I thought I had control over what was happening. In shock I woke up, unable to achieve the state again during the night. I then went into another dream. This one was on my college campus aswell. It's at the campus mini-mart, which again looks completely different, but is the same place for some reason. A little back story of the night that led to this dream. We were having a party and there was this girl who was really feeling on me the entire night, and I thought she was really cute. We're all really drunk, and the girl and her friend say they're going to go get some food and they want me to come. They're going back to their dorm first than they were going to call me. At this point I didn't really expect them to call me, so i was like whatever. They do call though, and the girl who I was attracted to brings some other guy along with her and they're practically making out in front of me. Then the girl buys me a quesadilla! All and all it was really strange. I don't know what makes me think that these events are related to my dream, but whatever, here it goes. In the dream i'm at the mart, and I see some guy there who is messing with some pillows. He looks to be in his 40's. It looks like he's having trouble with whatever he's doing so I come to him and ask if he needs my help. I don't really know how to construct whatever he's creating, but I think I can do it. He than starts talking about how his daughter needs to learn about sex, and these pillows will help her for some reason (i know...this is really weird.) i'm talking to him about all sorts of things and basically having a conversation about nothing, and i'm enjoying it. After what seems like a really long time I finish whatever it is that I made. I get up to shake the mans hand only to find that the man is now a very VERY attractive girl. I'm talking just amazingly hot. I shake her hand and she says to me "Well, you should come over to my place tonight" She's saying it in a manner that I read as "come over and you'll get some action." The girl looks like she's 30 or something, and i'm like wow. I don't care at all, this girl is hot as hell. I walk over to my friends and I say did you see how hot that girl is? they're like yea, and my good friend says to me: "Dude, I knew it would finally happen!" and he seems really excited that the girl is attracted to me. I feel good, and than I wake up. weird night. What's weirder is that it keeps going. I'm in a new dream now. Me and three of my friends are walking in some futuristic city to a mall. I remember walking with them but we were all spread out, not really close together. We were all kind of doing our own thing, but being together and being just fine. We go to the mall and I remember being really tired and wanting to lay down on a matress at a bed store. We go to the store and I run into a girl. Lets call her 'A'. I had an insane crush on A a while back. She lives on my floor and we don't really talk much anymore, but we're chill now after we've crossed paths a few more times. She has a boyfriend who is a total moron, but whatever. This girl appeared in my dream I think because during the night with the girls at the resteraunt I ran into her. We were both really drunk, so we were pretty amused with accusing each other of being drunk. She gave me a hug at the resteraunt as I was sitting at the table with the girls I had just met. I thought it weird that she hugged me because I didn't think we were that close, but she's too sweet i'm now at the mall and i run into the A. She ask me what i'm doing, and I say that i'm going to go lay down on a mattress. She doesn't think anything of it and than kind of just wanders off. I wake up after this.

[Aeo]

Everything's very fuzzy in this dream...i was very drunk when i fell asleep. It was insightfull though...here it goes. So there is this girl that I'm not very sure about. It's like, I like her, i think, but I don't really know what to think of her. She seems like one of those girls that would just use a boy...and it's like I know it, but I don't care. Either way, on to the dream. i'm in the library and she calls me on the phone. I don't have her number, so that's kinda weird. The thing that's really strange is that her name was spelled differently, and it was basically a different name. The name was almost close to "christ" but that definetly was not the name. Anyways, i answer with hello than ask who it is. It's C and i'm talking to her. She wants me to come meet her somewhere, but the phone dies. I'm now walking to my dorm and I call her back. She says that she wants me to come see her out front of my dorm. There is something really confusing about all this. All I can think about is that i'm getting mis-communication from her. The way i've been talking to her is that she requested me as a friend on this online friend network thing and has been talking back and forth to me. This is like my journal now haha... So she says that she wants to hang out again...but I got the strangest vibes from her. All in all, the dream only confirmed that i'm confused as hell about this girl, yet extremely intrigued. I leave school in less than 2 weeks though...I don't even know maybe my next dream could please offer me some more insight!

