Simon's Lucid Ramblings

[simon1717]

I've had many lucid dreams since I was a kid (most of them while I was a kid) but have never really pursued them. Earlier in 2009 I decided to do a little more research and attempt to have more regular LDs. I hope to add many entries to this journal. Enjoy. Things I have learned so far. Supplements I don't always have LDs when I take supplements and I don't always take supplements when I have an LD. With that said, the most successful combination for me is: Before Bed: 300 mg L-Theanine 5 mg Melatonin or 100 mg 5-HTP WBTB: 300 mg L-Theanine 4 mg Galantamine 200 mg Choline I take this no more than once every 3 days. - I have tried the Amino Acid Blend several times but it hasn't helped at all. - B6 helps with vividness but anything over 50mg keeps me up. - Valerian Root has been a great sleep aid and I've had some rather vivid dreams and LDs under it's influence but I'm still not sure it was the cause.

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25.06.2009 On the bike (DILD) NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID I was on the bike sitting in traffic. It was raining. I was with someone that was following me in a car but I don't know who it was. I noticed someone too the right of me get out of her car. It was a teenager that seemed to be mad at her parents. She came over and jumped on the back of the bike. I laughed and said she could ride for a while but would have to get off at the next gas station. When the light turned green I hit the gas and felt a huge wave of fear go through me like I was loosing my balance. That's when I realized I was dreaming. I started to loose the dream so I immediatly tried to spin. Since I was on the bike I floated up off the seat so I could spin without upsetting anything. It didn't work and I started to wake up anyway. This was my first LD after starting the pursuit and hopefully I will have longer ones in the future.

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26.06.2009 On the Mountain (DILD) NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID This was a quick dream because I dosed of on the couch not long after I got up in the morning. I was up on rainier again but at a different camp. I was climbing up through some very deep powder and I could feel everything. This was very vivid. I think I was attached to someone but I couldn't see anything but the rope. I didn't really care either. The area was completely covered in snow. I suddenly realized that I was dreaming. I remember thinking wow I can feel the snow, the cold, the wind. I could smell it too. I was all so realistic I couldn't beleive it was a dream. Although I knew I was dreaming, I didn't try to control it. I just let things go and enjoyed the scenary. Then I woke up. I think this was a product of not having a list of goals to do once I attain an LD. I'll have to try to do something next time.

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06.07.2009 Scifi Tunnel (DILD) NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID I was in a tunnel with lots of metal piping and doors. Kind of a dark slimy green color. I was traveling fast through the tunnel trying to get to a specific door. I had been to this door before but this time the route had changed. It seemed like there was some extra piping in the way. It was a yellowish color. I got the door and there were four buttons that looked like foot pedals. This was different too. I hit the first lever and an alarm sounded. The door was beginnig to open. First the bottom portion moved away then it began to twist open like on a spaceship. Then I became lucid. Almost imediatly everything started to fade. I tried staying very still and going back to the dream but nothing worked.Ahhhhhh!

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09.07.2009 First WILD (with SP) (WILD) NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID This is my first successful WILD but it took almost 2 hours of sitting still for it to happen. (I don't fall asleep to quickly.) First thing was the SP. I felt it come on like a freight train. I started feeling this weird moving sensation then all of a sudden I felt like I was flying down a very twisty waterslide in the dark. This only lasted for a few seconds and when it was over I opened my eyes to find myself inside of a large underground tunnel. Everything was so vivid. I knew instantly that I was dreaming and I started getting excited. Then it started to fade. I tried looking at my hands but they were all messed up like they were melting. I had no fingers on one hand and 2 nubs on the other. That freaked me out a little so I tried spinning. This was the key. I could really feel the effect and when I opened my eyes everything was better. The first thing I did was fly. I didn't have as much control as I thought but I also didn't bump into things. Just passed right through them. I decided to fly up into the sky which took me out of the tunnnel I was in. It was night and I think I was over some water. I remember trying to go to this giant house on a hill. It looked like something out of an old horror movie. I don't think I made it to the house because the next thing I remember is being in the tunnels again. I remember going up and looking at one of the rocks real close and touching it. I could see every detail but I couldn't touch it. I was having trouble running. I had dream legs. It was very fustrating. Instead I tried teleporting. That didn't work either. My vision started to fade so spun again. That worked but only momentarily. Then I wiped my eyes and everything cleared up. Focusing on things seemed to work too. Suddenly the area I was in was full of people. I was in some sort of factory. I thought cool. I'll try to talk to someone. I went up to a girl that was near me. I said "hey I want to talk to you". She said "really is that so?" I could see every detail in her face. Then I just wanted to see if she were real. I reached out to touch her jacket and I could feel it. I pulled her close and her face changed. Then I woke up. One thing I noticed is that every once in a while my dream eyes would feel heavy and when I tried harder to opened them I would see light from my bedroom.

