Looms in the Nighttime Fog

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Welcome to my public dream journal. I haven't written much about past dreams I've had, but I used to have excellent dream recall (I remember most of a dream that I had before I turned 1, and parts of one from when I was 3 and many others beside) so I expect to do so in the near future. Posts are welcome here! I'd like all the help I can get. Red: Dream Title Dark Green: Regular Dream Teal: Lucid Slate Gray: SP or WILD attempts Navy: Dream Notes I have a couple of tasks in mind after reading some tasks of the month... Spoiler for Tasks!!: []Being John Malkovich(Where I become somebody via tunnel, and get ejected on the NJ turnpike in about 15 minutes) []Write a song/practice playing instruments []Find my dream guide []Ask a DC what my secrets taste like []Eat the concept of music []Walk on liquid water []Be in multiple places at the same time on purpose []Follow a rabbit down its hole!!! []Fly into space []Eat a planet []Throw one star at another []Enter a black hole []Climb into a DC's body/mind My Journey Away from LD: and the Reason Why I'm Trying to Reattain it. I'm not exactly new to LD. It used to happen all the time when I was in my teens, but I had slowly lost the ability to control what happened in my dreams after I had a certain nightmare. I had become fully lucid in the dream, and I felt normal. Everything was vivid as usual, and I had only slight problems taking off for flight (I was a bit wobbly, but it happened every so often, so I didn't think anything of it). I was on my way to anywhere as I planned what I was going to do, when all of a sudden, I was in a tunnel, with no exit at the back and bars at my head. It closed in on me, so I bent the steel bars and flew out thinking, "Oh, well that was strange!". Then, It happened again...only this time, the bars weren't bendable. I employed heat-vision to melt them this time, only mildly worried. As the dream went on, I encountered more traps. Each new one was more sinister than the last. I had to dig, melt, bend, teleport, and think my way out of each of them as the tunnel eventually was consistently around me and the bars were now just appearing in front of me as soon as I got through the last one. I eventually started to panic, and I was fighting for my life (or so I thought, really I was fighting for control...and struggling). Eventually I forced a false awakening because I was too frightened and frustrated to continue, and the nightmare began again, only this time things started right as I got out of bed. I must have had 15 false awakenings like this, only to be trapped in the same dream over and over again. I eventually woke up though; just as soon as I gave up and stopped fighting. I hadn't yet heard the term lucid dream until I asked a friend why I couldn't control my dreams anymore, to which he responded, "You can't control your dreams!". He later saw the term lucid dream online and pointed me toward some resources. I only read some definitions and was shocked to learn that it doesn't happen to everybody! Recently, I was browsing the web and did a search on LD and was amazed to find a site called Lucidipedia. I had a journal on there, and suddenly the site just stopped working (maybe they didn't pay the bill? Oh well!) I stumbled upon this site 3 days ago and I am quite a bit happier with it already (I'm still going to keep a journal on my laptop jic because I can't retrieve the dreams I've posted to that site now ) Ever since the nightmare, I have had some recurring nightmares/dreams, some with continuity, some just repeats. I hope to write some in my dream journal, and I hope to eventually become fully lucid again. Boogie.