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6 - 4 - 06 2 dreams last night. The first one is very weird. It's like everyone from my floor, but we're in this strange space. It kind of reminds me of my backyard....but at the same time it's inside. I find out that this one kid, L, hates jewish people for some reason. My dad's jewish, so this pisses me off. Anyone who hates a group of people for no good reason pisses me off really bad. I decide to call him out and I sit down next to him. He's saying all these stupid reasons as to why Jewish people are evil or whatever and i'm basically owning him on every point he brings up. At this time this girl, A, comes and joins the group. She looks to me and says "guess what I got!" and i'm like, um.."vitamin water?" and she's like "YEA!" very weird I know. Anyways, she pulls out the vitamin water and gives me a drink. I remember that some more stuff went down in this scene, but I can't recall. On to the next dream.... I'm with a group of my friends and we're going to this party. The party is like a sex party that kind of reminds me of Eyes Wide Shut. It's in the graveyard that's on campus...so that's kind of creepy. The graveyard is where we used to go to smoke weed. Anyways, my friends and I roll up to the party and it's like, everyone can go pick a guy or girl that they would like to have sex with. A bunch of my friends choose partners and then go upstairs. Someone guides me to a girl and asks if i'd like to choose her. She is attractive but I cannot remember what she looks like at all. I say yes, and she takes my hand and brings me upstairs. When we get upstairs there are already people in the room. She sits beside me on the bed and says that we have to wait a minute before we can start. I'm pretty nervous so that's ok. Before I knew it the girl had now become a boy. He's like sitting on the bed playing game boy or something and he tells me that he's going to be right back. I'm speechless...so speechless that I cannot even mutter a word out of my mouth. Luckily there is a piece of paper that has a keyboard on it right next to me. My friend jill is sitting next to me and she's trying to ask me what's wrong. I'm just starring at the ground, completely aware that someone is talking to me, but i'm just not replying. She hands me the paper with the keyboard and I type out some messages for her to read. She completely understands, but I don't remember what I said to her. The guy comes back and he's like "are you ready?" and i'm like "No I can't do this...and you're a man!" he's like "ok, whatever." and leaves. I rush back downstairs to find that my friends are all trying to leave, and I come with them. Next thing I know we're in some yoga class with like 80 people or something....it's huge. We're all doing this stretch where we have our feet in the air and the instructors come over to me and make the comment "Your feet look like a tigers mouth." I have a couple warts on my foot that i'm pretty self-conscious about, so of course this comment upsets me (even though it doesnt' make any sense....) The instructor says that I should order this product which says something like it will work no matter what (i've tried many approaches and none of them have worked) The ad for this product is similar to a product i saw advertised a while back. Maybe this is a sign that I should either try the product that I saw the add for or a sign that I shouldn't use anything...I don't know. Whatever happens, I decide that i'm going to go back to the party and try to have sex with someone. I find a girl (she's black...which i find interesting) and I choose her. For some reason I say that i'm self conscious about my scars and my warts, and she says that's fine, and she gives me slippers. It is like a pack of socks, and i put 2 of them on. She then shoves the remainder of the pack in my pocket. She's really kind. She's saying something like, "Don't worry, goldie's going to make it all better." I don't know where this name came from, but i'm assuming that it's hers. She takes me a hot tub and I start to strip down. I'm really excited now, but it's at this moment that I wake up. So confusing....

[Aeo]

I really need to start to writing my dreams down earlier because they are getting fuzzy. Anyways...this dream was like a movie, and i was an actor in it. It was so weird, it involved time travel and space travel. I really can't remember much, which is unfortunate, because the concepts in it were awesome....