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10.07.2009 Bicycle on I40 (DILD) NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID I was riding my bicycle down interstate 40 on my way to a birthday party. I was about to take highway 52 when realized how insanely dangerous this was. I was angry at getting myself into that situation. The highway was different too. There was a tall wall on the right of the exit and almost no shoulder. At any time a car could come hit me. I needed to get out of there and couldn't figure out how. I decided to see if I could fly so I thought real hard and started floating up in the air. Bingo. Lucid. Just to make sure I looked at my hands. Yep. All screwed up. Everything got very clear and I started flying up a little higher. While I was flying I noticed it was hard to breath but it didn't bother me much, just an observance. When my sight started to fade a little I focused in on part of the highway and it cleared up again. Then I saw a park over to my left. I was still about 200' up but I could see a person with long green hair. I flew down to the park and landed just under the platform that the person was walking. I looked up and the person looked like some strange humanoid figure with an extra large nose and small eyes. They were wearing a dark green robe and had long green hair. I started to fly up to the person and poof I was out of the dream.

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Two in one night (DILD) Tuesday, January 26, 2010 NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID This is the first time I've had two LDs in one night that were not tied to each other. 1. I'm in a small prop plane as a passenger. We are on the ground taxiing between terminals. As we move I notice that we keep getting closer and closer to the buildings. Then it looks like we're in a warehouse of some sort. This seems pretty strange. I think I'm dreaming. I lift out of the my seat and up over the plane. I start moving down one of the isles over a bunch of boxes. I make a few turns and end up in some kind of office building. For some reason one of my cats is there and I decide that he needs to go home. I pick him up and start spinning when I stop everything is pretty blurry but I can make out the front porch of my house. Good enough. I drop him on the porch and start spinning again. When I stop I'm back in the office again. I notice that I have a bluetooth earpiece in so I take it out and throw it across the room. It turns into a bird and flies off. I remember that I want to do the first task of the year. I feel that I should be able to use a map to teleport to the Yucatan Peninsula. I look up at the wall and there is a large US map but nothing with Mexico on it. There is a desk near by maybe it has a glob in it. I look but nothing is there. I try a summons trick by reaching under the desk without looking and trying to feel the globe. It works and I pull a small globe out from underneath and set it on the desk. Suddenly another bluetooth earpiece goes off in my ear. I push the button to answer it and the dream ends very abruptly. 2. It's early morning and I'm helping to get my kids ready for school. There are a bunch of other people in my house. Also, this doesn't seem to be my house. I look down at my hands. Seven fingers on my left. Yep dreaming. I'm over this scene so I float up through the ceiling through the second floor and see a hidden bedroom in the attic. I keep ascending until I'm up on the roof. It's very bright outside...very, very bright. I'm going to fly out of the neighborhood just to explore. As I lift off everything gets even brighter until I can't see anything. Then I wake up. My wife had turned on the light. It really is time to get up.

