Lucid Dream Journal

[Lunar Spirit]

All my Lucid Dreams in my life we uncontrolled and Nightmares. But this after noon is the beginning of a new existence in dreaming for me. So I decided that called for the beginning of a dream journal... Which is this. I will only be posting Lucid Dreams in this journal, unless there is something important that I have to say otherwise. Feel free to comment all you want, commenting is swell and I like to get feed back adn links to your own lucid experiences.

[Lunar Spirit]

I had my first non-nightmare lucid experience this afternoon. I usually fall asleep after school from the over whelming sense of fatigue that comes from working the brain in general, so I fall asleep after coming home. Today was no different... I have been attempting to Lucid dream for a couple of weeks now but haven't really thought about it much the past eight days or so. SO having one today, not having thought about it at all, was quite a surprise top me. It started off like a normal dream that I would have in that I had no comprehension of existing in a dream world. In the dream I was on a patio of some sort... Almost like an extension of my own house. It was high above a vast field of rocks and fences and it was sunset. Everything was bathed in this half light that I can't really explain and I was watching it all from a recliner - on this strange patio thing that I just mentioned. All of a sudden my mum showed up and got mad at me because the sky was blue. I looked up, confused... Low and behold it was. (This is rare, I almost never dream that it is day time. It's usually night, raining, sunset/sunrise, or I am indoors.) Anyway, my mum continued to scream at me that there was a blue sky so when she left I was upset that she would verbally attack me as such. I looked across the patio thing and saw a bill-board that was placed to the side. I spontaneously found a can of blue spray paint and covered the surface in a thick coating. (It doesn't make sense now, but I was trying to convey to my mum that I could make the sky blue in this manner - that I didn't run the night and day sequences, but I could destroy a strange piece of our property in rebellion of her anger.) This was seemingly a very bad thing to do. I became upset with myself and tried to think of something I could do to fix the problem. But there was nothing, I was stuck in my own actions. Upset, I climbed down from the patio and walked out into the field. It was sunset again, but I barely noticed, and barely remember it. My mum randomly showed up again next to me,and she was saying something - but I don't remember what. I was scared she might look up and see how I had defaced the bill board so I turned around and climbed up onto this bent flagpole. It was already turned down into this curved lower case 'n' shape, but my weight pulled it further. When the metal had taken all it could it snapped back up - launching me about eighty feet into the air. It was at this moment, floating through the sky, that I realized it was dreaming. There was no hint. I never stopped to consider that I might be dreaming or that what was happening was completely impossible and improbable... There was just this thought that burst into my mind... "I am dreaming." At that very moment everything became so real to me. I was staring up at the sky and I stopped, stopped flying or falling through the air and merely hung, suspended in this strange yet beautiful world. The sky was like an air brush painting; this expanse of pink and deep purple, beige gold tones, yellow, light blue, navy blue and black... All fixed together in the spattered clouds and sunset scenery. My eyes came to stop on the moon, huge and beautiful, it was a crescent moon. I thought about how breath taking it was and then the moon began to spin in place. (Which seems sort of strange now, but it was beautiful none the less.) There were stars spattering the sky and the rocks below me were bathed in the different colors reflected form the sky. "This is in my head...!?" I thought. It was so real. I mean, I heard that lucid dreaming could be amazingly real, but I never could comprehend how real. It was strange too, it mean, I was relaxed. So it was like a better version of reality. Then I became concerned with the fact that I was in my head. "What if I get stuck in here!" "What if I never leave, or can't?" "What if I never woke up...?" I became aware of the fact that I could hear the T.V. in the living room. (in the real living room, the one my real mum was watching while I was asleep)... It was just as vivid as the dream, neither one overpowering each other. I was asleep and aware of what was going on outside of me. I placed the words i head to some commercial that was on often. The fear seemed even more prevalent. I tried to wake myself up from the inside like I had done in some of my nightmares. My mind was beginning to wonder and strange images were popping up on the inside of my skull... twisted things like the face of a vampire bat and haunting silhouettes. My physical body felt heavy. I couldn't see my beautiful dream world any more but I knew I was asleep and I could still hear the T.V on. (At this point I became aware of the fact that 'According to Jim' was on. ;D ) Then I was awake. I didn't open my eyes, I just lay there, and knew I was awake. I became angry with myself, knowing that I might not have another opportunity like this one for a while. I should have tried to keep my lucidity, should have tried to take myself other places or talk to someone or even, at the very least, explore the new world I had created. But now, that I look at it, I'd accomplished something I didn't know I could and didn't think would for a long time. I experienced real lucidity, and when I obtained it it wasn't like I got excited right away and lost it... I was really deeply in it. I had to yank myself out of my dream. It was amazing. I hope to have another lucid dream soon, of which I post right away. Hugs and Kisses friend!