[Aeo]

Wow...last night was intense. It went something like this. We're getting alcohol to bring in to the dorms to drink (we're not supposed to obviously) so we go and meet someone at a house to pick up the stuff. I have 2 strikes in the dorms (3 and your out) so i'm always kind of careful. We get all the alcohol from some guy and we bring it back to the dorms. The dorms look different than how they actually are, but i'm used to places being different than they actually are in my dreams. As we bring the alcohol in some RA's get behind us, so we have to run and hide. I remember that we're avoiding them a lot 'cause we all don't want to get caught, and we know that they're after us. We finally get the alcohol up to my friends room and we're pretty safe. For some reason though, I want to start some shit with the RA's...I have no idea why. I really have a problem with authority figures...especially RA's. I decide to get a can of root beer (ya, i know) and drink on it. For some reason i know think that the root beer will get me in trouble, even though it's only soda. Regardless, i'm drinking it and I see this RA (brian) and he comes up to me. He grabs the can and says "That's it...you're outta here...where's the rest of the stuff we know you have it!" i'm like "What the hell...it's root beer." and he says that he doesn't care 'cause he knows we brought alcohol into the dorms. I get really pissed at him and I throw the can at him and kick him in the leg The thing about this brian guy is that he has a limp in his leg and he has to wear these leg protector things. I don't know what it is. Normally I would have sympathy for people with disabilty's, but this guy is such a bastard that I can't help but dislike him. He has such an authority complex...probably because he was picked on as a little kid, which is sad. Either way, in my dream I was not happy with him at all. at this point in the dream i'm sort of walking around in a suspended state of "what the hell...I can't believe i got kicked out for this." I was then starting shit with all sorts of RA's and just talking shit to everyone. Even my floor's RA who I really like. She's like the nicest girl ever, and she was talking to me calmly, and I just yelled at her "Shut up Katie!!" It really wasn't me at all. The entire time I was thinking to myself "this isn't real" I remember thinking that i was going to have to call my parents and tell them that I got kicked out, and I was just like "no...this can't be happening." I see this now as just a story that my brain was telling myself to try and make me realize that this was a dream. I was half way there...i Just couldn't see it through. I didn't even know who I was in this dream....it was so weird.

[Aeo]

A little update from the previous dream. We actually DID end up getting busted by the RA's the next day...but luckily I hid in the closet....no worries! Last night I had some great dreams. Nothing Lucid, but still cool! For some reason I cannot remember which dream came first, but there were 2 distinct dreams. In one dream it is the next school year and i'm moving into my new place. Everything looked hella weird and futuristic (as usual) and all my friends were there. I remember going to some park and like listening to music or watching a portable TV with some friends. It was really beautiful outside and we were throwing the frisby. It was really peacefull. Something strange that happened is my good friend J comes stumbeling into the park as we are walking back towards the apartments. He's looking all woozy and I ask him what's up. He says that he got in a fight with M, the character that I used to fight with in my dreams not too long ago. My friend J is a lot like me and we're developing a great friendship, so I wonder if he's on the same path as me in life. Who knows. Next thing we're comming back to the apartments and my friend M is in my place. For some reason I thought she was living with us because her mom was there too, but she isn't living with us. I didn't even say much to her in the dream, she was just kind of there. Next thing I remember we're talking about james bond movies and thinking about watching one...that's about when this dream ends. This next dream is awesome. First a little setup. Mark Hoppus from the band Blink182 is one of my idols. He's appeared in my dreams a couple of times, but he's always been almost silent, which is very strange. I consider him somewhat of either a dreamsign or a dreamguide. Either way, I get word that his new band (+44) needs a new guitarist and they want ME to be their guitarist! I'm just in amazement that they would possibly want me to be their guitar player for the band, so I go and meet them. I specifically remember being in my garage at home. There has been a rumor on the internet that the band +44 was going to reveal something yesterday, but it turned out to be false. In the dream though, it turned out that they were going to be playing their first show at the super bowl with me as their guitarist (for some reason the super bowl was yesterday...who knows. I think my brain was just looking for a huge event to shock the world with. Something that everybody would be watching). I was like going crazy because I didn't even know any of their songs, but Mark was like "don't worry man, you'll be fine." I'm just super stoked that Mark still wants me to be in his band. I ask him why he chose me, and he said it's 'cause I had been supporting him since the beginning and I was just what they needed on guitar. This was blowing my mind! Next thing that happens is that i'm with my friend doug and his dad john. We're on the mountain I guess and we're going to go snowboarding. We buy lift-tickets (which are like 50 bucks each) and we're about ready to go. I'm about to go to the slopes when I realize what time it is, and I only have a little bit of time before the +44 show that i'm supposed to be playing in! No i'm talking to my parents and john and i'm like "I can't go snowboarding now...I gotta go play with the band because this could be my big break....they need me!" my mom and dad usually support me with everything positive that I want to do, but they were like "No..you can't do that! You just bought a lift ticket and you have to go snowboarding." I'm so confused, I don't know what to do. My parents convince me that i'm going to go snowboarding for a little bit, just a few runs, but I barely have any time before the show starts. I'm about to go back to the slopes to board but I stop myself. I'm like "NO!...i'm not going to do this right now, I have to go to what I HAVE TO DO!" I leave them all behind and go to meet with the band to play the show.....the dream ends here.

