Laracroft's Subconcious Warehouse

[laracroft21]

[size=18]Welcome to my Dream Journal! I hope some of you guys read my dreams because they are really weird. Maybe someone can give insight to meanings based on my common dreams signs. I have Titled each dream and marked whether it was an LD or non-LD [size=24]LD 1: High School and Harry Potter I was just told about Lucid Dreaming recently from my roommate and I have not really had a chance to go over this site in depth. However, last night I had my first dream where I realized I was dreaming and did not immediately wake up! I'm so excited: I was back in my high school I was walking down the hall and I thought, "I already graduated HS! Wait a minute, I already graduated COLLEGE! I'm dreaming! I didn't wake up so I wasn't quite sure so I decided to test, and I put one foot against the wall, then the other foot, and walked up the wall! I was like, whoa, I really am dreaming. So I flew around the hall for a while, but I could only fly like 6 inches off the ground. I kept trying to will myself to go higher but I could not b/c I was scared. I kept doing things because I wasn't *entirely* sure I was dreaming, like trying not to forget to get my book bag out of my locker. Suddenly I turned into Harry Potter and all these dudes wanted to kick my ass. I said, "well, I'm dreaming so I can take 'em" (earlier in another dream these girls wanted to fight and I didn't b/c they were bigger than me and I was scared). I kept kicking the crap out of them even though I was small and nerdy and they kept coming after me one by one, and got more and more built and heavy. I finallly beat the last one and left them in a pile. I was thinking, "I'm dreaming and that's why I did it, but they don't know that so now they think I'm tough sh*t!" I flew around near the ground some more and then in real life my boyfriend moved next to me and I woke up. [/color] Common dream signs: being at high school, not able to find my class

[Howie]

[size=18]Awesome. Congatulations laracroft21 WELCOME Sounds like a cool dream on top of it. I am sure you will have more to come. And this be the first of many enties into your journal

[Seeker]

Hey! Welcome on board. Uh, is your room mate already a member here?

[laracroft21]

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[Alaurast78]

WOOHOO!!! So glad you are here. You have some crazy ass dreams girl. I can't wait to read more of them. *hugs* Lola

[laracroft21]

[size=24]non-LD: Hooters, Dylan Baker, and Kittens Well, the day after my first LD I read this site all the way thru and did some RC's and shit all day, and tried to meditate to have LD last night, but no dice but it does make me feel better than none of my usual dream signs were present in this one..... Anyway the dream was weird of course. I was in Hooters with my parents and my sister (didn't look like any Hooters I'd ever been to, and FYI it's one of my favorite places to eat First off, my parents and myself were very rude to the waitress, which I NEVER AM in real life, I've worked in restaurants and I'm always super nice even if they are slow or forget stuff, whatever. We kept needing a glass of water, I remember I needed one so bad I couldn't stand it and eventually asked a waitress trainee that was following the server at the table next to us. I felt bad about asking her b/c I knew she was new but she was just standing around and I figured she could handle getting a glass of water. When I asked her, she seemed like she was retarded or something and just stared at us. I said, "I'm sorry to bother you but our waitress has not been here in a long time." Then she said, "Yeah, I can get water I've been doing that for a week now." She said it kind of sarcastically. She brought it back about the same time our waitress showed up with some water and I felt stupid. Later, at the table across from us I saw some people sit down that I knew were famous. One actor I recognized and knew who he was when I woke up but in the dream I did not know his name or what movie he was in. (real life: when I woke up I went to imdb.com to find out who the actor was because the one movie i remembered him from was "Happiness", he played the perverted Dad. I found out his name is Dylan Baker http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0048414/ and I never knew his name but last night right before bed I was chatting with someone named Dylan. Weird. Maybe I knew the actor's name on a subconcious level? Coincidence? Who knows. Back to the dream ----> There was another fat kid that I thought was famous too. He didn't turn out to be anyone real though I don't think anyway. I also knew that the guys with them must have been famous. They were laughing and acting silly and I thought they all must be old friends. I kept staring at them but did not want to be obvious and I wanted to tell my sister "that's the guy from Happiness" but I couldn't tell her without him overhearing. At one point my parents suddenly had 2 kittens that looked just like my own kittens, but i knew they were different than mine. My parents disappeared into the restaurant kitchen for a while and my sister and I were wondering where they went. They came back and said they had some news, they had adopted one of the kittens are were making arrangments in the kitchen (?) I should have taken this as a DS since my dad hates cats!!!! But I was not surprised and was like, "I thought they were already yours." i wondered how they would get along with my cats. As we were leaving the restaurant I saw a picture of all the actors that were at the table hanging on the wall, it was an older picture like some restauants have of famous patrons that was autographed and all. We got to some place (I guess we all lived together again, but it wasn't like any house I've ever seen) and put the kitten down. I was waiting to see how it would react to my cats and i don't remember if I woke then, but I just don't remember anything after that. So I woke up and looked up that actor and I remembered that in the dream, in Hooters, I had looked him up on the internet but it was on a huge screen like they would show a football game on in there, only bigger and everything was blue on it. In the dream I found out he had played a judge in Harry Potter but that's not true.

[laracroft21]

