So two nights ago, I had a dream where I met an online friend for the first time. Everything was going well until she said something that really pissed me off. (I don't remember what she said though). And then I just went crazy, I pushed her on the ground and I kept hitting her in the face. I just kept on going and there was blood everywhere. I remember thinking "why does it take so long for her to go unconscious?" And eventually she passed out and that's when I woke up. I felt so sick to my stomache and disgusted with myself. It's not normal to dream about things like this right?

I dreamt about the same person again last night, but this time it was such a lovely dream. Where I showed her around, went for a walk while holding hands and then we cuddled on the couch whilst watching tv shows. To me, it felt like these two dreams were related. But I'm so confused as to why I would dream about something so sickening.

The thing is, we're gonna meet each other during the summer holidays when I go to Sydney (so obviously not at my place) and now I'm actually scared. What if I do end up hurting her in some way?