1/10/06
I will start in the middle for the exercise of dream recall, leave out a few specifics, but I am curious as to why I feel as though I was lucid with some control and aware but I felt like someone else was in my dream trying to do me harm. It was very scary to say the least. I tried this earlier somehow tried to post it but its gone, so I will retry again. If its out there I am going at it at a different angel but it is still the same dream.
......I am in the home of Lavonne and Ted. It is dark outside and the living room and bedroom are muted. [I remember the room now, it is the same room of my old next door neighbor that I had a long time ago when I lived in a duplex.] Now Lavonne is setting on the floor crossed legged. Her hair is still the same, long. She is Cherokee Indian. As I am kneeling down in front of her, I tell her, “you don’t understand what he has done, to ---------------------, it is unforgivable, I cannot believe he would do this to ---------------. He has to die, you understand this don’t you?” [some of the conversation that I had is more clearer now that I am setting in a quite room typing this] I turn my eyes up to the right and see my uncle or whom I preserve to be my uncle and he has his left hand on Flavone’s shoulder. In the interim I can here my Husband who is also my Father in Lavonne and Ted’s bedroom killing him, or executing him for his crime. [Now, I cannot see this with my won eyes, but I can give some details, weird I don’t know is it? ] The bedroom is dim, and full of Native American décor, there is a waterbed with a dark wood bed frame. The bedspread has wolf motif, there is blood all over it now, and I can hear them slashing Ted’s body. I can hear the fight going on for the death. I can now hear them dragging the body into the bathroom and the sound of them hitting the wall to my right. I flash all my attention back onto Lavonne now. All of the sudden I notice that Lavonne is radiating such a powerful vibrating energy that is red and black that I start to lean away from her. She starts to lean towards me. I can’t hear her words but I can hear them in my mind, she says to me “you can’t do this, who in the hell do you think you are, you don’t have any power here”. [This is where I believe I become lucid, because this energy starts to hurt physically, and pain in my dreams is a symbol for me that I am dreaming that this isn’t real] I realize that I am dreaming and that there is something wrong with this dream. This DC is very strong, the energy that is rolling off of her, is very strong and is still hurting and it is meant to put a curse on me is some fashion, but I am in control of this dream so in my dream I am pushing back and refusing to allow this DC to place this curse on me, but the red and black energy is so powerful, every punishing at me. I realize that this could be something that I can’t control; maybe someone has slipped into my dream to hurt me. Therefore, I told myself to wake up.
This is where I get closer to my husband, because he is the head of the household, just in case there was any evil spirit at work here. I then turn to look at the alarm clock it is now 4:06 am. I hate this dream so I decided that I want to slip back in and finish killing off Ted, and I hate unfinished business.
I am now in Lavonne’s bedroom, and it is light and bright outside and in the room. The decor is the same, but now I can see the weed plants and the pipes all over the place. I smile to myself because this is just the way I remember it. I tell myself this is amazing, why I bring such details back into my dream but make so many others up and let my mind wonder at the same time. Then I see Lavonne coming at me. Lavonne gives me a hug and says, “I understand now, it had to be done, but its okay I can just start all over again, I need to be free anyhow”. There was someone else standing next to us but I couldn’t make that person out, I focused on the bathroom again. Then I got sucked into the living room where I was setting on the floor I think [I have lost some details here, I had them earlier but when I tried to post this earlier I somehow either I put it out there in the forum somewhere or lost it] but on young child came up to me and bent down to tell me in a cheerful voice, “Man that was hard”, as she was rubbing her hands together and kneading her arms. “It was hard getting all that flesh and blood off of the bones and that mess up, but we did it, now there are only bones left”. I was happy. I kept getting flashes of blood and bones in my mind. [The girl was about 12 years old, she had dark should length hair, I know who she is, and her real name, why she was in my dream of all children; I have no idea.] Because after she told me all of this, I decided that, I was finished with this dream so I left.
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