[SIZE=2]non-LD: Vince Vaughn, Chasing Dogs, and Old Houses This dream had several parts, not 100% about the order but I\'lll try: 1. I was at grandma\'s house . After that, we got back and I had a voicemail from this guy I emailed last night from college that I have not spoken to in years. He was all excited on the message like "wow, I can\'t believe it! How are you? Blahblahblah...." but people kept talking and I couldn\'t hear the end of the message to get his phone number and I was pissed b/c I kept having to replay it. When I got the number it only had a few digits and Jason told me he must be using "Debbie\'s DVD Pad". I knew that this was a device like a mouse pad that you put a phone on top of to scramble your number. (????) 2. I was going out to my car and saw this couple making fun of these two Indian guy\'s turbans. I was mad at them for being racist and thought of some smart comment but didn\'t say it to them. I was distracted b/c my driver\'s side door on my jeep was open (I was in my parking lot at my apt. complex). I realized Jason must have gone out there. I found him passed out in front of the car, and I think he was naked. I woke him up and told him we had to go. This is where the order gets confusing, not sure which of these came first: 3. I was looking at some photos with my mom and saw one of a guy in front of a fireplace. I recognized it as our old house (my sis and I used to make a lot of videos in front of that fireplace, it was like our "stage" when we were younger and made dumb home movies). I showed Mom and said, "isn\'t that...." she was like "yeah, that\'s our old place all right!" Then suddenly we were at the house, and I wanted to go in to see what it looked like now. Mom didn\'t want to but she came anyway and was all pissed b/c of the decorating they had done and she hated it. I told her I kind of liked it, especially the lights around the pool (we did not have a pool at this particular house). Then she noticed the owners in the hot tub, it was an old couple. We snuck out the front door and were going to get with some people in 2 cars. Then the old people came out b/c they heard intruders and Vince Vaughn came out in a police uniform telling them it was okay. He got into the car with us and I realized he was supposed to be with us, wasn\'t really a cop, and had done that to keep the old people from knowing my mom and I were in their house. I thanked him for "saving our butts". We all got in a van and there was also a woman saying something to Vince Vaughn about him being a cop, and a little girl I think. I turned around and saw a huge brown and white dog (sort of like a dalmation, with an uglier face and brown spots not black) chasing the car. He kept chasing it even though we were going very fast and as I was looking out the back window at him I realized I was in a car alone with Vince and the little girl. The dog ran up alongside the car and up to the bus-like conveyance in front of us, which was supposed to be other people with our group. The dog was running beside the car, running sideways and the bus swerved. The old dude driving it called the old people and told them to call off thier dog b/c he almost made us crash. I think it ended there... 4. I was with Jason, Steve and Laura in our apartment (didn\'t look like it though, and Jason and Laura don\'t really live there yet). Laura told me "I think Tooey is pregnant again." (she was talking about my cat who\'s name is really Libby and just had kittens 3 months ago). I told her I couldn\'t worry about that, I was trying to call someone about something important. I went into the bathroom and she already had kittens. It was her, her two black kittens that we have, plus some little gray ones that looked like dust bunnies. One of them peed in the toilet and I was like "yay, at least they use the potty!" (I just watched Meet the Fockers and the cat pees in the toilet in that, yeah blah anyway) Then Jason was asleep or passed out or something again and Steve had taken off his shorts and left them in my dresser drawer which was open, along with a lot of money. I was like, score! But what is he up to? Went in the kitchen and he had his foot under the water in the sink and water was spraying everywhere. I was asking him waht\'s wrong, I thought maybe he cut his foot or something but he would not answer me. Then he looked at me funny and I realized he was sleeping and very drunk and didn\'t know what was going on.</span> <span style="color:blue"> Common dream signs: grandparents\' house, my old house, trouble using my phone

[laracroft21]

[size=24]NO DREAM....weird night Decided to take this off private entry Last night I chatted with a DV member who recommended trying to get in touch with my subconsious before sleeping and try self-hypnosis to induce LDing. I was VERY tired but not on any drugs or anything like that. Every time I closed my eyes, before I could even get into that almost dreaming state, I kept hearing voices in my head. Like, little snippets of conversations from different people's voices (none that I recognized). They were random and I can't remember any specific sentences but I heard them pretty clearly at the time. Along with the voices, I was also seeing rapidly changing random images. Some were normal, like people's faces I did not know, or places I'd never seen, and some were terrifying. One was about a fire and a woman screaming. This was the last one I had and the most clear. I opened my eyes and was like, "what the FUCK." Finally I said "get out of my head" out loud and they just STOPPED. About 5 minutes later as I was starting to doze off I clearly heard a male voice say "FUCK YOU." I leapt out of bed and starting freaking out. I finally turned on the radio to look for classical music. As I was searching AM radio for classical, I for some reason, stopped on one of the many talk stations I came across. I don't know why I listened that one but I realized they were talking about a fire that had occured somewhere nearby and sounded serious. I don't know where or when it happened, I was too freaked to find out. I found the classical station and lied down like I did when I was a kid with my nitelite and teddy. I felt like a kid scared of monsters in my closet. I started thinking, "am I insane?" The voices stopped and I eventually fell asleep, like an hour later and do not remember if I had any dreams or not. I usually at least remember something, some minor detail upon waking (if not almost every detail like usual, as you can see from previous posts). I didn't recall a thing. Ok back in college I tried LSD a couple times and theses "voices and images" would happen as I was trying to sleep and I actually thought they were kind of cool, but not worried b/c I figured it was just a drug induced hallucination. but this time I was not doing any type of hallucingen or anything. I had a couple beers earlier, but that's normal and I was most certainly not drunk. Am I crazy? Has this happened to anyone? I felt like the voices and images were things that were actually happening somewhere and when I heard about the fire I really began to wonder. Let me reiterate that I was NOT ASLEEP when these things were going on. EDIT: Got some answers on this, and I feel much better. (Thanks LDguy and IZ!)

[Howie]

[PRIVATE JOURNAL ENTRY] -Ha that doesn't work. I have mastered dream sharing so I know what you had dreamt. - Obviously not pertaining to your private entry but the couple entries above are very detailed. You do have good dream recall. I wish my dreams had that much detail, or that I could racall forthat matter

[laracroft21]

[size=24]Non-LD/vague details: Boobies, planes, hotels and elevators I don't remember very many details of last nights dream, except trying to get to the airport b/c I was going to miss my plane and I didn't know the way (then today found out someone had "missed" their plane today in real life....hmm). I remember something about being at the airport too. I was walking down the street with some girl with holes cut out of her shirt where her boobs are so that her boobs poked out (I think I kept trying to make her show them but she was trying to hide them...I think she was supposed to be my girlfriend). I found out a girl I knew was actually a man (I think it was Chyna the wrestler....she is on Surreal Life and I watched that last night, would make sense b/c her being a man doesn't seem far off I was in some hotel with a bunch of elevators and each elevator went into a different time zone of the US...like if you lived in CST you used this one, EST you used that one, or something weird I don't know. Hotel halls with elevators are a popular theme for me in dreams so I should have become lucid. At some point I recall being worried about missing work and getting fired and I had to get home (maybe the part where I was worried about missing the plane). All these details I remember seem to part of the same dream. I think I know what most of the elements meant but I won't get into that Common dream signs: airport, being late, hotel/elevators edit: I just remembered that Marilyn Manson was in my dream. I think he was my friend's father (maybe the girl with the boobs) and I was saying goodbye and nice to meet to to him and called him "Mr. _____". He had some other last name in the dream I don't remember.

