I had a nightmare last night... If one can really call it that. The things I have are less like nightmares and a lot more like very lucid dreams. By this I mean, conscious dreams. Can a dream really be a nightmare if you know it's not real?
I digress. The point at hand is the content of aforementioned dream, not its nature. At the start of the dream, things seemed normal; in fact, at this point, I could have sworn I was awake. I was playing video games on my computer, and I could have sworn the games were real. I broke my iPod as well, although I can't quite remember how. At that point - how can I explain it - I "jumped." Not only physically, but it also seemed like a jump from reality to fantasy.
At a certain point in all my dreams, I am paralyzed; my entire body is numb. Sometimes, in this state, I can move, but I remain numb. During this phase, all sound tends to fade away, except for one or two different sounds.
During this particular dream, I was hovering in midair after I jumped. This is relatively new to my dreamscape, but not entirely foreign. Then, a voice came to me. I wish I could remember exactly what it said, but it sounded sort of like Frank the rabbit from
Donnie Darko. It said something along the lines of "Watch out" or "Be careful." I thought the exact words were "Watch your step," but that doesn't seem right now.
At that point, I began to struggle against the confines of my dream's paralysis. In the past, this has always been a physical struggle, but lately I have found it equally effective simply to close my eyes and force myself mentally to wake up. It often takes several "half awakenings" before I become fully conscious. The last thing to return is the feeling in my limbs, and sound. The first ting is usually my breath and eyesight, however blurry.
Also of note is the fact that despite the fact that these dreams seem to take hours, when I consult the clock afterwards, only minutes have passed.
Now for some speculations. There is a possiblity that these experiences are caffeine-related - they are indeed "jittery" in nature and occur less on light I have refrained from consuming the drug. Also, they seem to be related to light stimuli somehow, although this is entirely based on speculation, there is no evidence to back it up. On a more private note, many of these dreams occur shortly after I have become sexually aroused, although this may just be by chance.
Before I retire, I would like to record one more thing about this phenomenon. It occurs only when I have difficulty sleeping. When I can't sleep, I become drowsy quite suddenly and descend into a dream. When I awaken, only minutes have passed, and I have a clear memory of exactly what I was doing before I lost consciousness. After my reawakening, I fall asleep very easily. The phenomenon never or almost never occurs twice in one night.
Aside from these experiences, I'd like to document a dream I had last night; it involved my return to "H"
(location withheld,) and "D"
(name withheld,) "A"
(name withheld,) and "M"
(name withheld.) The three seemed to be the same person, ad I suppose "D's" persona was dominant - I simply found this particular ream of note, ad perhaps I will analyze it further at a future date.[/b]
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