CJ's dream journal :)

[TheCJ]

General talking will be in bold and small text. Things I remember about the dream that I didn't really notice *in* the dream will be in italics Lucid dreams will be identified as so in the title and any general talking will be in purple. I decided to start trying the dream recall So last night I lay down, told myself over and over that I was going to remember everything I dreamt, put a notebook and pencil right next to me and set my alarm to wake me up about 3 times during the night. When I woke up in the morning I couldn't remember anything I dreamt but I specifically remembered writing in my notebook at least twice. Imagine my surprise when I flipped through the whole book twice and couldn't find a mark! That's right, I DREAMT I wrote my dreams in there. Ahh well.. I suppose that counts.. or not. Haha. Hopefully I'll have more luck tonight -CJ

[TheCJ]

Tonight was so weird! I kept drifting in and out of sleep which was understandable since it's only the second time in more than a month that I've slept for so long. I either had a whooollleee lot of dreams or alot of weird, disconnected dreams. --- 1) My sister and brother and I were on a bridge and there was loads of fog. I was rolling a shopping cart and i was in a kind of forest. We walked for awhile then we saw a building and it was a huge supermarket. We went in and started picking up groceries.. my little brother tried to pick up a watermelon and dropped it then I tried to pick up one and knocked over the whole stand and there were watermelons all over the place. Then there was this huge lady pushing a cart and my sister made a joke about fat people pushing carts so I stopped pushing our cart and told her she had to do it from now on. I don't really remember what happened after that but there were loads of buses outside the store and suddenly I was the only one there and I was back in the forest again. There was only one tree that I could see next to me but it was gigantic. There was even more fog than before but there was a really really bright light shining through the fog but I couldn't tell where it was coming from. Then I kept seeing flickering, flittering lights, almost like fairies and one of them whispered the word "remember" to me and then I woke up. 2) There was a man dressed in all black. I don't remember how I know he spoke French because I don't remember him speaking at all, but he was just standing there smoking. There was the sound of children singing coming from all directions and my brother, my sister and her friend appeared behind the man then everything faded away. 2.1) At this point I'm not sure if I woke up or if I was half awake or what, I don't know, but all of a sudden I was launched into another really short dream. I don't know any songs called "Live and Love" but it sounded really old and it was playing, like there was a party going on. Then someone came up to me dancing (it looked like the guy from the "Take on me" video, which is kind of funny to me now), then he told me I had to pay to continue the dream but I didn't have any money. Then he went up on stage and finished the song and there were bright lights around him. 2.2) At this point it felt like I woke up *again* but I don't think I was fully awake.. it felt like I was almost in a trance. Then there was a girl sitting on a rock and she was speaking to me and I thought she was really pretty. During the course of the dream she kept changing from really young to around my age but to me it didn't seem abnormal in the dream. At this point she was little. I was riding a bike and I let her ride behind me and she wanted me to take her home. So I did and there was noone else there. I asked her where her parents were but she wouldn't answer me. She went to take a shower and I was sitting in her living room and then she called out and said she was stuck so I ran into the bathroom and saw her hanging on to the shower curtain rod. I laughed and lifted her down and asked her how she got up there and she just hugged me and started sobbing. I kept thinking I should wrap her in a towel or something because she was dripping wet and obviously didn't have any clothes on but I don't think she wanted me to get up. I started stroking her hair and telling her it was okay.. at that point I remember her being my age and I kissed her on the forehead. Then she was a little girl again and she said something about being scared of "the dream man" and I had an image of the smoking man from the first dream. I picked her up and carried her to (what I supposed was) her room and put her to sleep. I kissed her forehead again and told her she was my favourite person in the whole world.. then I woke up. Around this time it was about 6am. I stayed awake for about half hour then fell asleep again and had one more dream.. I went lucid for the first time ever woooooo! I didn't expect to, since I only just started readin about it some days ago but it's been quite obsessive. I think it was DILD but I'm new to these abbreviations so I'll have to look it up again. I have to go right now (man, I do tend to type alot, don't I?) so when I come back I'll edit this post and write about the DILD.

[TheCJ]

