Ynot's Dream Journal

[Ynot]

Date: 11th October 2005 First journal entry, and I'm not even sure it was a dream I was lying in bed, repeating the recommended "I can remember my dreams" over and over I have no idea how long I was doing that for but I started hearing voices Voice 1 - Male - "What are you going to do with that suitcase?" Voice 2 - Female - "Keep quiet" that's it. No visual elements to it, at all. I was so hyped at making my first entry that I snapped wide awake and wrote it down. Looking back on it, I think my mind was just wondering I don't remember anything else from that night. but, it's a start. -T

[Ynot]

Date: 12th October 2005 Ok, after-thoughts, explainations, and anything else outside of my dream is in blue Dream 1 I think this was early on in the night, cause it was a really short dream Our house had burnt down, and we were living in the cells at our local police station I was sharing a cell with other people, but I don't know if it was my family or not (I moved out of my parent's house about 6 months ago) that's it, sorry Dream 2 I'm a building surveyor, by day. When a defect affects 2 or more parties, each party has their own surveyor to assess the situation. The surveyors agree on a course of action to benefit all parties involved I was on site, during work with my boss and the other side's surveyor. this other guy was looking over the schedule of works that I had produced, and really ripping it apart. He walked over to a window (vertical sliding sash window) pushed up the lower sash to expose a massive area of damp that I'd missed on the lower left hand corner. I don't remember any dialogue, but there was an intense feeling of embarisment at missing such an obvious defect. I could clearly see the damp area had spread to the left hand wall (water damage to the wallpaper) I felt really small and inadequate. I started to sketch the window and wall, shading in the areas affected by damp. Then the other surveyor said he had to go. I noticed he had grey hair, but no other details In my profession, it's quite hectic. Doing 3 or 4 jobs in one day. We always seem to be against the clock. Running to the next meeting, or the next survey. I like to think I'm a layed back person, and don't really like to be constantly running about. I think this other surveyor is my visualisation of a typical surveyor (grey hair, have to go, no time !!! ) I didn't like this surveyor, he made me feel inadequate. I was glad he had to go. He asked me for a copy of the schedule of works to take with him. I'd only got one copy, so he took it, and I was left without a copy. I didn't know what to do. I continued with my pointless sketch. I'm now in a room, sitting down. Remembering back, I think it's my old school science room, but I'm not sure and she's just admiring the sketch with me. I notice that the drawing I'm looking at is different from when I was drawing it. it's more like a crayon copy of a photograph hard to explain in words how it looked. Imagine a photograph, then copy that photo in crayon This doesn't bother me at all, in fact I think it's a great sketch. My sketch This sounds dark and disturbed, I thought I was pretty level headed !! Anyway, that's all I remember

[Ynot]

Date: 13th October 2005 Nothing, zilch, nada don't remember a thing

[Ynot]

Well, my recall is very patchy at the moment got a lot going on, but I remember bits 'n peices from last night Date: 17th October 2005 Can't remember how the dream started, but I'm some kind of kung-fu secret agent / government spy and I'm battling these black clothed ninjas (for what reason, I don't know) there's a woman with me** (also a kung-fu expert) but she goes in the other direction to me, and we're seperated. Some time later, I realise I know (don't know how, but I do) that she been captured and taken to a cell where I try to rescue her it's a trap (of course) and they capture me too. With both of us captured, we're lead to a big audiene hall with the head of the enemy ninja's sitting in a big chair on a podium and all the black clothed soldier ninja's jeering at us from all around. we are flung down to our knees and shackled up to big chains bolted to the floor and are about to be executed Then I realise that we have a back-up plan then I zip back in time (like a fast rewind) and I'm back at the point where the woman and I seperated but instead my mind's eye follows her, instead of 'me' and I realise she went off to prepare the 'back-up plan' which in actuality was our one, only and primary plan all along She's gone to the audience hall (which is empty at this time) and hidden a 1x1 square of dairy milk chocolate under the left most hand shackle. back in the present (no fast-forwards or anything, I'm just suddenly back in the present) I pick up the chocolate square and eat it suddenly all the ninja's die, and I wake up **I know who she is, but I'm keeping that to myself

[Ynot]