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Seinfeld isn't Funny I'm in the shower and this girl Steph is about to pick me up to go deliver this playstation 2 controller to somebody. The phone rings a bunch of times and I finally pick it up when I hear her honking the horn. I tell her to hold on so I can get dried off and dressed. I think we had sex in the car on the way there and I never got to finish. I'm walking down my old street. I am Jerry Seinfeld. I'm holding a white playstation 2 controller and I'm going to bring it to somebody. I think "This person doesn't deserve this controller" and throw it in the trash, where George is waiting for it after scheming to get it from me, Jerry. I am now George. I turn off my flashlight and bats are flying all around me and I can't get out of the garbage can, but I have the damn controller. I get out of that can and I'm me again, and I have a gun to kill the bats with, but now the bats are bad people that are out to get me. I see my friend John and he's got a pumpkin basket with candy in it...I realize I have one as well(people must have mistook my gun for part of a costume). I check my watch as a reality check(after only a week of doing them daily!! not bad!) and realize I don't wear a watch. I tell John that I'm dreaming and he says "cool". I take off flying low going to find A. I'm at a mansion now, and A is there upstairs. I see a bunch of college girls downstairs and I try to make moves on them. They resist my advances and I am frusterated because it's my dream, so I tell them they have to. One girl grudgingly starts to comply, and I get annoyed, so I go upstairs to see A. She's sad and she's back with her ex boyfriend apparently. I try to kill him and she tells me to stop. I don't stop. He's dead, and her brother comes out talking about a famous guitarist doing something similar to what I did, and then getting lynched for it. He puts on the TV and a band that makes me think "Pearl Jam" but really isn't comes on (it was in the dream, but in reality, they don't look like that and they were playing a song I had never heard before). I try to teach A how to play guitar, but the dream ends. I was only partially lucid, but reality checking did really help me to figure it out. I hope to have a less-eventful dream the next time I become lucid, so that I can really take control of it. It was still hazy, as all of my dreams are(foggy hazy, not memory hazy). I seem to have trouble maintaining control over certain elements in my dream. I even had trouble flying(I fell a couple of times trying to take off). Perhaps I was overzealous and trying to do too much, but I remember it coming very easily to me when I was younger (aging can effect to LD ). Eventually I forgot that I was dreaming. The little control I had came with side-effects. The girl I tried to get with looked scared the whole time, like she wasn't in control of her own body, and I had to stop because it didn't feel right. The flight was low and near the ground, so I was more or less snake-sliding right over the ground. Next time I will try spinning and looking in a mirror, I will avoid people I know, and I will try to make the fog go away and the dream get brighter. LD Technique: RC Effectiveness: Partial Lucidity Recurring Elements: Halloween atmosphere, Mansions as schools Date of Dream: 9/20ish/08

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Screaming Awake I'm in an animal shelter type hallway...I'm holding a strange-looking ferret that's just escaped (it has a nose like an aardvark, but the body of a ferret. My sister is there trying to get the ferret back. It slips out of my grasp and its under the doorway. I become partially lucid and will it back into my hands inside a carrier. We get into the car to transport it somewhere and my sister suggests that I let it out for some fresh air...I roll down the window the slightest crack and let it out and it proceeds to climb up to the window and lip out...we pull over and I think from there I follow it into a haunted mansion... From there, I am on the run inside the building. My mom is mad at me for some reason and I'm being chased by mobsters(?). She keeps calling them my friends and telling me that we're all going to be in trouble for what we did. I try to convince her that it wasn't me and they're after me, not my friends. I escape them and find myself in a bed trying to figure out what to do. The police are now after me at my mom's insistence and I get entangled in my sheets. They cover my mouth and I fall off the side of the bed(or was I pulled by the sheets?). I'm slowly struggling to get under the bed to a trap-door trying to shout "Help me!" because at this point, I realize that it's a nightmare. It comes out as a muffled loud-talk volume at best because of the blankets suffocating me. At this point I want to end the dream, so I start yelling loudly. I wake up, sweating, heart basically palpitating, and try to calm myself down. I obtained partial-lucidity on accident at a couple points in the dream/nightmare, but let them slip away for a couple reasons. I was too frightened or involved to maintain my control over the dream/myself and I panicked. Basically I failed due to my imagination getting the best of me. Frustrating, but not the end of the world. I have obtained full-lucidity before(I remember it quite clearly) when I was younger and I seem to have had a natural knack for it, even though a lot of those dreams ended prematurely. I will not give up so easily. Still going to try to obtain and maintain lucidity next time. I will sit alone in a spot and try out some general things like relaxing, spinning, willing some simple things to happen by speech. I want to look into a mirror, and maybe try to step into it. LD Technique: RC Effectiveness: Ineffective Recurring Elements: Halloween, Strange animals of unnatural color, Foggy/hazy view Date of Dream: 9/22/08