I have returned! So yeah, last night (or this morning, rather) I had a dream in which I was lucid for part of it. It's quite odd, actually because when the dream started it was just a normal dream. --- I was standing in a sort of hallway with stairs on each side and big tube with bubbles coming out of it in the middle of the hall, kind of like in a fish tank. I saw a friend of mine walking around near the tube and I called out to him. (I don't remember who it was but they were taller than me) It seemed as if he was in his own dream, and I wondered if it meant that both our dreams were happening in the same place and we were sharing dreams or something. I started to tell him that he was dreaming and I was dreaming too, and then it hit me that I was *dreaming*. I looked around and couldn't see a clock and I didn't have a watch which is what I use to reality check. So I looked down at my wrist and I said out loud "If I'm dreaming then I should be able to make a watch appear". I thought about it really hard and then there was a watch on my hand! I thought that was about all the reality check I needed, really. Haha. I started to get really excited and wondered if I could fly but I doubted it could happen. I jumped really high but landed again. I knew it was because I didn't think I could do it so I decided I'd force myself to believe it. I ran up the stairs and stood on the banister. Then I jumped off and told myself I would not fall and realised I was floating. After that I flew around the house and out the window and imagined I was flying over London, and I was flying over London! I imagined my own house below me and flew into my bedroom but then I lost control of the dream. Not in control, I walked into my mom's room and she wasn't there then I started calling her and I woke up. That's how it went, but I'm not sure if it was an LD or a DILD or what. But whatever it was it was pretty cool! **Edit.. I've suddenly remembered that in some part of this dream, my sister was there and she was lucid too. That's it, though. Haha. **Edit2: I wonder if the 'friend of mine' was Hugh? I've suddenly got this image of the dream in my head and it was Hugh. Also my sister was in the same room as Hugh walking around too.. but I don't remember how I knew she was lucid.

[TheCJ]

When I got home a couple of hours ago after I did a few mundane things, I decided to take a short afternoon nap (usually something I'd NEVER do). This is what I dreamt. --- I was sitting in a classroom. The school I don't remember, it was a mixture of a whole bunch of the schools I've been too. I was yelling at this boy who was yelling back at me and his friend was yelling at me as well. I don't remember what we were yelling about but I was extremely angry. The odd thing was that in the dream, the boy was my ex-bf.. but I've never had a bf and certainly don't want one anytime soon (or ever). I remember clearly all his features but I know I've never seen him before. He was a little taller than me and mixed race. He was wearing the sort of clothes I hate to see boys wear, saggy pants, white t-shirt, he had afro hair (almost longer than mine haha) which was pulled back and he had a white sweatband on his head. So we were yelling at each other and suddenly I started running and they started chasing me. I came to a dead end (at the side of the school. Wall, school gate, wall) and I was backed up against the school gate. They were going to beat me up, I know it. At this point it seems like I was two people. 1) the me backed up against the gate with her ex-bf screaming in her face and 2) me on the computer watching all of this happen. I clicked exit on the page with the video. The page didn't exit, but I disappeared from the video and ended up in the classroom again. The boys were bewildered and started searching for me. The scene replayed almost perfectly, them shouting at me, me running. This happened twice more and then I started messing with the computer controls so instead of ending up in the classroom, sometimes I'd be on the other side of the gate or sometimes right behind them. Then I decided to just let the scene play out. I was backed up against the gate and yelling. For some reason there was a small boy next to me who they were yelling at too. They were going to beat us up one by one. I convinced them that it would be more fair one on one and that besides, (whatever we were fighting about) was between me and (whatever his name was). We started yelling at each other again and then I started shouting something about "Will you just ***ing let me get the hell away from you? Just go the hell away and let me go do my studies.. you're such an ***hole" and he was shouting back "Study? You mean go play with you little computer game that's what you mean". I pushed past him and went downstairs (somehow I was in my own house again and it seemed like we were fighting in my room upstairs). I washed my face in my mom's sink and realised my mouth was bleeding and started to wash it out. I remember thinking "I hope he doesn't come downstairs cuz he might think I'm crying.. but he'll never make me cry." He did come downstairs and glanced over his shoulder at me and then I woke up. To me, this dream was really weird as a) I'm not into boys in any way whatsoever b) I don't swear c) It was weird how I was feeling the emotions of both the me in the video and the me on the computer at the same time, even when I was just watching the video.

[TheCJ]

I went to sleep earlier than I've ever gone to bed since the time I had chicken pox. I suppose I was hoping to be able to recall a few dreams, or at least have 1 lucid one but no dice :p I only remember this one. I was an undercover police officer (but I didn't know this at this point in the dream.. I was just sitting around) and the phone rang. I answered it and it was a man selling smoke. (I suppose smoke was illegal. -shrug-) So I went over to his apartment place and looked at all the different types of smoke he had, coming out of pipes and in jars and stuff. Then I arrested him. I took him to what looked like an electric chair but was actually a chair and a guillotine. You put the person on the chair and strapped their heads back then down came the blade. The man was really scared and begging me to let him go but I told him not to worry, since the new laws they only decapitate horses. At that point another man came in leading an "unruly horse" and strapped it into the chair. Down came the blade and its head was off. (I've always wanted some sort of skull for my room.. some weird thing I have) so I started asking the man if he could give me the horse head but he was a farmer and he wanted to keep it as a reminder of his favourite horse. I begged and begged and then in the middle of it I woke up.