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The Vase (DILD) Saturday, January 30, 2010 NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID I'm in a small room. There is only a small table with a large vase on it in front of me. The vase is white with a blue floral pattern. I already know I'm dreaming. I walk over and touch the vase. The vase falls and shatters. I wave my hand and the vase comes back together on the table. I flick my hand at it and it goes smashing into the wall. Once more I wave my hand and it comes back together. There is more to this dream but I don't recall because I waited to long to write it down.

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Library (DILD) Friday, February 5, 2010 NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID I am sitting in a very large library. I don't remember how I got here but it seems strange. I look at my hands. I have 8 fingers on each hand. I float up so I can see over the book cases. I can't see any walls. The room seems to go on forever. To my right I see a woman sitting on top of a book case. She has blond hair and wearing a white colored outfit. She is very bright as if light is emanating from her. She is not very far so I float over. She smiles at me and motions for me to come closer. To keep from fading I look at my hands again. For some reason I decide to show her my hands too. As soon as they're up in front of me the dream disappears and I am awake.

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Double LD (DILD) Saturday, February 27, 2010 NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID First Dream: I am having some kind of dream about sorcery but I can't remember the details. As I study a strange rock on the ground I realize that I am dreaming. Everything goes black. Quickly I start spinning. I spin and spin until I see the colors change around me. I stop. I am now standing in the center of a large field surrounded by green rolling hills. Everything is blurry. As I gaze out towards the mountains my vision clears. I can see the leaves on the trees. The cloudless sky is a bright blue and the field is covered in knee tall grass with small yellow flowers. Ahead of me I can see a small creek. I begin walking to the creek when I see a town way up ahead on the left. It is very small and looks like something out of an old western. I rise off the ground and begin to fly there. As an experiment I start rubbing my thumbs and index fingers together. This has an amazing effect on clarity and doesn't detract from progress like spinning and looking at my hands. When I get to the town I notice a small diner. I go in and sit down at a table. Then inside looks like one of those 50s retro places. Somehow I order a burger, fries, and Sprite although I don't remember seeing a waitress. I bite into the burger and it tastes great. The fries are those large wedge type ones with spicy seasoning on them. I eat a couple of those and a waitress comes over and hands me a bill. This is a dream so I'm going to leave a giant tip. I reach into my jacket (I realize now that I'm wearing my black leather one) and pull out money clip full of bills. I start to thumb through them and the first few are only ones but I come to a 15000 bill. A bit over the top but hey, this is a dream. I hand it to the waitress and say keep the tip. She says 'Oh my' and runs off. Now I realize that I have not had any of my drink. The last time I drank something in a dream it was incredible. I pick the glass up and just as I put it to my lips I wake up. Dream two: I am riding my motorcycle through some twisty back country roads. Suddenly I come up on a gravel drive and I decide to take it. My bike turns into a regular bicycle. The drive narrow and now I'm riding near a body of water with a large pier up ahead. This is weird. I look at my hands. Six fingers on my right hand. Yep I'm dreaming. I float off the bike and land over on the pier. The lake is very large but very still. The pier is large with brick columns coming up every 50 feet or so. I want a change of scenery so I walk over to one of the brick columns to draw a door like I did in a previous dream. Before I get there everything fades. I start to spinning but it's too late. I'm awake.