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WILD Cuttlefish and Red Accidental WILD attempt while relaxing...I actually got SP and got a little excited, ALMOST worked...I heard strange plunger noises and saw HI that were almost a dream. HI were cuttlefish humping on land and my body felt tingly after seeing a marlin swimming underwater...I felt vibrations too and attempted to fall thru bed...then I coughed! Went to sleep after it was apparent that WILD was a no go. I was at work. We were cleaning the store, and it seemed like everybody was moving super slowly. We all thought we were behind schedule and the boss was mad. We really weren't behind. Red from Pineapple Express was mad at me while he was fucking some really hot chick because he thought she was into me more, and somebody else told him that his VP title was the reason she went to him instead. He was placated and I watched it for a while...interesting. Scene kept moving from him getting laid to me doing something mundane. She was a HOTTIE. Woke to alarm. RC'd. I'm awake for sure. Rolled a cig. Don't remember falling asleep. I had trouble cause I had an erection that wouldn't go away. Woke up aound noon without any recall and my wood wasn't gone...WBTB failed the first time!!! ARG!! LD Technique: WILD, WBTB, RCs Effectiveness: nope. Recurring Elements: Famous People, Not being actively in the dream. Date of Dream: 9/23/08

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Raining in the House This was actually a pretty good night. I woke up feeling better/happier than I have in weeks. I felt confident throughout the dream, and throughout the day once I woke up. DC seems to have a positive effect on the logical parts of my brain and memory is up. I feel more awake during the day as well. My mom and I were buying a house. We had just bought newish cars. The house was the same as my old house, in the same neighborhood. After we bought it, I discovered that the roof was leaking, floorboards were falling in, and it just looked like it was under construction...It had started to downpour in the living room. My sister was in the house laughing about it. I told my mom about a law that allowed us to get our money back within 30 days of the purchase(canadian law?) and convinced her to do it. We went to the elementary school in town to sell the house back and get an ITEM that seemed to represent the money. Item was a big bottle of Captain's. I was faced with the challenge of sneaking it off the school grounds through a maze of kids(I couldn't let them see it), fences, guards(them either) and criminals. I had to fool the guards and criminals to get by, sneak the bottle in my shirt, and make deals with the "mobsters"(that's what I'm calling them, but they weren't exactly) to get the parcel out without getting caught. Confidence was high. I struck various deals and made it out. I drove to new house, which was better(but it was the SAME house in the same neighborhood, just in better condition). Mom's ex bf was living there too. Took my new car to Hanks. We talked about not letting my mom drive my car drunk, and I decided to saw off the key hook with the keys still on it . I drove home and went into my room. Had sex with a hot college girl on my loft-bed. Went online(into the internet) and saw some of my friends(Lindz, Chuck, Jill, Caitlin, Chrissy) in a webstore. It was Target?? We talked about our posts in a forum...and I logged off(left the store). Talked to Killoran on the interwebs while searching for porn. She appeared at my house after I deleted the porn. She talked about a bf falling to death trying to parachute to her. Mom's ex bf went upstairs after we started getting all cuddly. We went to my bedroom after talking and cuddling for a while. As soon as we got to my loft-bed, alarm woke me up ! Haven't had another lucid yet, but I've been doing reality checks when the alarm goes off or I wake up naturally. I've also been doing them at random intervals throughout the day(when I remember, or when something strange occurs/something reminds me of a dream). I haven't been drinking lately as well as I think it will interfere with the process/recall the next day. Journaling daily after I wake up. Yet again I don't remember falling asleep, but this time I had no problem remembering my dreams until I got into the shower. First ones gone! Poof! Ah well! LD Technique: RC Effectiveness: none at all! Recurring Elements: PAST People/places, Haze(still there, but it was less this time), Organized Crime(I'm putting it in because of the last few dreams), school buildings(broadening them as mansions to exclude creepiness...that's it's own from now on.), college girls(yeah I'm putting that in there ) Date of Dream: 9/24/08

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Been a couple of days since I remembered more than snippets...I've forgotten even those by the time I got to the DJ I keep at home... Oh well! I've been waking up after dreams more often lately...I should be writing things down during that time I think.