[laracroft21]

[size=24]Non-LD: Flying to buildings, Old friends in bed, and Dudes wanting me I was showing the DV website to my cousin Kelly in my Grandma's music room. Kelly was mad b/c I had read her journal but I told her it was b/c I wanted to help her. Old friend Allen Had shown up, I was in bed and he was standing over me. Talking about wanting to go out to this bar I used to always go to and how he was going to get all dressed up for it. A guy I used to go to HS with (MFlw) in bed beside me, I used to have a crush on this guy so I wanted to stay there and was pissed about the friend bothering me (he is irritating in real life). He kept trying to kiss me. I got up to find my sis, who is also friends with him, to rescue me. she ws still awake and I wanted to go back to bed later happy b/c I would be beside the HS guy but bummed b/c the fat guy would be on the other side of me. I was playing a mario type game and was in the game. I grabbed some stretchy parachute like thing and someone in the game told me I could use it to float higher than ever. I kept floatingup while holding the thing and knew that when I let go in the right place I could fly to secret area. I let go and landed on a roof covered in pebbles. (it looked like a regular world now instead of a video game). There was a baby panda up there sleeping that was little and looked like a kitten. Then some of the cast from "Friends" walked up and sat down with me, all casual. I was like, "guys have you ever made it to the top of this builiding before?" They said yes and were not surprised that I had gotten up there as I had been. We saw another big bldg nearby that was a cafeteria and I had tried to get up there before and was bummed that I hadn't been able to. Suddenly I was on the ground talking to a guy who was dating one of my friends (both just DC's no one real). There was some other girl blatantly flirting with him in front of his girl. He said I love you to his girl as the other slut was walking by and the slut said "I love you too". Then I was alone with the guy and started giving him all this advice that I thought was really good. I was asking him how he felt about his g/f and how he felt about the other girl. He was saying he loves his girl but may be interested in dating the new girl. I told him he should let his girl he still wants to see her but see other people too. He leaned over and said in my ear....."but I want to date you". I didn't know how to respond but as he was pulling away, my earring somehow caught on him and I was trying to fix it and put it back in. I remember talkig about the earring trying to avoid the topic of me goingout with him, because I thought he was hot but my friend's boyfriend. He gave me a coupon for the school cafeteria to get pringles. Apparently it was Pringles day in the cafeteria and this would get me free Pringles but he warned me the line would be very long. At some time in dreamland a guy was trying to call me that I didn't want to talk to. It was either someone from online, the guy from my past or my ex boyfriend. I don't know. Common dream signs: someone from HS, playing a video game

[laracroft21]

[size=24]semi-LD: more "flying", nap later with ugly Libby dream I had an "almost lucid" dream last night. I don't remember much of it. I was at high school again (like when I had my first LD). I vaguely remember thinking I'm dreaming and was on a balcony which I wanted to jump off of to prove it. But I was scared and decided to "fly" down a staircase instead. I remember seeing the stairs and going to dive headfirst to soar down them but don't really remember doing it. Later I apeared in my Grandma's living room and there was something on top of a chandelier that no one could get down, and I thought, I'm dreaming and I can fly so I'll get it. I couldn't though and tried to take a running start, and sort of "moon jumped" up there and got it (a pack of cigarettes of my gramma's even tho she does not really smoke). No more lucidity and I don't remember much else. I wonder why when I've been lucid the first thing I think of is flying? I really want to do other things....don't know what really but at least change my locale....I gotta work on this... I didn't get much sleep last night and took a nap this eve. i was at grandma's againfor some reason (it drives me nuts be/c it is so INSIGNIFICANT in my life but keeps popping up in dreams). I was in there with my best friend CP from 8th grade. This part got fuzzy, another part I was in the kitchen and my cat libby was in there. I was showing my family pics of her as a kitten in in the pics she looked all cross eyes and retarded. I told my family we thought she was "special" when she was little but she's a lot cuter and smarter now. Common dream signs: grandparent's house, especially storage area in garage

[laracroft21]

[size=24]Non LD: Raw salmon sandwiches, waking in my own room, Feng Shui In my grandparents kitchenand thinking, I'm always dreaming about being in here so maybe I should look around the room and figure out why. I tried really hard to open my eyes to look around b/c I wasn't sure if I was in the bed or on the floor (where my sis and I used to sleep sometimes on Christmas Eve). I finally was able to open my eyes and realized I was in my own room b/c I saw a poster I have. Then I realized it was just a dream, I kind of felt like it was weird that I was in my own room and wondered how I got there. I immediately fell back asleep and the next dream Was something about being in a hotel room or apartment. And I was alone but other people that lived/stayed there were gone for the moment. I was watching a movie and decided to rearrange the furniture b/c it was hard to walk around and trying to make it better so that all sitting areas could see the TV. There were 2 couches and a chair. I kind of gave up and left all the furniture moved around in crappy positions and figured I would move them later. A guy that lived there came home and I was going to explain the furniture situtation to him or something, I don't remember the rest. I'm stuggling to remember details about the movie I was trying to watch, something seemed significant about that..... Common dream signs: grandparent's house, hotel room

[laracroft21]

[size=24]Non-LD: gym, finding money with a girl, big dollar coins, claw machine I kept waking up and rememering dreams, then falling back asleep and forgetting them (note to self....get a mini tape recorder!!!) Last one I remember I was in a gym or something, but the stair climber was an esclator As I bent down to pick it up, I saw another and another and realized there was a trail of them leading toward a game, I think it was a claw machine which I also usually see in these dreams. I started finding dollar coins, which were about the size of coasters too, and then this black girl came up and started picking up the coins too. We were both like "wow!" and I think she was a friend of mine but no one I know IRL. I wanted to beat her to getting all the money and was trying to pick it up really fast. One of the big dollar coins had a post it note on it, I don't remember what it said but I realized it meant that it was some sort of trap and I backed up. I was watching the girl continue to pick up money and she opened some drawer that had this plaque in it, this is real fuzzy but I think it had both our names engraved on it and said something about us finding the money. I was asking her if we should use the quarters in the claw machine (I always win a ton of stuffed animals in my dreams from these things. I'm pretty sure it's b/c when I was a kid I stayed in this hotel and the claw machine in the arcade had all these really small crappy toys that were easy to get, and my sis and I would always win a whole bunch of them). Then I decided to keep the money. I remember trying to fit one of the big coins in my back pocket and it wouldn't fit. Common dream signs: escalator, arcade, claw machine, finding money edit 1/25/05: last night at a bar (with several arcade games in it) I was hanging out with some of my b/f's work friends. Everyone was chipping in on the tab (except me, my b/f had me covered for the night) and one of his friends had like 10 or 15 quarters left that he ws using for us to play darts. The bar was closing and for some reason he just handed them to me and said, "here you take these". I think it's just a coincidence but I immediately thought of the dream....

