theyr3000's beginner Dream Journal.

[theyearthreethousand]

28|July|'06. No recall of any lucid dreaming during the night, despite waking a handful of times and falling back to sleep. I accidentally fell asleep on the couch after I had already woken up: experienced a quite vivid and enjoyable dream in first person. Whether or not it was lucid, I am unsure. It did feel that I was in control - although, I was just acting how I would in real-life. I experienced the same emotions etc. Nothing was abnormal, at least I didn't notice. I would like to say it was a lucid dream, but I am not one hundred percent certain. Thankfully, I remembered the dream in great detail afterwards - which is always positive. --> I was chilling with what seemed to be a graffiti gang - almost 10+ people surrounded me. All sitting down and drawing, having a good time. I was the less experienced member of the group, the 'toy'. I recall having to prove my skills to them. After sitting around, a rather chubby man with a beard suggested that we all participate in a drawing competition – the rules I remembered well: we all must agree on an object or person to draw; and then we all complete our own version of the decided object or person and compare afterwards. Each competition was over fairly quickly. I missed out on the first entry because I forgot the rules and had to ask the man to repeat them. Then I was rushing around looking for my 'black book' [personal sketchbook]; searching upstairs avoiding other people who were drinking & smoking. Eventually I returned back downstairs, and overheard the gang leaders [maybe I took the wrong path?] advisors/bodyguards mentioning to the 'big cheese' that there had been some sort of problem. I never saw his face. It definitely felt like more of a Mafia fuelled dream now. I decided to head back to the front room again instead of getting involved and asking questions [although, it did cross my mind] when somebody gave me a few sheets of paper - after I explained that I misplaced my 'black book'. After thanking them, I sat back down in the same seat. It seemed that they had already begun another competition - I looked to my right and seen an amazing marker drawing of a music player or packaging of some sort? I looked left and saw a small guy in his early teens wearing 80's, NYC style clothing. He reminded me of the legendary graffiti writer MIN-ONE featured on ‘Style Wars’. He was eating McCoy’s crisps [crinkle] like a hamster and everyone was laughing with him. I wanted to speak to him but he seemed focused on his drawing despite is bad eating habits. Suddenly the chubby-bearded man mentioned something was up and we all must prepare ourselves. He looked at me and mentioned it being my first time to everybody [he possibly asked me how I felt] - It seemed a routine thing for everybody else. I didn't have a clue what was going on. I expected to be handed a pistol or a weapon of some description. I was nervous but didn’t show that I was to the others. I kept my cool. --> Before the dream developed I was woken by the doorbell.

[theyearthreethousand]

01|August|'06. Hitting the sack after a long night drinking, and a brewing headache; the last thing I expected was to have a completely random, high-octane lucid dream. It was a completely bizarre experience throughout. My memory of the dream is very patchy in places, although, I can still recall many events. It's a shame I don't have a Beginning, Middle & and End - but it is better than not remembering anything I suppose. --> The setting seemed to be like a fairy-tale land. I remember many hill-tops, trees & other greenery - although, the resolution of my surroundings was very poor, almost like early Playstation One graphics. This was a shame – as I was actually flying/hovering/moving quickly in the air over everything at one point! Yes, I cannot believe it. But, [and it's a big 'but'] unfortunately I did not feel the wind blowing against my face or even experience the feeling of heights. It was completely non-lucid! At the time I didn't think that flying at great speeds was anything special. I was sort of a supreme being. Everyone seemed to be relying on me to succeed, and destroy any evil energy - reminiscent to an RPG gaming style! Yeah. I was involved in many hack 'n' slash battles against puny, non-scary enemies. I do not remember this part of my dream being amazingly lucid either; for example, I did not feel any physical feelings such as pain when getting hit, although, I did seem to feel quite emotional at some stages - I was desperate to succeed and protect the others. The battle scenes may have even changed to third person? In the outside world, it is me that relies on everybody else; especially my parents. Maybe this is a message to me to become more responsible and self reliant? Now - if I remember correctly, I was flying after a pixie/fairy godmother character [hardly the greatest Nemesis] near the middle/end of the dream. She was escaping, and for some reason I needed to stop her to prevent bad things from happening. She was very quick at flying, possibly because she had wings and a magic wand? Anyway, I decided that I needed to try and shoot her down with my incredible powers. Despite trying a few times to send an explosive and accurate blast; unfortunately, I could only produce puny orange orbs which simply fell slowly from the palms of my hands. Again, it was not very lucid. I felt no burning sensation seeping through the palms of my hands as the glowing orbs of energy passed - which I would expect. Instead, I felt nothing except more emotions, this time humour. Like I said, the dream was extremely fast paced and seemed incredibly lengthy - which is why I cannot recall the earlier stages of the dream, and one of the main reasons certain surroundings seemed low quality [for example, the scenery]. Maybe if events didn't happen so quickly I would have had some time to really focus; enabling the dream to become a more lucid experience - instead of everything seeming spare of the moment and un-prepared. Whether or not the alcohol I consumed before I went to sleep affected this in anyway, I do not know. I cannot remember exactly what happened to this pixie like creature, but I was victorious in the end. The village/town was free from evil. It seemed that my struggle was to protect my family and the other villagers, including my in dream girlfriend? How bizarre. At stages I recall being with a girl of the same age. I clearly remember holding hands with somebody as well, which was quite lucid. It seemed as the action un-winded; all my dream senses came alive and I was chatting with this familiar girl [who happens to be a character from a day-time TV series which I have only seen snippets] about how she was safe now. We gazed into each others eyes for a few moments, she her face was angelic. I had never felt an experience like this before in dream. I was extremely emotional and very nervous because she was so beautiful. I wanted to kiss her, but I didn't want to be rude or pushy. I took a risk, and suddenly grabbed her hand tight and pulled her towards me; then we had a nice sloppy kiss. It was not forced, we both wanted to express ourselves - only on this occasion it was me who took that step forward and kissed her. Instead of being stupidly shy around women like I am usually, I surprised myself. It was as good as ever. Never before have I experienced a level of lucid dreaming as high as this. Sometimes I am uncertain if I actually had a lucid dream or not, but I cannot question this particular event. After a few seconds we stopped and I got the impression that she wanted to take things further. I remember saying that everything would be ending soon and we should just make the most of it. I was very gentle and polite with her, acting exactly the same as I would do around women in real life. In the end, it didn't happen. But I was not disappointed in the slightest. I was very pleased. I do remember other, random snippets of the dream; including kissing a Japanese girl in a shop and then telling her that she was beautiful [to boost her confidence?] - which happened shortly after I was with the other woman I was protecting. I think this was because I was so happy and buzzing with joy. I also recall there being many large wells around. Down the well seemed to be my usual fighting ground. --> In conclusion, this was a great step forward for me in the world of dreaming. As I was expecting; everything was not perfect, but I was feeling real emotions throughout and during the stage with the woman my dream was extremely lucid in every aspect. I don't remember doing any reality checks at all - it was my mind that seemed to be doing all the hard work.