[TheCJ]

I had no luck with lucid dreaming last night so I decided to try WILDing tonight. While reading over the tutorials for WILDing I came across this one for Hypnosis Induced Lucid Dreaming and thought I'd try it out. I could never understand why the tutorials kept saying fear can keep you from LDing but now I do. I put earmuffs and a blindfold on and off I went. When I started off, I wasn't sleepy at all. It was 8pm, whereas I usually go to sleep at around 2am. I did all the counting excersises and started imagining there were weights on my body. After the first time, I thought "Hey this just might work". By the time I got to the third set of weights I felt like I couldn't move at all.. it was extraordinary. I felt completely attached to my bed and my mind was so relaxed. I started doing the other imagining excersises but I was so relaxed was sure it would only be a matter of time before I fell asleep. I wasn't falling asleep so I kept re-doing all the counting techniques and mixing it with some things from the WILDing tutorials I've seen, such as imagining myself riding a horse. Then it got really odd. I knew I was half awake but I could feel myself as if my body was two in one and the dream one was trying to escape. My mind was awake but my body wouldn't move even if I tried, but I didn't want it to, I wanted to dream, so I wasn't scared. I imagined a hole in front of me and someone pulling my other body out from the paralyzed one but it only ever got halfway. I started to see things like tables and a different room through the hole and I could see people doing stuff through there as well. One of the people looked like me and I realised it was me, in the dream world. I didn't know how I got there because I only remembered halfway pulling myself through but there I was. It still felt like I was imagining it, though, and not dreaming it, because I couldn't *feel* it happening to myself, rather I could only see it on a sort of elevated level, like peeking through a hole in the ceiling to spy on the people upstairs. I wondered if this was part of a dream or if I was daydreaming so I looked at my watch and looked away and when I looked back again it was a random time. But I didn't feel like a dream, I can't really explain it.. everything was all blurry and.. imagined.. I don't know. I tried to move my body to crawl through the hole but my real body jerked out of the paralysis and I woke up. I realised the room was much darker than I'd left it and when I checked the time it was an hour later, although my mind was practically awake the whole time and it only felt like 5 minutes. I'm scared of the dark so as soon as I saw the room was getting dark I shut my eyes again and started counting, but I didn't imagine weights or anything because I was a little frightened of being stuck again. That's when I suppose I started really dreaming because I wasn't lucid in it, just scared shitless. I was totally scared and looking around the room for someone to keep me calm then I saw my cousin Khadijah (who I have only seen for about 2 months in the 3 and a half years since I moved.) I was trying to explain to her what was so scary but she didn't understand. I took her to another room and there was a painting of a sort of desert silhouette scene with cacti and a rolling dust ball thing and a purple background. For some reason the picture completely petrified me, as if it were a summary of all the things I was trying to explain to her and I started screaming. She took me back into the other room (which was actually my old bedroom in Trinidad but I didn't realise at the time. Also there were no walls). We went on my laptop and I started looking for this forum to show to her and I came across the picture again. All of a sudden my whole body was paralysed and I couldn't stop staring at the picture. I realised something strange about it, the wind was blowing the ball in one direction but everything else in another direction. Then I woke up, sweating, realised it was dark, screamed and ran downstairs. The picture looked a bit like this.. I tried to draw it but it's not exactly like it was in my dream. (Thank God.. or I'd probably be screaming right now.) My hands are shaking as I type this and I'm too scared to go back into my room. I'm not sure what's so scary but I'm never going to try that again Also.. the whole thing lasted three hours although it really only seemed like 10 minutes. I was so shocked when there was darkness all around me.

[Man of Steel]

I went to sleep earlier than I've ever gone to bed since the time I had chicken pox. I suppose I was hoping to be able to recall a few dreams, or at least have 1 lucid one but no dice :p I only remember this one. I was an undercover police officer (but I didn't know this at this point in the dream.. I was just sitting around) and the phone rang. I answered it and it was a man selling smoke. (I suppose smoke was illegal. -shrug-) So I went over to his apartment place and looked at all the different types of smoke he had, coming out of pipes and in jars and stuff. Then I arrested him. I took him to what looked like an electric chair but was actually a chair and a guillotine. You put the person on the chair and strapped their heads back then down came the blade. The man was really scared and begging me to let him go but I told him not to worry, since the new laws they only decapitate horses. At that point another man came in leading an "unruly horse" and strapped it into the chair. Down came the blade and its head was off. (I've always wanted some sort of skull for my room.. some weird thing I have) so I started asking the man if he could give me the horse head but he was a farmer and he wanted to keep it as a reminder of his favourite horse. I begged and begged and then in the middle of it I woke up. Hahaha! That whole dream is just so randomly hilarious! Awesome. Don't let that one experience deter you from trying to WILD too much, just take it a bit slower. It sounds like you are a natural at this, but perhaps you're getting ahead of what you're ready for. A lucid dream already, that's pretty good! Keep up the good work, you seem to have some natural talent.