Date: 21st October 2005 Well, the dreams set at my old school, in the main hall I see the dream in third person, and for a lot of the dream, I'm out of the 'camera' shot There is regualr seating at floor level, which is full of people, sitting normally however, attached to the walls, there are various levels of wooden flooring There's a lot of people lying around on the flooring these levels are set out like stadium seating (pitching up from the floor at 30-45 degrees) the flooring is covered with blankets, duvets, pillows, etc. to make it really comfy Everyone on the wooden flooring is lying down some are hanging their heads out over the edges, talking to those on the next level down some are curled up at the back, I think they're asleep (or listening to music, or whatever) There is someone down at floor level (way down at floor level, the camera view is on one of the top levels) C.G. (ginger-nut) is on the podium, speaking to everyone in the hall He is telling everyone about this wonderful book he's read, all about wild birds and bird watching. From up here, he's quite small and hard to make out visually, however everyone can hear him perfectly people seated in the chairs at floor level are really interested in the speech people lying on the raised flooring aren't impressed, some they are jeering and hurling insults and occasionally throwing things, but most are just ignoring him and doing their own thing Things start to get a bit rowdy and the headmaster takes the mic, and calls out some names (the usual suspects) and says that he wants to see them afterwards My name is called My head appears in the camera view (I was just outside of camera shot, and I've just swivelled round, making me visible) I am really offended, I wasn't doing anything I am being called because I am always thought of as a trouble maker but I wasn't doing anything The headmaster calls my name again, and asks me to come down I start to talk (at a normal volume, but everyone can hear me) I say that I wasn't doing anything the headmaster says he doesn't care I feel really offended, now dream ends thats it All I remember

[Ynot]

Date: 27 October 2005 I fell asleep watching an episode of the X-files The episode where bees were being genetically modified to be small pox carriers and school kids playing on a jungle gym are attacked by the bees. I don't feature as a character in this dream at all (most dreams I have are in 3rd person, so I can see myself, and I'm usually a character in the dream. Not this time) Dream 1 I'm viewing a whole load of weird TV adverts It's a kind of info-mercial survey advert about fun things to do for the disabled at the beach ( wtf ??) the climax of the advert was that the majority of people voted for the Water Raclette The Water Raclette was a type of gun that fired discs (used for clay pigeon shooting) there was also Dual Water Raclette, which was a double barrelled version The ending image is rear view of a couple of people in wheelchairs looking out over the sea, holding these Water Raclettes and aiming them. The next advert is for a new type of kids jungle gym made of plastic, in vivid colours, lots of red and yellow one of the most memorable parts of this advert, is this kid swinging arm over arm across the hand-rails and the 'camera view' facing him, being pulled back at the same speed he was going (exactly like the X-files episode I was watching) There was also some sort of slide thing (kind of like a water flume in that is was a completely closed tube, but without the water) I never saw inside the slide, but kids were lining up to go down this thing, and I distinctly remember hearing the screams and howls of kids echoing around the slide as they went down. There was this kid in line, who had a black baseball cap on (he looked exactly like D.P.O who was a character in another X-files episode, but not the episode I fell asleep to, he had the same look, mannerisms, everything) he was wearing his hat with the peak forwards, there was a logo or design on the front of the hat, but I can't understand it. He took off his cap, and handed it to me (at what point I became part of the adverts, I don't know) and asked me to hold it for him. All the way through the dream, I can't see myself or move my head at all, I'm stuc looking straight forward (if that makes any sense) I woke up at this point, and lay there firming up the dreams in my mind and wrote some scrawl in the journal. I must have fallen back asleep thinking back on the dream, cause the next one is very similar, and in places, a direct follow-on Dream 2 Can't remember the start of this dream too well something about water (might have been a swimming pool, don't know) but suddenly I'm back at the jungle-gym of the first dream and I know I still have this guy's hat but it's a whole different set of kids using the equipment and I'm looking for this guy to return the hat but I can't find him There is another kid with a baseball hat (but dark blue and worn backwards) this kid had mid-length curly hair. He knows I'm trying to find this other kid (even though I have not spoken through the whole of this dream, or the last one) and he says that the kid is 19 years old and how would a guy of 29 know anything about a 19 year old kid, and what he does. I then break my silence, and say that I'm not 29, I'm suprised he can think I look 29 then I wake up. Never gave DPO his hat back.

