I've been dedicated to my DJ for about three weeks now, writing and drawing everything that comes to me in the morning, never stressing to remember, but keeping my mind on the goal. I was amazed at what I could remember in the beginning, about four or five dreams a night, but I seem to have made little progress in these weeks, if not reversed my progress. At first if I had a foggy night's dreams I would blame work and learn how to relax between coming home and going to bed. But the more that I have nights of no recall I can't pinpoint why. The other day I had the entire day off. I went to the art and history museum, caught a movie, got some dinner at this great little ethnic market. Overall a pretty stimulating day. I remembered less that night than I otherwise would. In other words, nothing. The dreams I do remember are still pretty distant and foggy. The first few nights of using self suggestion to wake up after dreams worked well enough, but won't work anymore. My only guess is that I'm more tired than I think after work (I work the dinner shift in a restaurant) and trying to go to sleep within three hours of that is hurting my recall and preventing me waking after REM periods. But even then, some nights after work I recall four hazy dreams, and others I recall nothing. Alarm clocks will kill any recall I may otherwise have, by the way.
Let me say this as well. I never expected to have even low level LD in a month. I'm willing to give it time, but I just can't find any progress that I can document. Recall is touch and go. Vividness is hazy.
I don't mean to sound like I'm bitching. I'm just trying to give enough of information. So is there any suggestions on a next step that I could take with recall. I'm considering B6, but eh, I'd rather it be me in the end. Audio aids... maybe. Same thing as the B6, I don't want a crutch. Also adoption... It's a fantastic idea, but I feel that I know the theory behind eveything well enough, it's just a matter applying it. Any success stories from adoption by people who were in my shoes?
Kindly,
thanks.
- -Barrett
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