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Dragon (DILD) Monday, March 15, 2010 NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID I do not recall the previous part of the dream but I was falling through the air when it dawned on me that I was dreaming. I am falling through the air above some clouds. Not fast, but falling none the less. I do not feel the air rushing by or the cold air this altitude would contain. I also do not see the ground. Only lots of clouds. I look out and see the blue sky above the clouds I'm falling towards. As I reach the clouds and start passing through I get my first glimpse of the ground. There is the snow covered peak of a very tall mountain to my left and right. There is a green area much farther down just ahead of me. Rather than continuing the free fall I decide to start flying toward the green area. As I get closer I notice that it is a small town. There are no paved roads and the houses are all of very simple construction. Seems very medieval. I plot my course for a small farm just on the outskirts of the town. I land just at the entrance to the farm and look around. There are no people. I did not see any from the air either. This medieval look gives me an idea. I've always wanted to try summonsing a dragon. I look down the road away from the farm and try imagining a dragon but nothing happens. I turn around and imagine it coming down the same road. I turn back around and sure enough there is a dragon coming down the road towards me. It is a dark green color and about the size of a rhino. It's on the ground with it's wings swept back. Now I notice that it is not simply walking towards me but running full out. I should feel panicked but I don't. I watch as it gets nearer and then just before it reaches me everything slows down. I jump to the left and grab its neck swinging up onto its back. Now I'm excited. I yell out "let's fly!". Everything goes dark. Damn it!

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Lamborghini (DILD) Sunday, March 28, 2010 NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID I am with a large group of people preparing for some kind of underwater dive. I am using homemade equipment and the others are asking questions about it. I not sure it will work but when I go in with the others I can breath fine. I can also hear everyone talking just fine. We all get into an underwater elevator to go to the dive site. I ask the others if my suit can go that deep and they say yes. Once we get there I go off to explore. I find a cave entrance. It seems familiar. I turn to ask one of the others about this place and standing behind me is a woman. I think she is one of the guides in my group. I know who this woman is yet I can't remember why. I cannot remember any features except her blond hair. I ask her about this place and she says it is not always underwater. During low tide it is perfectly dry. This makes no sense because I am several hundred feet underwater. I accept it as truth anyway. She smiles at me and a powerful recognition washes over me. I still don't know 'who' this is but I've seen that smile a thousand times before. Then she is gone. As if nothing happened I turn and go into the cave. At the end there is a crystal about the size of my hand on a rock shelf as if it were on display. I won't to take the crystal but it feels wrong. I leave it there and return to the group. When I get there the group leader says that I haven't payed yet. I say ok and reach for my wallet. He says it will be sixty two dollars even though I know it was only ten. I feel the anger boil up and I start yelling. The urge to rip him into small pieces is almost overwhelming but I manage to turn and leave. I go up and up until I come out in a pool on one side of the school. This is not where my car is so I dive down and over to the other side. When I come up I can see my car through the glass windows on the left. There are no doors that I can see. I think 'That's strange'. I must be dreaming. Everything becomes clearer. My site is crisp and I can almost smell the water in the room. Without hesitation I simply walk through the glass window towards my car. That's when I see a man standing a little to my right about thirty feet away. He is here to stop me. Rather than attack him outright I decide to jump over him. I take off running and then jump. Instead of landing though I float way up over his head and hover there. Well this is better than driving anyway. For some reason I need to make the others think that I left. I look over at my car and mentally change it to a silver color. (it was red) I rub my fingers together to stabilize some and start flying over the city. It is a clear sunny day. The area I'm flying over is an industrial area. I can see large buildings and lots full of trailers and pallets. I decide that I want to drive a Lamborghini. I see an empty parking to my right so I look away, picture a red Murcielago and look back. Sure enough it's there. I float over to it and the door opens for me. I step into the front seat. Then I wake up. I forgot to make sure I was keeping an eye on everything else before I concentrated on the car.