[Ynot]

Pic of DPO character http://www.celebrity-exchange.com/celebs/x...-dpo/cap293.jpg

[Ynot]

Date: 05 November 2005 Another set of school dreams I left school 5 years ago Both are in first person. Dream 1 I'm walking into a whole school assembly everybody is sitting down on the floor, legs crossed I sit down amoungst the crowd but I don't want to sit with my legs crossed (IRL my knees seize if if I'm cross legged for too long) so I kneel down - my head is way above the rest of the crowd, and I begin to feel a bit stupid I don't want my head to be poking up out of the crowd so I try to lean back as far as I can, getting my head in-line with everybody else's this seems to work Then everybody starts standing up I realise that I'm staring at the legs and skirt of a girl next to me, as she gets up as I start to get up, someone forces their arms around my neck, stopping me I know it's Andy Murphy (kid I actually had little to do with IRL) he's not letting me up I press my chin onto his arm, as hard as I can I have stubble, big wiry stubble which cuts his arm he lets go, and I can get up. Then I'm walking into the toilets, I know I have blood on my chin I want to wash it off There's other people in the loo's I look at them in the sink mirror reflection, but for some reason I don't look directly at them I'm standing at an angle to the mirror, so I don't see my reflection at all (damn it) I think I wake up here (I can never remember properly if I actually wake up, or when it's just a scene change) Dream 2 I'm now standing at the top of a large sheer face cliff it's very green and grassy, although the cliff face is clearly marked into squares (almost like the cliff was made of cubes of grass, stacked on top of each other (I don't know how I knew this, seeing as I'm at the top, looking out from the cliff, but still) suddenly I'm not there anymore I'm riding my bike I actually think "This is strange, I was standing on a cliff a minute ago, how am I riding my bike? Oh well" I also notice that riding doesn't take any effort (I'm getting better at questioning dream scenes and actions) so, I'm riding along and there is absolutely no scenery. It's just flat ground - nothing else This seems completely normal when I see a group of people in the distance It's Miss Chilvers (old school teacher) and her 2 kids (I have no idea if she has kids IRL, last time I saw her was 5 years ago) I realise I'm going to hit them so I lock the back wheel and skid around 90 degrees to a halt then I see, exactly like an action replay would be, a zoomed in version of my back wheel stop dead, and spin 90 degrees to a halt the back wheel gently touches one of the kids feet The kid starts crying, and I try to explain that I didn't mean to hit the kid (even tho it was an extremely light touch) I hold the kid's hand - which I notice is a lot smaller than mine - and he stops crying Then I'm in a room, wheeling my bike along beside me it's a bike store I want to chain my bike up in the bike store, but my bike is too long to fit in the space Everytime I try it, I have to turn the bike, so the front wheel is in the prongs, but the rest is turned pretty much at right angles I think this is strange, seeing as all the other bikes fit in the spaces, and they don't seem to be any bigger than mine but, none-the-less, I can't fit mine in someone else is in the room with me, I think it's Nick Pratt and he wants me to look out of the window The window is very dirty, and I have a hard time to see anything out of it but I look out, and see a courtyard Nick is explaining to me, that all the buildings are built around the perimeter of the land, leaving this courtyard of empty hardstanding in the middle I think this is really good (for some reason ) whoever thought to leave such a big open area protected on all sides by buildings was a really smart guy Thats it - EoD

[Ynot]

Date: 12 November 2005 This is a little short and hazy, didn't get much sleep so bullet points, rather than full blown account [list][*]I'm at an indoor water park [*]My old school friends are there [*]There's a queue for a ride, and I want to join the end of it, but I'm at the wrong end of the queue I know it's a good ride even though it's behind me, and I can't see it It's a narrow corridor, and there's not a lot of room but everyone's wet (but fully clothed) and I don't want to brush up against anyone, cause it'll make me wet So I have to hug the wall as I'm try not to touch anyone as I move to the end of the queue [*]I'm soaking wet (wearing trunks and a t-shirt) and I want to get onto this raised walkway running around the perimeter of the park building I walk up to it, and grab the railings above me, and haul myself up I push myself up into a handstand on the railings, with the intention of lowering myself back upright on the other side of the railings half way through the handstand, I get stuck, and can't figure out how to lower myself, so I lean sideways, and just let go [list]

[Ynot]

Date: 17 November 2005 I'm on an escalator, going up My school mate, Stuart is with me, in front of me He's facing the wrong way, looking at me as if we were talking A second escalator, running above us at 90 degrees, is approaching I'm pondering whether we're going to hit our heads, as it passes above us I just close my eyes, and wait and see It obviously doesn't hit us. When I open my eyes, the escalator has levelled out and is just a horizontal moving platform we're going past a night club scene but it's broadly lit, rather than dark and dingy There's a woman in a blue dress Stuart points her out to me We reach the end of the escalator, and are at the entrance to the club I have a pint in my hand although I don't know how it got there (pretty much normal behaviour though, to be honest ) I go out to the outside, balcony area (the same area that we saw on the escalator) and start to mingle with the women Stuart goes to the loo, saying that he's bought me another pint but he's gone for ages after a while, I start to look for my other pint I'm picking up random glasses from the bar, and inspecting them I have a fear that someone might have splat in my pint so I jiggle the glasses a bit, to see if there is any obvious phlegmage going on at the bottom but none of the drinks appear to be mine I don't quite know what to do, so I just carry on, holding an empty glass Stuart comes back, eventually and says that I took so long, he drank my pint