[laracroft21]

LD: Long Hair, Disney World on Crutches, Weird Girl and FLYING TO A THEME SONG!!!!! </span> OK. WHOA. I am so excited to tell about the best lucid experience I\'ve had so far. But I have to go in order here and tell about my previous dreams since I remember them very well. 1. Earliest thing I can remember was having really long, curly brown hair. Like down to my butt. I remember how good it felt on my arms when I leaned forward and how pretty it was. I have a lot of dreams about my hair being really long (I usually keep it somewhat short). I was telling my sister how short my hair was last month and she didn\'t beleive it was real. I told her to tug on it and she was like, wow! We were standing by the trunk of a car at that time that\'s all I remember... Commom Dream Signs: long hair 2. I was at Disney World , say hi!). My friend didn\'t want to get a wheelchair b/c she didn\'t want people to think she was crippled, and i said "your armpits will hurt really bad if you use the crutches all day." So we went to get one....rest of the DW dream is fuzzy, I remember riding Splash Mountain and going down the drop backwards. It dropped a couple times and the first time I was terrified but then it wasn\'t so bad. Common dream signs: Disney World 3. This is a long dream that led to becoming lucid. A lot of it is fuzzy and a lot I remember in detail. I was with a guy and girl I think (not the same as earlier dream, these were just DC\'s as far as I know). I think I didn\'t like the girl at first b/c I was interested in the guy and she was his girlfriend. We were going to a bunch of places, one of them being a water park I think but I remember driving around in the car a lot (but not actually being IN the car...weird). I started to like her b/c she was very friendly and we got along. At one point I was buying cigarettes and didn\'t think I had any money, but realized I had a 5 dollar bill in my back pocket (last night IRL my sis gave me a five which I put in my back jeans pocket). This girl asked me to lend her thirty dollars and said she swears she pay me tomorrow. She was all smiley and seemed sincere but I felt weird about it for some reason. But I told her I would, we just needed to go to an ATM and I told her she HAD to pay me tommorrow. Later she was buying pizza or something and I saw all this cash she had. I realized she lied to me about not having any money and said something about it. She was like, "yeah I do have money" or something and we didn\'t say anything else but it was an awkward moment. At some point in the dream I remember they kept driving away before I could get in the car and I was having to run beside the car and try to open the passenger door and jump in at the same time while it was driving. I was saying, "this is really hard to do you guys just stop the car." They finally stopped as I was already jumping in and I said "nevermind, I\'m already in now". Now this is where it gets cool. 8) I was sitting in some cafe with the girl in a booth. She was sitting on the outside of the booth seat and I on the inside to her right, and we were alone at the table. She was telling me about something, I don\'t remember what, and I recalled my dream about the long hair from earlier. I was thinking how I should have recognized the dream sign and become lucid. Suddenly I wondering if I was dreaming then, at first I thought no this has to be real. But then I interrupted her in whatever she was saying and asked "where are we? What city?" I wasn\'t sure what city I lived in but somehow I knew no matter what she said it would confirm I was dreaming. She kind of hesitated and during this time I COULD FEEL MY BODY LYING IN BED! I could feel my legs together and realized I was naked (I was sleeping naked). I hoped I wouldn\'t wake up. The girl answered we were somewhere in Michigan. I kissed her on the cheek and said thanks! I got up and we were both naked. She was shocked she was suddenly naked but I knew it was b/c I was dreaming. I said something like "I\'ll get your number from ____ and call you later!" I ran down this hall to an open window and shouted "YES!!! I\'M DREAMING!!!!" and leapt out the window. I\'ve had trouble flying before and just sort of floated but this time I SOARED up really REALLY high and was doing all these rolls and flying upside down like an airplane (at the least the airplane my friends fly in GTA San Andreas). I was way above the clouds and looked down and felt sort of scared but not really. I was going to try and fly down and do something else but my boyfriend moved beside me in bed and the dream faded as I woke up. I was very close to waking up any way. The funny thing is, as I woke up I had the remains of this song in my head, it was no song I\'d ever heard but I realized it was some very gay sounding song about flying that was "playing" as I was flying!!! God I wished I had stayed asleep longer.... <span style="color:red">edit: I was reading my old dream book and something reminded me of part of last nights dream....something about being on an airplane with someone that had never flown before and she was scared.....at some point I was on the wing of the plane and was terrified but I knew that I would be back inside by the time the plane got too high in the air. This was before my lucid flying part

[laracroft21]

[size=24]Semi-LD: Old dream from 2001 Wow, I never realized that I had a lucid dream a few years ago until I was reading my old dream journal. It's funny to read it b/c I don't remember most of the dreams and they are really wild! I actually wrote in one of my entries that I became lucid and this was way before I found this site or ever tried LDing (but obviously I knew what it was). This is my entry verbatim from October 1, 2001: (nap last night) In a restaurant with Mom and there were 2 old men sitting across from us at a table. One of them was drinking a beer and when Mom walked away, he came over and said something like, "I have a beer and you don't. Want one?" I thought he figured I was underage and was offering me his beer. I said no. He said, "Oh, I know what you young kids like. You need these pills." He held out 2 ecstacy's (they were called BMX and were white with "BMX" on one side and a picture of a bike on the other). I said "yeah, I'll take them", but I was scared they weren't real and would hurt me. I was trying to think of who to share them with, I was thinking of Emily and Nicki [my cousin and sister]. Then I remembered Rob [my boyfriend at the time], and I started to drift awake. I became lucid and realized I was waking up and the pills would be gone, so I quickly swallowed them. Then I fell back asleep and the old man was asking for a blow job in return for the pills. Weird, not very LD-like compared to what I've had since reading this site, but I thought that was interesting!

