slaughtermania's "Lucidity"

[slaughtermania]

This isn't going to be so much as a journal, because I'm just too bad at keeping journals, this is going to be more like a reminder (to myself) of the times I obtain lucidity... I just don't have the time to write everyday... Now, following the example of other journals, I'm going to divide things into colors. Dreams before attaining lucidity are going to be blue Dreams after attaining lucidity will be written in green Probable Usual Dream Signs will be red Comments will be black By now, the only Probable Usual Dream Signs I can think of are 1. Repetition 2. I always say I'm going to do something, but I never do it (when I'm still not lucid). I suppose those two signs go hand in hand, I distract myself with other stuff inside my dream, with secondary stuff instead of solving my main problem (if there is a problem). Now, as far as i can remember, I have attained lucidity 6 times in my life, three of those last weekend. I had my first lucid dream about 10 years ago and it was actually a nightmare, this is the story. My 1st LUCID DREAM I was in a strange place, like a maze, with red walls, red floor, red everything, except for the sky (which I didn't pay much attention to until the end), I began to explore, I walked and I screamed to see if there was somebody else there that could here me, which didn't happen, I was alone, but then the floor began to shake, and I look ahead, and there was an enormous red ball with big red spikes rolling towards me, at which point I start running the other way, after some time (I don't know exactly how long) the floor stopped shaking and I looked back and the gigantic ball wasn't there, it looked like I was too fast for it, and I took the liberty to take a breath while I looked up to see something that wasn't red, and up in the sky I see another round shaped object, the size of the moon, it was really far off, but I could tell it was green, blue, and a little bit of white, like this one here.I remembered having seen a picture of something like that some days ago, it was the earth from the outer space, it was so strange that I just had to sit down, and that's when i started thinking about what I had done the day before that one, the last thing I could remember was going to bed, "that's it, this is a ...nightmare". I had to end it, I remembered some scenes of some movies of people having nightmares, and when the worst thing happened they woke up, so I started to look for the enormous ball that was following me earlier, and I couldn't find it, I thought I was gonna get stuck inside my nightmare forever, so I started to scream louder and louder until I woke up all of a sudden, and I didn't even feel tired. Now I have read here, that when you attain lucidity in a dream, it's possible that you wake up because your heart rhythm changes cause you get excited, well, it was really hard for me to wake up here, but I suppose my heart rhythm didn't change because I was scared inside my nightmare, plus I wasn't trying to attain lucidity, I didn't even know lucid dreams existed. My 2nd Lucid Dream That was like 5 or 6 years ago, and I don't remember much, I also had never investigated about lucid dreaming, but I tried to attain lucidity nevertheless, the only thing I can remember is I was in a carnival, with some friends, and I liked one of them, so I grabbed her hand and walked away with her, and took her to a path of grass and summoned an elevator out of nothing, went in it with her, pushed some button and the elevator started going underground. There was a room with a bed and I don't know what else... Well, you know the drill, I had sex with her, but during sex I attained lucidity Then everything started to fade, everything went black and I woke up. Strangely enough, when I woke up I was wetting my underpants, and not with urine. Now, it wasn't until a few weeks ago that I started researching about lucid dreaming. After that I have attained lucidity 4 times in the last 10 days, but with no luck. My 3rd and 4th Lucid Dreams I really don't remember what I was dreaming, but they happened in the same night. I was dreaming something, I attained lucidity and I immediately woke up, I didn't open my eyes, I fell asleep again, attained lucidity again and woke up again. I guess the reason for me not to remember my dreams was that I drank a lot that night. My 5th Lucid Dream It happened like a week ago, I remember bits of it: I was in a ship, an old fashioned ship with people rowing and what I think was a pirate, and I remember standing in the same spot of the ship not for long, but many times, then I remember another part of the same dream in which I was standing alone in front of the stairs in some town, and people were coming down the stairs, most of them women with baskets, and I spotted one woman in particular, and said "depending on what I see in that woman's basket I'll know if this is a dream or reality, (I still don't know why that was decisive), And in her basket I saw a baby (an ugly baby if I may say). And that's what gave me the sign, and i suddenly attained lucidity, the thing is I started to celebrate having attained lucidity at will, and got too excited and woke up. My 6th Lucid Dream That was 2 nights ago: I was driving, I was going to pick up a friend of mine, and when i got to her house (which in reality is the place where I live) I couldn't find a parking spot, so I parked in front of another house's driveway, then I went to tell her that I was there, and she told me to wait a second, then I went to my car to wait for her there, when I got to my car, it was missing one of the wheels, it was like someone had stolen the rubber part but left the rim below the part where the wheel was supposed to be. I didn't stop to think about it too much, but thought quickly about using my spare wheel to put it where the missing one was when I'd left the car there, I don't remember much after that, only that I kept coming back to the place where my car was, but never changed the wheel.The only thought of me going back and not changing the wheel made me realize I was dreaming, and although I didn't get too excited I woke up.