[TheCJ]

I can't read the first set of scribbles I wrote so the first part of my dream is lost. It seems like I had three dreams but I don't remember waking up in between them so I'll just post them as part 1, part 2 and part 3. ---- Part 1 I don't know whose toilet it was.. but I was fixing someone's toilet (ew) and Uncle Cecil was there. He handed me a scuba mask and I was like "what the hell is this for?" So.. (as much as it disgusts me to type it).. I had to snorkel in the persons toilet. Ugh. Although in the dream there was a tv behind me saying how toilets were cleaner than bathroom sinks or some lie like that.. but it was still nonsense. When I put my face in, it was like I was looking outside a window, and there was a crocodile right in front of me. It took me like an hour but I pulled the crocodile out and it started walking around the bathroom. My little brother was riding it. Then I was outside and there were loads of animals and I don't remember who exactly was there because I only wrote "people from Habbo" and I also wrote the number "200". I don't remember their significance, though, so I'll just move on to part 2. Part 2 I wrote "Mix!" in my book, but I don't remember why. I do remember the rest, though. I was at my wedding (not the ceremony, the reception) and everyone was dancing. I don't remember seeing my mom or dad there but that makes sense because I was marrying a girl. I couldn't see her, though, and I was looking for her and found her hiding behind a pillar. I asked her what was wrong and she wouldn't tell me but I figured the few members of my family that were there weren't being more than civil to her. So we snuck out, her in her white dress and me in my tux (haha). It was kind of dark by then and we went to a park/woods area near to the reception place. We could still hear the music but there was noone around and we were in a sort of clearing with trees all around us. We danced and I kissed her and then it seemed they finally realised we were missing because someone was calling our name. She smiled and I took her back. That's all I remember, lol, but it's one of the best dreams I've had in awhile. Part 3 I was in my old primary school in Trinidad but we were having Sunday School there. For some reason I was in the kids' class and my mom was teaching us. She made us play a game where we all turned to the wall and she asked questions (sort of like Have You Ever?) and if you'd done it, you had to raise your hand. Also if someone on either side of you raised their hand you had to raise your hand too, but I don't remember the point of the game. I do remember it was quite boring, though, because she commented that it wasn't as fun as it usually was. I also remember that my friend Steffany from Habbo was on my left and Taylor (Vyia) from Habbo was on my right. I imagined them as real people, not Habbos. Steff was really pretty. Then Sunday School was over and I went downstairs into the school yard and I was walking around talking to Steff and I saw my cousin Jalon. I also saw all the rest of my cousins who live in Trinidad. My sister came up to me and said we had both won £5 from.. something, I don't remember. We had to look for the guy who taught the youth group in the church we go to now, in England. I went up there and my little brother was there and he was eating all the cake (hahahaha). Then this lady was crying and she was telling me how when she was younger her mom raped her with a broomstick in a car (don't know where that came from...). She asked me if I'd ever had sex and I told her no, not in the way she meant anyway. She asked what I meant but I was reluctant to tell her because I thought they might kick me out of the church (I think I had a gf in the dream and that was what I didn't want to tell her about). That's all I remember except random clips of me mixing something that looked like apple crumble and the guy giving me £10 for my sister and I.

[TheCJ]

Looking over my DJ so far and remembering dreams I had before Is tarted keeping it, I realize that alot of my dreams always have a) People from Trinidad in them b) People I know in England, but in places I used to know in Trinidad c) Things happening where they shouldn't be. For example, church in england in my old school in Trinidad, school in england in my old house in Trinidad. Dream signs? Possibly.

[TheCJ]

So I couldn't get online night before last. I wrote down the keywords of my dream but I don't remember most of the stuff that happens so here goes. ----- 1) I was lost and my mom found me and we went driving in a white van. She made me drive (I can't drive haha) and then she went into the back of the van and was playing poker (lmao my mom doesn't even know how to play solitaire) Then I was in the park with my brother and sister and this old man came and said my mom was waiting for me. We went to the underground train station. Then we were waiting for a train and it came. We got on the train but I guess it sort of transformed into a cool looking sports car and we drove out of a trap door in the ground and ended up in the park next to my brothers and sister. I don't remember what happened after that. I've written the word "growing" but I don't remember why. But who knows.. I've been singing that Growing song from Barney all day yesterday and I don't know where I heard it haha. Maybe it was in my dream :p Oh, before I continue.. alot of things from that last dream sound really familiar. >That old man was in one of my dreams a long time ago and he did exactly the same thing.. led me to my mom. > The train station we were in, I've never seen or been to before except in a dream I had once in the first year we moved to England. I remember the station in great detail and I know it was the same one. >The park, I know now was the park next to a bakery my dad used to take us to years ago whenever he'd take us from my mom for an afternoon. I wish I could remember the name of the place, but I remember I always used to get these swirly cookies with sprinkles. Also there was a merry go round, swings and a big spinning thing that only ever worked once. 2) I had two more dreams that night.. I was in the mall (Long Circular Mall.. in trinidad) and I was in a store looking around for something. The store was next to an escalator. The mall I know was the mall in Trinidad but that store was one they have in the Whitgift Center in England. My brother and sister went up the escalator and left me looking. 3) Lol this one was funny but now I don't remember all of it. I was making an advert for Dreamviews (haha) but I was making it with all of the Habbo eXperts on Habbo. Lol.. OkHappy? was singing with his purple 'fro, but it was like his avatar on the forum so he was in a barber's chair and half of his afro was cut off :p That's all I remember besides that the advert was for charity.