[laracroft21]

[size=24]Non-LD: Mom moving to NC and making out with Michael Ian Black Last nights dreams are kinda fuzzy and jumped around a lot...this is all I remember for now 1. Driving around intrticate interstates kind of being lost, I knew I was in Tampa though and some woman was asking another person how to get to the airport. I realized I didn't know even though I should b/c I was in my own city. The person was asking her what airline she was on. These people were not in the car, its very fuzzy and I don't have a clear recollection of any imagery in this part except the roads and the palms trees and blue sky. At the same time it seems I was having a conversation with my mom and she was saying she was moving back to North Carolina (which is weird b/c that's where they already live, and they did move there from Tampa over a year ago) and she wanted me and my sister to go move back with them. (IRL she is always trying to convince us to move back there with them...that's where we are all from). she was saying she's moving to part near Tennessee and it will be nice with the mountains and stuff. I was telling her "look around! Look at the palm trees, the blue skies, and it's freaking warm in January! I'm not leaving Florida!" Then I said something about maybe moving to Southern California b/c it would be just as nice and she was like "ok, whatever" 2. Near the end of my dream I was, I think, rehearsing for a show or something, this all takes place in a bathroom, and I has to make out with someone, it started out as Cameron Diaz and then turned into Michael Ian Black (the comedian guy that's alway on I love the 90's...yes I watch too much TV). We were making out all sloppy and fake, like super exaggerated [ I think b/c before bed I was watching girls gone wild and these two girls were kissing like that]. Then I had some weird leather patch with a zipper that was taped to my shoulder, supposed to be part of a costume I guess and that's when Michael turned into Cameron and she and I were looking in the mirror pulling the things off our shoulders. Later I went somewhere, like my house and my sister was there eating. She said she had the "empties", that's the word she used in the dream but I knew she meant the "munchies". I had these strawberries that were sliced up and set them on the table. She was already eating strawberrys and she was like "wow, some more" or something. I was telling someone that my new boyfriend is Michael Ian Black, I said "you know, he's that guy from 'The State' [who remembers that show?! I do!] Common dream signs: Weird interstates and being lost (sort of)

[laracroft21]

[size=24]Non-LD: Weird red truck at Big E's, Play rehearsal with choking string at Ritz, Huxtables in the pool 1. I was at my OTHER grandma's old house (this is not the one I usually dream bout but my other grandma's old house that she does not live in anymore. I sometimes dream of this house and it's always creepy in my dreams. Escpecially the yard b/c they always had a lot of junk in it and this shed they called the "barn" that was full of junk. It is aluminum with an open but covered area, and several mystery doors which were not allowed to go into as kids b/c our parents always said there were snakes and stuff in there.) ANY way back to the dream....theres a vague memory of being at the kitchen table and some woman was showing everyone a trick where you could put a rope around your neck and pull the end like you were gonna hang yourself, but if you make a special loop it won't hurt and go "through" your neck (I think this is a real magic trick I read in a book). Later I was outside with a boyfriend (don't know who but I"m pretty sure he ws supposed to be my bf) looking for my bike. I told him not to go near the barn but then I saw that the "barn" was a brand new shed that looked like a little house. Then we saw this bad ass red truck that didn't look like any truck I'd ever seen. IN my dreams there are always a bunch of broke down cars in the yard too but there weren't IRL. I thought it was just junked so I told him I'd ask if we could have it. We went up to the house and I saw my mom and grandma. I asked about the truck and they said it was "uncle ____'s" truck (just some DC, apparently an annoying relative that would never leave). Then I asked about my bicycle and they said it was inside. Common Dream Signs: grandma E's old house 2. I was at my old job at a camera store and we were rehearsing for some play. We were going to do a run-thru of the show so I was gathering my props like a pink hat and a rope and some other stuff. I noticed how the store was rearanged and commented on that. (I'm always dreaming of being back at that store, it's in a mall and I always have weird dreams about the mall too. I should have picked up on these signs). I had to set up the rope trick thing from the earlier dream for a girl that was going to do it as part of the show It seems to me this was an asian girl. I was trying to remember how to do it and worried I would do it wrong and she would hang herself. My boss/theater director (who was my boss Guy from another job I used to have) said to take a 45 min break. I figured I would eat lunch in the mall and look for my boyfriend (this is my ex Randy) who worked in the mall (he works in a mall IRL). As we were leaving my boss and all the other people were talking about smoking and asking each other for lighters. I had a bunch but I didn't want to share. I offered to let them use one if they gave it right back. they said they were going home for lunch and would just buy some lighters on the way. I felt bad at first that they had to waste part of their break stopping at a store but I was like, "fuck it" and went to find my b/f. I was worried he would get in trouble for me visiting him at work. Now here is a common dream sign: I'm walking thru a really long mall and not sure where the store I'm looking for it but I know it's far away and there are a couple forks where I could get lost. I started going one way and ended up walking through a pool. I kept going but knew I had to be in some hotel or something and went too far. I was walking thru a giant jacuzzi and Bill Cosby was sitting in it! I didn't seem surprised to see him and he was kind of looking at me, like, "what is she doing?" I was wading behind him and I think telling him I was lost. I could see the other mall entrace far away and started heading that way. I would have to wade thru several pools. Then some of the other people from the Cosby Show came up to us in the pool (Claire, Rudy, and Theo) and they all these weird tattoos, some on their faces. I kind of wanted to stick around b/c I thought Theo looked hot. The dream pretty much fades there. Common Dream Signs: weird mall, being back at Camera Store

[laracroft21]

[size=24]Non-LD: Warning: Disturbing and weird dream ahead I had forgotten my dreams when I first woke up but something just reminded me of this disturbing dream. IRL last night I was telling my boyfriend that I wish I could have a penis for one day, b/c it would be fun to pee anywhere, and just to play with you know (classic case of penis envy I guess). Well in my dream, I grew one! I was lying in the bed and pulled it out of my pants and was showing my boyfriend. I was like, look my wish came true! It was really big and really pink. I was playing with it but when I stroked it I could feel the sensation in my vagina. I looked under my balls and found that I still had one of those under the male parts. I vaguely remember talking to my mom or something and telling her that I was a hermaphrodite and there were several others around that were shocked. I think I showed them. That's all I recall, thank god.