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There are 10 types of people in this world. Those that can read binary, and those that can't. I'm in a public shower somewhere that's not a school. It's co-ed, but nobody else is really there. The place is HUGE with showerheads/controls coming out of the floors, and no walls that can be seen. There are lockers interspersed between rows of showers that offer some, but not much privacy. I look at my hands while in a shower..The soap I had found on the floor made them invisible(really should have made me lucid, but whatever). I make my whole body invisible, then I put my clothes on and start playing pranks on people. There's a girl in this dream. Audrey S. She was with me the whole time(wtf, again?). The invisibility wears off so I skadattle... It's christmasish and I'm living in the barn. I'm putting up a tarp over the gaping hole in the wall to keep the heat in. My mom wants me to bake PUMPKIN bread... I'm at an AMUSEMENT PARK. Somebody falls off a rollercoaster(a friend) and he's acting like a jewish stereotype somehow as he's running from the coaster car, and falling a lot but it's actually kind of cool how he narrowly avoids getting hit a lot. I look for ketchup while sitting in a swing with 1000 foot long chains... I'm now on a field trip in a food-court. This kid(someone I got in a fight with once on the bus in middle-school) keeps stealing food from people and mall security doesn't do anything. He steals a taco from me and walks away...I lay him out with a punch and everybody starts thanking me. Mall security still does nothing. I get moony-eyed looks from my hot teacher. I'm in some tunnels flying with Hank, Michelle and Audrey S. We're inside a videogame world(starcraft enemies, we're in tram-like tanks with upgradeable weapons etc), only everything is real. I'm flying ahead and destroying all of the enemies that I can, hank and michelle are clearing another path that's on the other side of a fork, and Audrey S. disappeared. I worry, so I go back for her. She was afraid, but she didn't believe that she would be when we were teaming up. I had to help her conquer the fear by showing her how easy the game was... Alarm wakes me up, RC. My brain doesn't like me being lucid?? I RCed at least twice and gained a power from it at the game part of my dream alone, not to mention the invisibility, but not lucidity. I was really REALLY close. Also, I remembered a shitload of dreams! Thanks bananas! LD Technique: RC Effectiveness: epic FAIL! Recurring Elements: pumpkin(halloween)bread, School stuff, WIDE OPEN PUBLIC SHOWERS!!!(I'd forgotten how many of these are in my dreams! They're almost always co-ed), Blizzard games, amusement parks. Date of Dream: 9/27

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I'm dreaming that I'm sleeping Gawd! Last night's dreams were...amazingly vivid. I was lucid without any control for a good deal of time...then I spazzed into an impromptu WILD attempt. Two dreams that I have forgotten by now...Woke up before my alarm went off. I RC'd by looking at the dig clock on my way to the bathroom and looking again. I looked in the mirror in the bathroom, then went. Back to bed I traveled afterward! I was with A, and we were looking at Marissa's website(she doesn't actually have one as far as I know). I kept trying to type a message to her, and A didn't want me to say what she knew I was going to say. Even when I was trying to put it into a STEGO code, she knew what I was doing and stopped me. Nothing weird about the text, and the screen was mostly normal. The only thing odd about it was that we were in a field on an iphone or something. I was at work, slacking off. I could hear a radio in the background and the realism was incredible. I was walking outside with Chuck, and something triggered an alert in my head...can't remember what. I didn't RC because I felt myself waking. Somehow, I stopped it after the dream faded. Now, I was lying on the couch, and I KNEW it was a dream, but I could feel my waking body as well...I attempted to get up, and my real body started to move as well...It felt like I hit a forcefield(SP) and everything went black...I could feel the vibrations in my entire body, and it would have taken a great deal of effort to move anything. I was conscious of my bodies descent into REM. I could hear all sorts of sounds playing out around me, but they were distorted. Some were voices, but the loudest was a distorted version of my window fan. I felt like I wasn't getting enough air...I didn't want to, because I was only seconds away from a WILD, but I opened my eyes and stopped it...My goddamn blanket was over my face to keep the light out! That's it, I'm getting a sleep mask! LD Technique: RCs, WILD Effectiveness: LUCID with no control. Recurring Elements: Work Date of Dream: 9/28/08