[TheCJ]

I can't mention her name just.. because. Lol. So I'll call her X. Here goes. ----- I was in my mom's room and she randomly asked me about X. I answered her question but I don't remember what it was. Then she made some kind of joke about us living together.. or something. And I laughed and replied then she got angry and said she knew I liked her. Then she wanted to forbid me from speaking to X again but she was flying over to visit so there was no way she could. But to my surprise, when X came, apparently my mom had thought about it and decided she'd give accepting it a try. I was really happy and X slept in my room, with me. And... stuff :p Lololololol. Then we were talking about my mom and how we weren't really going out before but we sort of were now that my mom decided she didn't mind. Then she was helping me alot with my homework.. as always, haha, I can never concentrate anyway. (This part was, for some reason, at the corner of st barbs road and roget place in Trinidad, I've never hung out there irl but I passed it almost every day.) but we were sitting there and studying and then Kerry and Jack and those guys came and we were gonna go walking and the Hera came from down in Roget Place. Thennnnnn we went walking (but it wasn't in Trinidad anymore, it was on Beulah Hill like from my house to Kerry's). But I don't think X enjoyed it all that much so I kept making funny faces to make her laugh. Thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn for some reason there was a notice on the news that there was going to be a new Star Wars movie (wth? I've never even seen star wars lol.. don't even know what happens in it.) and that they needed everywhere (in the whole world, apparently) to be set on fire, except inside the houses so everyone had to stay inside their house. We all got inside and it was like stormy weather outside. I was wondering what about people who didn't have TVs and whether or not they would see it and then my mom threw a green wire inside my room from downstairs. I looked and saw loads of wires going into every room in the house from her room, the one to my sister's room was blue and to the living room was white and somewhere else was red.. it looked like the bathroom. She was hanging them over the tree and through to her room and she said we could talk through them. She told me to tie mine in a loop so it wouldn't get lost. I did and then closed the window and asked if she could hear me by whispering through it and she replied. Then I woke up.

[TheCJ]

I was really annoyed this morning. I had two dreams and as soon as I woke up I could remember every detail of both of them so clearly. I reached under my pillow to find my notebook and realised I'd left it downstairs. By the time I got up and found something to write it down with, I'd forgotten half of it, and by the time I started writing it was all gone. All I remember was something about a boy stealing an apple peel and being arrested for it

[TheCJ]

Sooo I've been under so much stress with 14 exams coming up.. I've been getting sooo much more sleep than I normally have because I always look forward to dreaming. Usually I survive on 3-5 hours of sleep a night, but in the last like two weeks I've been getting 8+ hours every single night. I've noticed a couple things. 1) I'm more energetic during the day 2) I get sleepy earlier (not a good thing) 3) I have enough energy to study for 10-12 hours a day, which is good cuz last year around this time I was just online all the time. Anyywaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy although I've been getting all that sleep, I'm having more trouble than ever remembering dreams. It's really frustrating because I always look forward to the dream I'm going to have then I just forget. Or on the nights I remember, I realise I've fallen asleep downstairs studying or something and forget to write it down. Also last night I KNOW I either a) went lucid and then forgot the dream or b) had the opportunity to go lucid, didn't, and then forgot the dream. Lol. Because allllll I remember is seeing *something* I don't remember what it was.. and then saying "wait a second... I gotta be dreaming" and then checking my watch. I don't remember what happened after I looked at my watch which is a pain. Ahh well. C'est la vie. Alors.. this was the dream I had the night before last night (lol.. I love dreams that make me laugh in the morning :p) -------- I was in a club standing at the bar (I'm guessing it was a gay club from the events that followed, haha. I also think I remember it being in Las Vegas or something.) and this really pretty girl walked up to me and started talking. She looked down at my BAHS ring but it said SJC instead of BAHS and she asked me "Hey.. you went to St Joseph's?" with a really puzzled look on her face and I told her yeah and she asked about it being a boys' school and I told her they let girls in for the last two years but there weren't very many. I'm guessing that wasn't what she wanted to hear, lol, because she made an excuse and left. I shrugged and turned back to the bar and I heard someone chuckle to the right of me. I looked over and this like extreeeemely cute girl was standing there and she commented about the last girl and we laughed. I bought her a drink, and another one for myself (don't remember what we were drinking :p Figures.) and we started talking some more. I'm guessing I got a little bit drunk (but not too drunk) becaauusee I remember her mentioning that her mom worked at the hotel (so, I realised it was a bar/club in the basement of a fancy shmancy hotel haha) so she had a room there and long story short.. we went back there and made out for hours. LMAO. (At this point I think I should mention that when I woke up I realised the girl in my dream was Ashley from South of Nowhere hahahahahahaha. Besides the fact that I haven't seen that show in AGES, it was like.. so perfect :p) Anyway.. the room we were in was like.. on the first floor or something and I can't remember why the door was open but I saw my cousin Jason walk past the room (dunno what he was doing there.. I haven't seen him in years. It was good to see him, even if it was in a dream and I was making out with another chick haha). I know he spotted me because he turned back and pretended he was looking into the room opposite ours but he kept glancing back. Then after awhile he came in and just sat there and we started talking about random stuff and I could tell he was really uncomfortable because he was looking around the room, out the window, anywhere but at us. And it couldn't have helped that (I'm calling her Ashley now, although her name isn't Ashley irl and it probably wasn't in the dream either ) Ashley and I kept giggling every 5 minutes. That's all I remember.. but I laughed when I woke up (I tend to do that alot when I remember dreams, don't I? Haha). Man I wish most of my dreams could come true! .