[CharlesKennedy]

Thats Mental!!!!!!!!!! Imagine that a penis and a vagina! You have the greatest dreams ever!

[laracroft21]

I don't know about THAT one being the greatest dream ever....I guess it would have been better had it been lucid.....the things I could have done.....

[laracroft21]

[size=24]Recurring Dreams, part of it LD: My big wedding to an online DC and FLAVA FLAV!!! (EW) Ok last night I had this recurring dream about me getting married. i woke up several times in the night and each time tried really hard to memorize the dream so i wouldn't forget it later (i didn't have a pen and paper handy and did not want to drag my sorry ass outta bed). I guess it worked b/c each time i went to sleep the dream sort of continued, which rarely happens to me. Anyway, it started off where it's my wedding day and everyone is getting ready for the wedding. I'm in my dress and all but i'm wearing black shoes! The guy I am going to marry is a guy i met on the internet and never in person, and rarely even talked to online (just a DC....none of you guys sorry ) and when I walk down the aisle will be the 1st time I see him. I'm not even sure of his name and know that it might be one of two different guys. Everone is waiting for me but i have to find white shoes be/c the black ones just aint working with white wedding gown (me wearing white. HA!) So I end up in a mall and I'm going to different shoe stores desperately trying to find white shoes, ANY white shoes but none of the store had them and no one seemed to think it was weird that i was in a wedding dress. I kept worrying so much that I would miss my own wedding. At some point i was walking through the mall and said to myself, I had this dream about getting married earlier and woke up....this has to be a dream. I was like, ok....what did I learn about staying lucid? I think I said "clarity" and focused on something which was like this green glow stick thing. Then i tried to figure out where I wanted to be (not in a mall for sure....I hate the damn mall). I looked down and tried spinning, which I've never done before, but I could only spin really slowly, like when you try to run in dreams. I don't remember what happened I either woke up or the dream changed or I stopped being lucid....this was earlier and it gets real fuzzy. Later I finally made it to the wedding, sans white shoes, i figured I would go barefoot and no one could tell with the long dress. but my feet still stuck out and i thought it looked stupid. i was sitting in the pews on the left side of the church and realized i had no idea what to do. i figured i would just walk up there when everyone stood up and "here comes the bride" played. Somewhere around that time I realized I was marrying FLAVA FLAV (for those that don't know, the guy from Public Enemy and he was on Surreal Life and this ridiculous show I can't seem to stop watching called Strange Love). he gets on my nerves IRL and I remember vaguely wondering why i was marying him but at the same time felt like i should love him (maybe I channeled Brigitte Nillsons dream???). I noticed that my side of the church was all white people and the right side was all black people and my family (although not my real family, just DC's) seemed disgusted, like they were racist or something. I was still trying to decide to go with the black shoes or barefoot and suddenly eveyone stood up so I knew I would have to go walk up there. I became very nervous and ended up wearing these stupid socks that were white and pulled up real high, and peple could see them. I almost ran up there to the altar and realized i didn't have a bouquet. i put my hands behind my back and was thinking, "this is all wrong, this is my wedding day and i dont' know what to do or who i'm marrying and have no idea what's going on!". when i got up there, in about 2 seconds i just stood across from Flava and didn't know what I was doing. My sister, who was the maid of honor I guess, handed me a bouquet and said she forot to give it to me earlier or something. it was flowers in a pot. The minister started out as this weird Indian guy that looked like Will Farrell with lots of blue eyeshadow. he was doing this cermony where we had to drink like wine coolers out of these small, shallow rectangular plastic things (almost like tupperware lids). he asked if i was okay to drink it and I knew he meant was i pregnant or anything. I told him I could and drank some blue stuff. Then i kept almost falling down from being nervous and I felt the drink would help me relax. Antoher minister came up at one point which was an Indian lady, and there was a picture of her on the wall behind her (a painting). Flava Flav kept running around doing stupid shit instead of being involved in the ceremony, he like stole a table and took it outside or something and his friends on the right side of the church were acting stupid and I was geting upset. I wondered why i was marrying him, I was thinking "he's like 44 he's way too old but he's rich at least". I don't remember much after that, some weird mayhem with the buffet table..... Some part of my dreams included being at grandma's AGAIN and people were exchanging gifts with each other for my wedding. Everyone was really into the preperations and talking about how much they spent. my other grandma was saying she spent $6,000 on a flower arrangment and the whole dream i felt like no one noticed me or cared about me, and they should b/c I was the "star" of the wedding! one point earlier in the dream, when i was still about to marry the internet guy, my mom told me she met him and didn't like him. I saw him but it was more like me watching my mom's memory or a video, not me actually being with him. he was big and muscular and very ugly. he was also a jerk and I thought "oh no what am i getting myself into". One of the times I woke up before the wedding part I remember thinking IRL that I wished I had made it to the actual wedding to see what it would be like. I should have become lucid in the last part. D'oh! I could have changed Flava into Ewan McGregor or something. Shit.

[CharlesKennedy]

Nice one for coming Lucid Also is Flava his real name? as its some kind of Coffee over here! "Do you want a Flava?" Flava! Good call"

[laracroft21]