[Ynot]

Oh dear 3 months of no recall happy days Date: 16 February 2006 Well, I'm at school and I'm naked luckily, so is everybody else The people around me are a mixture of primary and secondary school people. We all sit down at our desks The room is sort of like a science lab, with those high four legged stools with the foot rest bar on two sides. my stool is wobbly - I'm having trouble keeping the thing still It's really swaying, now - I look down at the floor and it's a long way down the legs on my stool are really long and all four are buckling under me I fall off The teacher looks round but I've picked myself up in time and am standing beside my stool (now normal height) and try to look like nothing has happened no-one around me seems to have noticed anything. There's no way I can sit back on that stool again I have to move so I wait until the teacher is turned away again pick up my things, and sneak to the nearest empty desk I just make it I manage to put my things on the desk and make like I've been here all the time, just as the teacher turns round again. Again, no-one around me seems to notice anything I'm doing. I start to get self conscious. People seem to be doing things, but I don't know what I feel I should be doing stuff as well this is when the whole nakedness issue dawns on me and I try and hide my lower body under the desk as much as possible This is when I notice that the classroom lights are out. in fact, there's very little light in the room at all. Now the class is over, and the teacher is going to turn the lights back on So everybody gets up and heads to the rear of the room, where all our clothes are There's various bags and plastic bags piled up, with clothes slung on top I find my clothes, and now it's a rush to get my clothes on before the lights come back on. The lights come back on, I'm half dressed, but I'm safe except these aren't my clothes The first thing I notice is the watch I'm wearing It's got a leather strap I notice the creases and folds in the leather It's a really nice watch - quite nickable, in fact I toy with the idea of hiding the watch in a shoe, to stop it being stolen but instead I just place it on the shoe Then I wake up.

[Ynot]

Date: 05 July 2006 party in restaurant Natalie - skirt & tights sits down on table to talk on top of a plate of chips "anyone want a chip?" laughs Stuart went to different party see him and friend going past restaurant window stops, looks lightly banging on window walks off rest of people walk past walk back the other way

[Ynot]

Recurring dream Date: Can't remember I'm held captive in my Nan's old house I get the chance to escape Open the front door, and lock it behind me run over to the conservatory, open the door, and lock it behind me My captors open the double gates, instead, cutting me off in the conservatory I'm trapped. Date: 16 July 2006 I'm held captive in my Nan's old house I get the chance to escape Open the front door, and lock it behind me run over to the conservatory, open the door, and remember that they can cut me off if I take the time to lock the door behind me, so I don't My captors come through the conservatory, and capture me.

[Ynot]

Date: 23 July 2006 Beat Juggling computer game Connects using X-arcade joysticks Round harp, with someone sitting in the centre Street Fighter moves on the joystick makes guy sitting in harp go ballistic leaning back plucking strings arms whirling everywhere Making Juggle patterns & tricks Light Saber toys Colin thinks they're real Can't get him to understand the fact that they're toys

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Date: 12 August 2006 First false awakening House sitting at parents I'm at grandparents old house walk into kitchen and my grandma is there I'm a bit suprised to see her (she's meant to be dead) but I don't think much of it we're talking about me she's worried about my health she starts squeezing me, trying to suffocate me I think it's useless of her to try and suffocate me, as I'm far stronger than she is this is where I realise she's meant to be dead I wake up I'm on the floor of my parent's front room I think "hmmm, the computer it right here in the room", so I get up and sit in the chair I open up notepad and start typing my dream into it I can't seem to figure out the best way to put it into words, so I'm getting up every now and then, and walking around the house the desktop on the PC is weird, and I can't understand it looks like a white screen with words and phrases dotted around at all different angles, and directions My dad walks in, and starts reading what I'm typing, so I minimise notepad, as I don't want him reading it he walks out of the room he's not wearing any trousers then I realise he's meant to be on holiday and I actually wake up.

[Ynot]

Date: 03 June 2007 Snippets of tracks that didn't work One called Androids - slow drum loop sounds similar to Blake Leyh - "The Fall" (the wire theme) Mum's version of "Androids" layered vocals over