[TheCJ]

Right.. I'm a bit behind (ruddy exams) but since I found my watch, I've been wearing it all the time (and RCing all the time) and the constant reminder of dreaming throughout the day, I think is helping my dream recall. Maybe. If that's possible. -shrug- Here we go.. this was the night before last and is quite short. ------ I was by Aunty Judy. Kevaughn and the boys like Karshif and those guys and also some of his friends from England and some of my friends from England were playing video games. I was just watching them play.. then I said I was sleepy and jumped into their TV to go to sleep (odd.. haha). That's all I remember before I woke up, I'm afraid.

[TheCJ]

Here we are.. right back on track. It's harder than I thought to keep sneaking online when my mom's home from work. Anyway.. at least I've stopped dreaming about making out with people or getting married (hahaha). I was starting to wonder what kind of a pervert my dear old mom raised :p Also I think I shall start underlining what I *think* are my dream signs (i.e. what I mentioned in a previous post.. people from Trinidad, places in Trinidad, or people from Trinidad in places in England or vice versa.) Alors.. last night's dream. --- Khadijah was here (in my house) and I was supposed to take her out somewhere. She was dressed but I was taking too long to get ready so Kevaughn took her out instead. Then I went downstairs and realised there were new baby birds. 4 of them.. 2 male, 2 female. I don't know how I could tell.. I think I remember saying something about the males being bigger. Anyway.. they weren't budgies, they were these large black birds like crows or something. One of the birds was rolling a ball of its poop across the floor (haha eww) and somehow I found that cute so I decided to name her Scarab (like the dung beetle the Egyptians used to worship) and call her mine. But my mom didn't like that name so we were in the kitchen trying to agree on a name. Somehow at this point the birds turned to puppies and mine was male rather than female, but it seemed in the dream as if they were alway puppies. My mom kept coming up with these stupid names then I thought of DotCom and refused to change it. So my puppy was named DotCom. Uncle Cecil (who was apparently sitting on the couch all this time) told me I should start training them because I already wasted 10 minutes of their life arguing on a name. I went online and started to tell Meg about Dotcom. -------------------- (possibly a second dream.. maybe a continuation of the first) -------------------- Sammy and his new gf were here and we were all in my room talking. Then they kept asking me to take pictures of them so I was taking loads of pictures and they ended up in Ketryce's room. We needed more light to see into Ketryce's room so I brought my lamp from my room and made a joke about them getting comfortable on her bed cuz I needed to make a living with these pictures haha (dang.. seems I'm a pervert even in my dreams. Ahh well.) -- There were two things I remember happening but I'm not sure where they fit in to any of the dreams. Maybe they were other dreams I had but can't remember. 1) We were in a park where there was a fair. 2) I got an email saying the Ivermectin for the birds was going to arrive TODAY. Number two is quite funny because when I woke up my brother brought a package for me and it was the ivermectin. Haha.

[TheCJ]

Completely forgot anything I may have dreamt last night Seems like my recall keeps fluctuatuin -sigh- Better luck tonight, maybe.

[TheCJ]

Aarrrrrgggghhhhhhhh I FORGOT AGAIN! I remembered the dream when I woke up, like the split second.. and as soon as I moved to write it down it all went away. I'll neverrrrrrrr get the hang of this...

