Arrogance and Apathy

[HyperNova]

Well, I decided to finally make a proper DJ. It's probably a stupid time to start this due to my spot of bad dream recall lately but meh. Blue is for no Lucidity Teal (?) is for Semi Lucidity Green is for full Lucidity Red is for sate of mind (not neccesarily during dream) Apprehensive for exams but emotions such as anger and sadness have not seemed to effect me recently, although I have an increasing feeling of lonelyness. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- I cannot remember the dreams I had two nights ago fully but they contained these themes: I was a leader of an army and we were preparing for war My adviser/guardian sacrificed himself to protect me I was at a dinner party and I sat with my family and another family. There was a girl near to my age who also sat at the same table. She was fairly attractive. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Last night I fell asleep at 6am and could only remember one dream. I was at school walking in the upstairs humanities corridoor (History and Geography classes) when I see HER at the end of the corridoor walking to the stairs. I decide to run after her, I don't know what I will say when I reach her but that didn't seem to matter. I finally reach her and she is talking to classmates. I get slightly annoyed for some reason and walk off to the outside corridoor which connects the Technology and Humanities wing to the rest of the school. I see a group of kids who are at least 3 years younger than me sat in the middle of the corridoor. I'm in a state of anger and decide to take it out on the kids. I walk past them and deliberately trip over them. They start laughing at me and I turn around and punch the nearest kid in the face. I continue to beat the living crap out of the rest untill I am satisfied and leave before I get into trouble. I somehow manage to get outside on the school field and I see HER again talking to some people. Again I decide to aproach her without any idea on what I will say to her. I tell my dream that I am invisible to everyone (still, I don't know that I am dreaming) and walk around HER, listening to her conversation. When I get bored I take over one of her friend's mind and make him/her ask HER questions. (I can't remember what the questions were but I know they were something to do with how she feels about me.) I wake up. So far this dream has been the most vividly recalled dream in a week or so. -------------------------------------------------------------------

[HyperNova]

Well, my recall has continued to be crap. I can't remember any dreams from Monday Night, however, I can only partialy remember two dreams from last night. Dream 1: I was in a hall which was full of tables and people. I was sat at one of these tables next to HER and a friend. My friend was constantly trying to talk to me and I was wishing he would shut up so I could try and talk to HER. Eventually he moved table to talk to some other friends and I was finally alone on the table with her and nothing to say. I gazed around the room; people were walking around the hall from table to table and chatting in loud voices. I sighed and said to myself, "This Prom is so f*cking boring." A couple of moments later someone burst into the hall and the dream changed into a Metroid game. Dream 2: I was in the play-ground of my primary school, it was hot and the place was full of children but instead of the field being grass it instead was full of sand. In this dream I was a fat middle aged man but at certain times I was watching him from third person. The fat man/I had an agar dish in his/my hand which was full of sand. He/I was pouring what looked like small poppy seeds over the sand to make patters. This seemed to delight him/me almost childlishly. Every so often he/I would run onto the sandy field and kick around then run back onto the concreit and admire his/my possesion. Suddenly I was a cloaked dark figure and I was watching the fat man shake his dish happily and I smiled at him. This is all I can remember. Also I continuously fell in and out of nightmarish SP during the night.

[HyperNova]

Again I can't remember much from last night apart from two short dreams. Dream 1: I was in a hospital room which reflected my school's 6th form common room with some unknown people who were supposed to be my friends. I had a huge stomach ache and was convinced it was my appendix - even though I have already had it taken out (my mum jokingly says that prehaps it has grown back every time I get a stomach ache). A doctor came towards me and stuck his hand in my stomach and pulled out a plastic capsual - I didn't feel any pain though - and then looked at me and said, "Here is the problem, you have a container of drugs in your stomach. I then turned around to my friends convinced that is was them who planted it in me and ran before the doctor could call the security. Dream 2: I was playing an MMORPG - Rising Force Online - with some friends although we were actually in the game and each were driving giant machines like these: My cousin was also with us and I was responsible for him as he was new. This is all I can remember.