[Aeo]

last night was very strange. 2 dreams. The first dream is that we're at my grandparents house. I have no idea what we're doing there, but there we are and we're talking to my grandparents. This should have been a clue alone, seeing as both my grandparents are dead, and we've sold their house. I don't really remember what went down, but I remember a few specific things when leaving. The first thing is that I was giving both of them hugs and saying good-bye. My family all left before me, and they were waiting in the car for me. I remember seeing my grandma in the hall and she said something to the extent of: "I don't even recognize your mother anymore. She's so ugly now...I can't believe that she's my daughter." I didn't know what to make of this. I was kind of mad, but I couldn't say anything in response. It's as though I didn't want to dignifiy what she said with a response. I was thinking of saying "...but she's an angel" but sadly I didn't say anything. The other thing I remember is that when I was leaving I had a really hard time closing the door. Who knows. Next dream. In this dream i'm with a bunch of people and we're watching a movie, but the movie i'm watching has a character that's like me...but different. It's like, i'm watching the movie, and at the same time it's going back to my reality and i'm talking to people that I actually know and they are like characters in the movie to. It's as though the movie and my dream reality are the same. We're watching this movie where the main character has a kidney transplant (like me) and he's living in this world where aliens are living with us as humans. He talks to these shadow characters who take him captive. They say that he has to comply to what they ask. The way the put across their intensity is that the character is now me. These characters look so evil. They hold my arm and they say to me "You will listen to us" and they start shoving tacs into my arm. They put about 20 tacs in my arm and the entire time they're telling me something. I don't really remember what it is, but all along it is something about "You will obey everything we say....or else" I can't do anything but sit and take it, as my body is in pain. I take the tacs out when they leave...which hurts just as much as putting them in. Now i'm in my sisters room and i'm talking to this girl, L. She is my room-mate's somewhat girlfriend. Lately she's really been getting on my nerves because I hate walking in on my room-mate and her. She's totally chill, but i'm building her up to something that she's not. It's as though i'm pissed at her just because she's making my room-mate cocky about his ego. He than uses his newfound strength in his supported ego to play down upon me. He thinks because he can hook up with girls on the floor that he is superiour to me. Anyways, i'm talking to L and she says that she's from another planet. She says most people are from other planets, and this is where she met J. I'm like "well...am I from another planet?" and she says i'm not. She says that i'm different than the rest of us. I ask her if Starseed's are real, and she says that its just a load of crap. I instantly think that she has to be lying because if she is from another planet and aliens walk among us, anything is possible. I guess anything is possible in my head....

[Aeo]

Well, It's been fun, but I think i'm going to stop posting my dream journal here. Nobody ever replies anyways. To all of you that read it, thanks, but things are getting to personal in my head that I find I waste too much time trying to describe what's happening to the reader. I feel that what I dream is much safer on a notepad in my computer rathar than online. Thanks for reading everyone!