[TheCJ]

I've been waay behind, but c'est la vie. I haven't been able to get online much if at all. This dream was 2 nights ago. Also, I'm not going to mention the girl's name in the second part.. just in case I'll call her X. Part 1 We were outside a door waiting for someone to open it so we could go in. I don't know who "we" was.. there was just a group of people. An old lady opened the door and I wasn't in the scene anymore.. it was more like I was watching an episode of Family Guy on TV. She let Peter, Lois, Chris and Meg and the other random people in and then closed the door really quickly when Stewie tried to walk in. And Stewie said "Well I never! Well I suppose I shall have to find another way inside" and ran around the side of the house holding his teddy bear thing (I forgot it's name. Rupert or something.) He found a window which was locked and decided he'd play dead outside it but at the same time the old lady made everyone in the room pretend to be dead and so nobody noticed him. While everyone was playing dead, the old lady sort of melted into green smoke then came back again and Stewie said something about her being a devil woman. (odd, haha) Then it stopped being an episode of family guy and I was in the room again and it was actually an ex-gay reparative therapy session. The old lady introduced us to one of the people who'd been in therapy the longest.. an extreeemely tall man who was shy and didn't say much. She told us he was only gay because he was twice the size of most women he knew. That's all I could remember of part one. Part 2 was sort of a continuation but not really... Part 2. I was finished with my first reparative therapy session and I was on a program where I couldn't leave my house except to go to extensive therapy. (The house was Uncle Gerard's house in Trinidad.. but in the dream, I lived there.) I knew I couldn't see any of my friends (especially one person..) and so I was secretly writing a message in pencil on the roof outside the house where I thought they might stand if they came to ring on the doorbell. When I was doing this I was really supposed to be on my way to therapy so I was really hurrying. Then I saw X coming on her bike and I hid in the bushes because if my mom saw me talking to her I'd be in big trouble. She rang the doorbell and asked mom for me and mom sent her away. She got on her bike and started to ride up Roget Place and my mom saw me through the window and took out one of the loovers to talk to me and ask why I wasn't in therapy. She yelled something after X about me not wanting to see her again, and as I was about to leave she asked me if I really wanted a baby like the measly little thing X brought with her. I said "She brought a BABY?!" and I started to run after her, not caring what my mom said anymore. The path was weird, instead if going up Roget Place and down the hill by aunty judy, it was up Roget Place (Trinidad), then down Beulah Hill (England), then down another road that looked exactly like Roget place again. Sort of weird, but oh well. I was running after her bike and yelling her name but she couldn't hear me until I stopped and yelled her name really loudly (haha like in Imagine You and Me) from the top of the road. She got off her bike and came back up the hill and hugged me. Then I held the baby (it felt like it was mine and hers.. which isn't really possible.. but it felt like it. Like I was a daddy somehow.. haha.). Then I decided I'd give up therapy because it wasn't worth it. And that's all I can remember (or it's where the dream ended).

[TheCJ]

This was the night before last.. My little brother, Kendall, and some other kids and I were sort of half fishes in a sort of huuge fish tank. The fish tank was actually my mom's room in Trinidad. I think my brother and the kids were playing football and one of the kids started bullying Kendall and pushed him down a huge mound of gravel (well.. the sort of stones you put at the bottom of a fish tank). I swore at the boy and then felt ashamed because I saw mummy looking at me through her bedroom door. (Outside the tank). Kendall and I went out of the tank (but we just walked through the door as if there was no glass there). Then the big mound of gravel fell over on all of the little kids still in the tank. I think Ketryce was outside and Kendall and I needed some water to drink. That's all I remember except I was making out with someone at the end (omgggg ) and there was some girl called Pretty Pretterson. Lmao.

[TheCJ]