[HyperNova]

I was reading The Shining last night so it is obvious to see how this was reflected in my dream. THESE ARE JUST THE NOTES: - Deserted street - Was immune to something - Had a gift/ability - Could see red and knew something was chasing me - Ran into a building and found others who had the "gift"

[HyperNova]

I feel as though life is a dream and I am semi Lucid. I am able to see the skin of ignorance, invisible to most, which covers all of existance. I am not able to break through, but I know it's there trapping us, deluding us. Consciousness, which seems so pure and fresh to you, stinks of pollution and deceit. Reality may seem real, but once I am truly awake I will know Lucidity. I write this tired and hungry, nothing I write or say makes as much sense as it does in my mind. I feel trapped in a disguise in a falsehood, but I am aware of it and so I am close. Last night I had a dream about ducklins.

[HyperNova]

I dreamed of HER again, I guess asking myself not to do so doesn't help. I was outside the 6th form block of my school between the Law (I think) class room and the Synagogue. I was a news reporter in my late 20s or early 30s; there was supposidly a radiation leak at the school and I was reporting. I then saw my friend's girlfriend standing alone near the door to the 6th form block and I walked towards her. Once I came up to her I was no longer an adult but back to my own age, she seemed happy to see me and hugged me as though we have not seen each other in years. She seemed sad. I smiled at her sympatheticly and walked towards the door leading into the 6th form block. The moment I stepped in I noticed HER standing to my right behind the opened door. I strangely decided to ignore her and walked past. I only took a few steps untill I turned around looked at her and hugged her tightly. She hugged me back smiling. The dream continued for abit but nothing interesting happened.

[HyperNova]

I had an LD in which I flew with wings.

[HyperNova]

I had a pretty epic dream... however I can't remember much of it. The character I was playing was a couple of years older than me and also looked different. I was in my Physics Classroom and there were a load of other people my character's age dressed in white coats. We were all scientists and we were all panacking. From what I can remember there was either a new deadly virus/chemical/bio hazard around and it was going to destroy everything in a matter of days. We were all charged with the honourable job of trying to stop the world from ending and well we were far from calm about it. I was standing at the far end of the room at the windows where the sinks are. To the left of me was a women whom was my character's age. Although she was not my type in RL, she was attractice to my character.Things happened before hand, however the dream is pretty blury. I walked up to her and casually and said to her on the lines of: "We should 'get it on' since the world is about to end." There was a short exchange which I can't fully remember but basicly she rejected my offer. I finally told her I was joking - I even convinced myself that I was - and we started talking. I told her that I always expected I would die alone and that I had never fallen in love before. She said it was pretty much the same with her........ after a while we kissed and well instantly fell in love. Another blur We then suddenly discovered a cure for whatever it was that was threatening mankind. We were pretty darn excited about it. We later had sex - which was annoyingly TEXT BASED..... Yes, text based... on a forum... there were other posters... Anway.. time passed and my character was now world famous. He was an inventer and a business man, he pretty much created the new world and all it's technology. He was also one hell of a speaker. The only piece of technology I can remember is that people are able to change their names now depending on their achievments or something stupid like that. My character's new name was 553 - it was something to do with that girl, all I can remember - It felt pretty darn romantic in the dream. The girl was still with him and they were the world's most known couple. However, during a huge gathering in which my character was the host, there was a problem. Someone hacked into the main computer and the place was set to self distruct. Again there was more of this, however it's still a blur. In the end it turned out the "terrorist" was the girl. Then my character had a flashback of memories in which the underline statement was: "I made you apart of everything" and how everything the character did he would try and include her. Everyone ran, my character was able to escape. He came across her and there was a horrendous argument. I (not only my character) felt a huge stab of pain and sorrow. After the conferentation my character continued to escape. A blur. The dream went back in time to when the gathering was and my character was talking about his "name" invention.... such an amazing speaker he was. The same thing happened, however this time the girl had the flashback. It had the same message, how she tried to include him into everything she did. I can't remember anything else. The dream was longer and alot more epic than I have said... just it faded very quickly.

[apachama]

That sounds like an amazing dream of a whole life anyway. Its a shame bits are missing. but it still sounds very cool.