[size=24]Non-LD: Classes, Broken VCR, 16 year old internet guy in a grocery store and Urkel First off, something really weird happened before I fell asleep. I closed my eyes and saw a tunnel and tried to focus on the farthest point away to try and go into an LD. i started getting like the hypnogogia image flashes in my head but instead of being random, they were flashes from dreams I've had in the past that I did not remember until I saw them, I'm talking like dreams from years past even. I kind of woke up and wondered what was going on, and that maybe my subconcious had stored these images but I couldn't figure out why they were popping up now. i closed my eyes again and they kept going, I was trying to concentrate on them and thought maybe i could "go into" an old dream, realize it was a dream and be lucid. But I was very aware of my body and my arms kept itching and stuff so i would move and not sleep, finally i fell asleep but do not remember dreaming until later.... this one is sort of vague, I was passing thru a room and some people were siting at a table, I guy came in I think trying to either buy or sell prescription drugs and he had a sheet of paper with picturs of pills on it....then I was in some room drinking wine and i think I was in an empty classroom (that didn't look like one at all, no desks or anything, pretty empty) about to go to one of my classes and figuring I would get drunk first. Then I was thinking "what am I doing? I can't get drunk in class". Then I remembered I never go to my last few classes which were art and math anyway, and that since I've already graduated college i don't even need to. i decided I would just go to history and science (weird...this is such a common dream sign where I don't go to my last classes of the day b/c i know i've already graduated....really should have picked up on this one but the dream was real fuzzy and I didn't even remember it until after I typed in the dream below.....) Common Dream Sign: being in school and not going to last classes I think I was in the same "classroom" watching a movie with some people, I think it was some sappy movie with Keanu Reeves but not any real movie I know of. i was messing with the TV and the VCR fell off. I saw it falling almost in slow motion and cringed when it hit the ground and broke in two. I asked some guy if it was okay and he ws trying to play the tape, like the top of the VCR was off and I could see the inside and it was working, b/c all the wheels and belts and things (it didn't look anything like the real inside of a VCR) were moving and the movie was playing. Flash to me talking to this guy that I was dating. i don't know his name but I think i met him online (see last night's dream...maybe i AM spending too much time online!!!) All I know is he had brown hair. he was telling me about how he got in trouble back in his hometown b/c he was driving a car with a bumper sticker that said "Underage Driver" or something and got pulled over by a cop at school. he was laughing about it and saying he was too young to drive then and he thought it was funny that he put the sticker on there. I thought it was stupid for him to have done that but he was acting like it was a big joke and I was wondering how he got the car in the first place. I asked him how long ago that was, or how old he was then or something and he said, ''well I'm 15, 16 now so," and I think I said "so just last year?" I wondered if he was 15 or 16 and decided to go with 16. i was thinking "this boy is way too young for me, I'm 26 that's just plain wrong!" but somehow I justified it and went with it. It's weird to explain where we were....we were like outside in a grocery store parking lot but we were at the same time right by the checkout....at some point I was telling him about how my aunt and uncle (I was thinking of my aunt that died of cancer years and years ago and my uncle that is still alive) wre in their car and got caught in a whirlpool in a cul-de-sac. While I was telling him I was swirling my glass of orange soda to demonstrate the whirlpool and at the same time my dream turned into this image of a huge circular area (like a cul-de-sac I guess) with water swirling around and my aunt and uncles car going under. But in the middle of the vortex there was no water and a chicken's head was bobbing out of a manhole.....after my story we flashed back to being in front of the checkout line, we were sitting on something with a blanket over us and I held his hand under the blanket. I rememebr wondering if he was a virgin. He let go of my hand and said "what is this we're drinking?" meaning the Orange Soda and that he didn't like it. he got up to go to the grocery store and buy someting else. i think he tried to steal something, it looked like this huge coin bank my old roommate had that looks like a giant glass coke bottle but is actually made of plastic. He bounced it past the checkout and then I saw Steve Urkel, but he was 10 years old and looked like he did back on the show when he was Urkel except a lot younger. He was trying to steal something big like a box of cat litter, or something i don't recall, and the alarm kept going off. he was acting all comical about it and finally got in line to buy it. Then the boy showed up from another checkout line with huge cardboard cartons of beer. Not like cases of beer, but like when you buy a bunch of sodas and the cans are all in a carton standing up in individual little boxes with like plastic wrap on top. But these were really big and there were a lot of them, and the beers looked like imported expensive beers from Germany or England or something. I was like wow! and woke up as i was wondering how he could afford all that. when I woke up the first thing I thought was, I didn't even wonder how he bought beer being only 15 or 16!

[laracroft21]