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Multiple DEILD (DEILD) Sunday, April 11, 2010 NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID I was able to chain 6 different LDs in a row. None of them were very long but they were very vivid. The first one was a regular DILD. The remaining were DEILDs. 1) I am in a nice restaurant. It is very open with a few shoulder height dividers. I am standing at the bar area. One of the people I'm with has lost their child. I am supposed to be looking for her. I look around the room but something feels strange. I think I'm dreaming. Everything clears. I hear the clinking of glass and the mumbled roar of customers. I'm not worried now about the child. I just want to keep the dream going. I reach over and touch the bar. The would is highly polished, smooth, and cool to the touch. I look forward to the door and windows. I there is bright white light coming through but it is not blinding. I walk forward and exit the door. I awake. Everything is dark. I sit very still and try not to move. I let my mind wander and suddenly feel as if I'm floating. 2) I risk waking up and kick out pushing myself back. I can feel myself flipping backwards. I close my eyes and when I open them I see I'm in a cube shaped room comprised of white cinder blocks. The mortar is a dark grey. There is nothing else in the room. I walk up to the blocks touch them. They are smooth but I can feel the edges where the mortar is. I palm one of the blocks and pull out. The block moves out. I pull farther and the block falls out. I wake instantly. No fade. No familiar sensation that the dream is trying to end. Just lights out. I don't move. I can hear my self breath. I try not to move my eyes but that's very difficult. I clear my mind and pictures start to form. Slow at first then more rapidly. It's as if I'm watching an old fashion cartoon. It starts to look like the outside of a building. It is on my left and parked cars are on my right. There is a grass area in front of the building before the steps. 3) Everything clears up and I am walking across the parking lot towards the building. There is a group of men just to my left that get my attention. They say they want to fight. I feel no fear even though there are 7 or 8 of them. I start to run forward and everything slows down. I feel as if I'm running on the moon. Not that dreamy feeling where you can't move as fast as you want, the complete opposite. I seem to be functioning normal but everything else has slowed down. The first guy comes at me trying to punch. I simply step to the side, grab his arm and sling him away. I watch him fly off into the parking lot. I look back to find another trying to kick at me. I grab his leg and send him flying upward. I wonder what I look like to everyone else. After the second guy goes flying I move to the right real fast and the others don't follow. I don't think the saw where I went. I feel myself smile. I run forward to attack. Everything goes black. Awake again. I keep real still and try to clear my mind again. 4) A scene forms and clears. I am back at the restaurant again. This time someone is standing there talking to me. We seem to be in some kind of conversation about a minivan. I ignore him and walk back towards the doors. No sooner than I walk through them I am back in the dark. I sit still. I wonder if I can get back again. 5) I picture the inside of the bar and imagine touching it as before. I can feel it. I feel as if I'm standing. Just like that I'm in the bar again. This time there is no one here. I see glasses of beer sitting on the counter. I've drank in dreams before. I want to try again. I pick up a glass and drink. It does not taste like beer. I cannot describe the taste but it is the best thing I've ever had. There are some peanuts in a bowl near the beer. I throw a handful in my mouth. The consistency is just like I expected but the taste is so much more. Just like the beer it is the best thing I've ever tasted. Hard to explain. Unfortunately I decide once again that I'm going to go through the doors and once again everything goes dark. I sit still although I'm pretty excited now that I've been able to jump back in so many times. I concentrate on my breathing and try to relax. I can feel myself drifting off. I try a WILD technique to keep aware. I count my breaths backwards from 99, restarting when I can't remember what number I'm at. 6) I don't remember what number I am at but I suddenly realize that I'm standing in my front yard. An ice cream truck is coming down the street. It turns around in the cul-de-sac and stops in front of me. The driver is wearing a white button down shirt and khaki pants. His hair is real curly and sticking out everywhere. I decide that hijacking the truck would be fun so I jumped in the cab and kicked the driver out. I pushed on the gas and took off. I did not stop at stop signs I just drove right through them. I drove out of my neighborhood towards the highway. Everything was as it was in RL the road was the same. The buildings and houses were where they should be. As I approached the last light before getting on the highway I decided I would not stop for that either. I gunned the gas and just as I was about to pass through. Poof, the dream was over. I made the mistake of opening my eyes. I looked at my hands to be sure but they were normal. i looked at my clock. 6:00 AM. I still had a little time to sleep. Maybe I could get back into another LD. No luck, I simply fell asleep. I don't even remember if I dreamed. Notes: I realize now that at no time did I do any kind of stabilization technique. That may have helped lengthen the individual dreams. These are the supplements I took. Before Bed: 933mg Valerian Root 150mg Theanine 50mg B6 1mg B12 WBTB: 300mg Theanine 4mg Galantamine 200mg Choline