Last night I had three dreams.. 1) I was at Aunty Judy's house and Hera came on her bike to tell me to hurry up because they were all waiting for me to go to the pool. I think going to the pool was supposed to be a weekly thing and this week everyone had to swim in something unusual. I decided I'd take Kendall with me as noone else was up by Aunty Judy to play with him. I got ready and decided I'd take this skirt with me to swim in (one of the skirts I go to church in.. but an old one I used to wear in Trinidad.) Kendall was taking forever to get ready as usual and I told Hera to ride on down and I'd be there in a sec. Kendall couldn't find his sneakers and I was getting frustrated. I found them for him but we were already 20 minutes late so we ran down the hill. He used my tall hat as his "unusual thing" to swim in. At the pool, Hera, Anoushka, Samirah, Stasia (I think), Poppy, Hannah and about 2 other people I know or used to know were there waiting. (So odd.. Anoushka and Stasia are in Trinidad, Hera and Sam are here and Poppy and Hannah are in Ilford.. the three pairs have never met each other. Lol.) Then Anoushka looked at my skirt and laughed and said "Haha, Keneisha's wearing a skirt!" and I said "Shut up.. *CJ's* wearing a skirt." (Everyone there except Stasia and Anoushka know me as CJ, not Keneisha.) Then she said something about me wearing that skirt to school once before. [B]That's all I remember of the first dream.[/B] 2) This one's short.. all I remember was that I went to visit anoushka and I said hi to her mom. Lol the house they lived in in my dream was the one Karian used to live in before she moved.. I'd only been there once. 3) There was a volcano going to erupt in Trinidad and I borrowed Hera's camera. I think I was the only one who knew it was about to erupt. I stood on a hill and took pictures of it as it was erupting and I thought I'd sell the pictures to the newspaper after everyone got over the shock of the volcano. Then I heard my mom calling me and I started hang gliding (hahahahahahahahahahahaha) toward the beach. I landed right in front of mom who was packing our suitcases and there were loads of other people on the beach. She told me to grab the one with my name on it and follow her. My kite/ hang gliding/ parachute thing kept puling me back so I strapped it to the ground or something.. don't remember. Everyone was going up the side of the volcano and I wondered why everyone was going up the erupting volcano.. but we followed. All of a sudden mom and my brothers and sister and I stopped and everyone told us to come on but we said we'd catch up. Then mom opened a trap door in the side of the mountain and we climbed in. It was a sort of hurricane refuge place mom had built for us but it was only big enough for 5 of us. I asked why we didn't save anyone else (I meant Hera lol.. we'd seen her go up ahead of us) and she said there was no room. We were in there for a couple of hours but it was hard to hold on the the trap doors because there were no handles on the inside and it wasn't like a room or a big area, just a tiny hole big enough for 5 us to squeeze into. Is till had the camera and I was going through the pictures to find the volcano ones but I could only see all these really old pictures that made me really emotional (there were pictures from almost every part of my life.. even from when I was a baby). Then Ketryce couldn't hold on to the doors anymore so I kept asking if anyone had a stapler (which they didn't) so I used a hanger to make sort of handles for the doors. Then Kevaughn said it would take about 30 days for it to be safe for us to go out again and Kendall asked if anyone had brought food. Noone had. That's allllll I remember. Back to studying!

[TheCJ]

Wooo I did it! I went lucid again! I thought I'd try MILD and WBTB if I woke up, which I did.. and i tried it.. it worked! Last night I stumbled across this lucid crossroads website (www.lucidcrossroads.co.uk) so I told myself I'd go there if I went lucid. It was so cool aahh amg. It didn't last very long, though! I woke up at about 5 am, stayed up for about 20 minutes going over in my mind what I was going to do if went lucid then I fell back to sleep. I was lucid from the start of the dream but I forgot what I wanted to do for awhile. One of the things I kept telling myself was that if I saw a door I'd instantly remember that I was dreaming and use it to get to the lucid crossroads. I was in my bedroom but the whole room looked kind of fuzzy so I instantly knew I was dreaming. I tried to push my finger through my hand and it sort of came out the other side, which was weird, so I knew I was dreaming for sure. I got sort of excited and forgot everything I was going to do. I looked at my bookshelf and saw a teacup on it and I was going to grab it then I thought I'd try moving it with my mind. My hand was already outstretched so I concentrated really hard on the cup and moved my hand upward slowly, and the cup followed. I moved it to the right and then brought my hand back a bit to bring the cup to me. Then I stopped concentrating so hard on it, but it fell to the ground and broke. I tried picking up one of the pieces just by staring at it really hard and without moving my hand but it only floated around for a little bit. I wanted to tell my brother because he doesn't believe lucid dreaming is real so I told myself he'd be in his room and I ran to his room and he was on his bed. I picked up the glass of water next to him in my hand and told him to watch, but I wanted it to look effortless. I knew I couldn't do it without concentrating, but I dropped it. He looked angry. I tried again with a peanut butter jar lid but then I thought "I cannot do this, he's just gonna get mad", and obviously that dropped to the floor too. At that point I lost lucidity for a couple of seconds and I walked to his bedroom window and started looking out idly. Something about the neighbour's door caught my attention and I couldn't stop looking at it, then I remembered again that I was dreaming and that I was supposed to go to the crossroads. I imagined that when I opened the door of his room, the crossroads would be on the other side, and when I stepped through the door, I was there. Clem and Glad were there but instead of having red hair, they had blonde hair. Otherwise they were exactly the same, except they were behind the counter and they hadn't noticed I'd got there yet. I was ecstatic! I thought "This is it! I really made it!", but I must have gotten too excited because from there it just started fading away until I woke up. The last thing I remember seeing was Clem looking up from the counter before it went black. It took a couple of seconds from the time they went out of sight to the time I woke up.