Well Good God the site went down and I didn't know what to do with myself. But I still kept my dream journal! BWAH HAHAHAHAHAHA! 1/31/05 Non LD: Funky House, Olive Garden bathrooms, and Old friends First dream was a little more fuzzy and weird than the second. I was in some house, a huge house with a lot of bathrooms and there was this woman that owned it with a lot of kids. I remember walking thru one bathroom that connected two other rooms and it was huge, and the floor was covered with many different colored bath rugs. I remember picking up a green one by the toilet and moving it to cover a spot that had gotten uncovered. The lady told me her son likes it that way because he doesn't like his feet on a cold floor. I agreed. Some part of this I went out side to the front porch and a girl or a guy, I think they were Asian was over and I think they had a bunch of piercings and were like punked out. Suddenly a bunch of other kids started coming up like they were coming for a party and I ws telling them they can't all be here b/c I knew the lady in the house would be upset. I think they were supposed to be her daughter's friends (her daughter was my friend I guess and I was staying there). She did get mad b/c they were out there being all loud and ran them off (or maybe the neighbors called the police or something...this is really hard to remember) and I didn't want her to think it was my fault. She had these house rules written on a piece of paper that said something about what time people could come over until and how many people and she had marked them out and changed them. One part of this dream someone was coming in the house and going toward the bathroom. I said "no!" and ran in there b/c the bathroom connected to the ladie's bedroom and her door was open and she was in there. I didn't want her to see the person so I ran in there and slammed her door before she could see me. I tried to lock it but I knew she had a "no locked doors" rule and I was hoping she would think it was her daughter and not me. In one part of this house I was looking for a room for a girl to give my sister a pedicure and found an empty room with a counter and yelled for them to stop what they were doing and do it in there (the pedicure). Last dream, the most vivid and therefore, very long. Sorry. Olive Garden, I was there with the girls from the previous dream (I think it was the daugther and a neighbor girl, seemed like she was blond and named Christy or something). I kept feeling like I had to go to the bathroom (p.p.) this whole dream. At first I was waiting on our food I guess and I ran round the restaurant seeing these guys I hate (CM and VL) that used to be my friends at the restaurant sort of turneed into the bar we used to hang out at. I went around like, banging a quarter on everyone's head or something and getting it caught in their hair. When I got to the major asshole (CM) he was drunk (he is underage but always got to drink at the bar) he said something like "now you're coming back here and we gotta see you ass here all the time now?" and I said "yes." then I said I was just here the one time for some special occasion and that I only came over to talk to this other guy (RB) [that was sort of in the circle of friends but never hung out that much toward the end b/c he got involved with a girl.] I messed with his hair (which is usually dreadlocked but now was really tiny braids) and said I liked the braids. Then I walked away to avoid CM and use the bathroom. On the way these 2 girls were in the waiting area and I kind of bumped one and made her drop all her stuff (a purse, camera, and some stuff fell out of the purse). I said "Oh my god, I'm so sorry" and as I said it she was looking down and didn't see my but I recognized them as 2 girls I went to high school with (Rachel G. and Julie H. (the uglier one) [BTW I'm being coy with names b/c I'm paranoid about any of these people knowing about my dream although I doubt any of them would ever come on here...but you never know] I was bending down to help Rachel pick up her stuff and wondering if I should act like I recognized her or just keep going. These are girls I just knew and was sort of friendly with as far as being in class and whatever but they weren't really friends of mine. As Rachel and I both stood up I said "I think I know you" right as Julie was saying "don't we know her?" I said yeah, told them my name and they were like saying they were in some club or something at school and I felt really awkward for some reason, while vaguely wondering what they were doing in Florida (I went to school in another state). Then a bunch of other people from high school came in and I recognized some of them, but some I didn't (this is fuzzy...I think they were just DC's not actual people who's names I can think of) and I was just awkwardly like, "hey how are you guys. So you still all hang out now, huh?" and felt stupid b/c I don't keep in touch with any of my HS friends. They were all lined up against the wall and this one guy at the far right said, "aren't you going to say hi to me?" and he was HOT but I didn't recognized him so I said "no, I don't know you." He looked hurt and then I racked my brain trying to think who he was and decided it was Ryan S. [a guy I again, barely knew, did not ever have a crush on or anything...and he did not look anything like the guy really does...or used to...whatever] I was like, "just kidding of course I remember you" and hugged him. He was looking at me in a way I could tell that he liked me. I went to the bathroom. I kept feeling like I had a UTI or something and had to go like every 5 minutes, and it hurt, it was really bothering me b/c I kept going potty and wanting to be in the restaurant with my friends and check out the HS people to see what's up with them. Some time around here I think, the asshole CM was over there saying something like, "you know them from HS huh?" and I knew he was just there to embarass me. I told him to go away and then saw I think the manager talking to him and asking him something about if he was in high school and what school he goes to [he's really 19 not in HS). I was thinking, "yes! He's getting busted for underage drinking" and asked the hostess up front if that's what was going on. She kind of nodded and I said "good". First bathroom I went in was the employee restroom which I didn't know, but wondered why it was only one small room, like a gas station bathroom instead of one with stalls. Then this guy sort of opened the door and asked who was in there. He walked away but I could see he was butt naked and holding his Olive Garden uniform on a hanger [BG info: I used to work at OG but this was not the one I worked at]. I was looking in the mirror and trying to be all pretty for the guy Ryan and I thought my makeup looked bad but at least I was wearing a shirt that showed off my big boobs [I told my sister the other day IRL that if I ever went to a HS reunion they would think I had implants b/c I was flat in HS and "blossomed" in college, I have D cups now...NOT IMPLANTS!] I walked out of the bathroom and realized it was attached to the kitchen and felt stupid for going in the employee bathroom. I tried to act nonchalant and went into another area that was an arcade. It was empty except one employee and an old lady playing some game where you throw a basketball down a lane of water, like a little canal, and try to have them land in these innertubes or something, I was trying to decide what to play b/c I had one quarter and was going to play the one the old lady was on but she kept losing and the basketballs kept turning into desserts and making a huge mess. A girl in a bikini was there to go in the "pool" and clean it up. I told the lady it looks hard so I won't play that. Before I saw the old lady I was going to play something like video poker only really different. Also I considered ski-ball but the balls were rubber footballs. There was a game called Shoot your Mother where the machine takes a pic of your mom and you try to shoot it with a gun. The game says if you win your mom gets 6 quarters and one of her "allys" gets 11. I wanted to play but it cost 50 cents and my mom wasn't around for me to let it take her photo. I left and went back to my table. My friends had moved to a huge round table and I wanted to tell them we had to go b/c I had a UTI and it hurt and I couldn't stay in the bathroom the whole time. I saw my HS "friends" getting seated and some of them had wine. I remembered I couldn't drink b/c I was pregnant [not IRL, but I recently had a scare] I thought, damn I have to quit smoking now too. Then someone from the restaurant said something like "its a special day for someone!" and they started singing Happy Birthday. Only the song sounded totally differnt. I was trying to tell them it wasn't my birthday and my friends were like no,play along. This big TV screen came down in front of me and there was a black lady on it singing. I thought, "wow this is really different than birthday's at my old Olive Garden." This part was really weird, my friends were like passing the mike to each other to sing but they were more like moaning and speaking in tongues into the microphone. I kept sneaking glances at the table with my HS people and trying to look at Ryan to see if he was checking me out. I realized I had my green bath towel around my head like a turban like after I shower and was embarassed. I pulled it off and my hair was wet and I was wanting to ask someone to borrow a brush but they were all still singing or something. At some point I went to the correct bathroom. The women's was on the left and as you walk to the door the ceiling panels around this circluar entrance corridor like, lifted up and were lit up orange and red, like a passage was opening to let you in. I looked over at the mens on the right side of the hall and saw they had the same thing only the lights were blue and it looked cooler. I had to kind of crawl in there and wondered when the "panels" (I don't really know how to describe this, it was so odd) went back down when someone else came into the bathroom, would I be crushed if I was still under there? Somehow the next thing I remember was being outside in the parking lot with Ryan and he was asking me all these weird questions about myself and what I like to do. He made me write my hobbies on a sheet of paper and I realized he had made up this checklist for potential girls to date and I was kind of laughing at him because it was so corny. He had like pro and con columns that he had already written stuff in about me, and it seems like another girl too. I started writing stuff I like. I wrote "drinking" but the handwriting was really bad so I decided to draw a mug of beer, which looked awful like I suddenly forgot how to write AND draw. I wrote karaoke, origami, and all things Japanese. I had to show him what I wrote and tell him each thing, b/c the handwriting was awful. I decided not to tell him I was pregnant. I kind of had the idea that I had a boyfriend and that this was wrong, but the guy that popped in my head was actually my ex (WG). I looked at Ryan and he had turned into looking totally different, like he put on some weight, although not exactly 'fat'. I woke up and had to pee really bad