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Vampire Snack (DILD) Thursday, April 29, 2010 NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID This dream happened within the first 30 minutes of falling asleep for the night. That most likely accounts for the lack of control and dullness of my surroundings. This is the first DILD I've had this early. All others happen after the first few hours of sleep. I took no supplements at all this night. I have almost no recall of the previous events before becoming lucid. I am in a multi story beach house. I am coming down the stairs to the yard that leads to the beach. It is dark. I cannot see past the yard. There is an outdoor light shinning down from the upper deck. I'm not sure where I'm going. This seems strange. I look down at my hands and they're semi transparent. I'm dreaming. Things become a little clearer but not much. I look around, keeping my hands out in front of me. I see the house and the stairs leading up to the first floor. The house is on stilts so the first floor is about 10 feet off the ground. Things are fading so I stare at my hands. My hands solidify and the feeling of loosing the dream softens. I start up the stairs to go into the house. A large woman is standing at the door as if she is guarding it. She is wearing a solid grey jump suit of some sort. She is very large, 500 lbs large. I cannot see her head. I think it is there but i cannot look at it. She seems hostile for some reason. I decide to attack. First I make a motion with my hand as if I were going to flick her away. Nothing happens. I then try to visualize her catching fire and nothing happens. I run up the stairs grab her and lift into the air. This works. Unfortunately I get company as soon as I leave the ground. Three others in gray suits latch on to me as I lift up. They are normal size but I cannot see their faces. They all have black hair but either I can't focus on their face or I can't remember it. I look up to see where I'm going and see only darkness. Then they strike. Two latch on to my arms, one bites into my shoulder, and one sinks their fangs into my neck. There is a moment of panic but only a short moment. Behind a slight pain there is pleasure. Not sexual though. More like a drug high. Just a wonderful feeling of warmth, relief, joy. I close my eyes to relish the experience. As soon as my eyelids shut I am quite literally pulled from the dream. It is the same feeling as going into SP but instead of opening my eyes to a LD I awaken. I look at my hands but they are normal. I look over at my clock and it is only 11:30. I've only been asleep for 30 minutes.

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Darkness x2 (DILD) Monday, May 17, 2010 NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID Supplements Taken: Before Bed: 300mg L-Theanine 400mg Valerian Root Extract WBTB: 4mg Galantamine 200mg Choline 600mg Theanine Both of these dreams were fairly long but I unfortunately waited until later this morning to record them and have forgotten most of the details. 1. I do not recall the dream details prior to becoming lucid or why I realized I was lucid. I am in a small bedroom. It is dark as if lit by a candle. I do not see the candle. I look at my hands. They are out of focus but clear as I study them. There is a young woman sitting on the bed facing me. She has dark curly hair that falls below her shoulders. I mean to ask her if she is my guide but instead I simply ask "Are you HER". She makes a sound but I do not understand her. I lean closer and ask again. From this point on I do not remember the details of the conversation but feel that it was a lengthy one. This is the most interaction I've had from a DC without knocking me out of the dream. At the end I remember the room going black and I tried to look at my hands but it was already over. 2. I am in a room full of people. I think I know them but I don't remember who they are. Some says something familiar and I realize I've done all this before. I look at my hands to find both with six fingers. As with many other dreams the room I am in contains no door. I walk over to a wall to draw a door. The texture of the wall is strange. It feels like it is made of aluminum. I trace a large door and kick it. Instead of it opening up it simply breaks through. I climb through the hole into an adjacent hallway. It is dark like the previous LD and I cannot seem to brighten it up. I keep my hands out in front of me to keep stable. I believe I walk through many more rooms in an effort to get out before I come to a final room with a large window. I walk straight through the window and it shatters but does no other harm. I'm now outside but it is still dark. I look around but there is nothing to see. Everything dims more and I wake up.