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Hey, Lucid nightmares are pretty much fucked. I had one only once, I was thinking "What would be severely fucked to happen to me in a dream?" and what ensued was strange. All of a sudden I was trapped inside a coffin. Buried alive. The pillow in the coffin was crap. Now imagine that shit. Severely fucked indeed. But then I teleported myself to some place else, some place that could only be described as a vegas hotel in the 70s. From your sig, i think you know what I mean

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Yeah, I know what you mean...I've had some whoppers there (I have been to hell and back!). I'll have to write that series of dreams down in here at some point! Thanks for posting!

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Falling Sideways into a Clear World I slept for about 4.5-5 hours. My alarm went off at 6:10am. Then I went to the bathroom, etc and stayed up for a maximum of 10 minutes. I had JUST awoken from a dream where I... Was working at a register. Someone grabbed cracked eggs in their dozen, and somebody else pointed it out, so I went to the dairy section and replaced them all. I was working reg#1 so I was really the only person there for like 20 minutes(no help). I got back with her eggs and I had a big line. I started scanning stuff, and Katie finally arrived. I left after line was gone. Was at a baseball game. I was cheering on a non-redsox team, but they weren't playing. The guy next to me had been talking in a monotone voice about baseball(which is how I feel, it's boring as shit, unless I'm there)... Before I went back to sleep, I repeated "I will lucid dream immediately" for about 5 minutes. I fell through my bed, and the ground was at my feet already. Dream formed around me with vivid bright colors. I was outside at my house. NO HAZE!!! I tried to do something out of the ordinary and I remember I FA'd, so I pretended I wasn't dreaming for a while...I walked to the central office to get a DSL hookup for my house. I kept thinking I need highspeed internet. Everything was crystal clear...The sky was vividly blue, and sometimes orange. I could see all of the store-fronts in town with clarity...I think I looked in a window for too long and I was then in a neighboring town, at night, during winter. I was going to apply for a full-time job(especially since I could now teleport!!) and somebody I used to be friends with was working across the street in a tilted diner. I talked with him for a while, then left to talk to this woman I kept seeing in a van. I woke up before I can get anything out of her. LD Technique: MILD/WBTB Effectiveness: Success Recurring Elements: Work, Old friends Date of Dream: 10/1

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Blitzball I was playing blitzball underwater...I kept breathing, and wondering why I could(D'oh!). Foggy...Hazy...Some girls voice kept speaking to me throughout. Don't remember any more... LD Technique: Fail Effectiveness: WBTB Recurring Elements:Foggy...Hazy Date of Dream: 10/2

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10/4 :insomnia::insomnia::insomnia::insomnia::insomnia: :insomnia::insomnia::insomnia: Didn't sleep at all...F@CK!!!

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Will format later.. Took 50mg diphenhydramine, and still didn't fall asleep for four hours!! When I finally fell asleep... I was at a lake. There were hermit crabs everywhere! I was with some of my female friends and they kept saying the crabs were cute, but they kept sticking to me like leaches..and it was awful. I was riding in a boat later on, and we hit a jump with it! Something bad happened and we were at the health clinic...A was upset about something when she came out, and L was looking at me like it was my fault. I kept asking what was wrong and they ignored me and were talking about IT cryptically.