Today I had a dream. I have my suspicions that it may not have actually been a lucid dream.
I'll explain why I have my doubts about it at the end of my dream log:

[dream]
I was in my house.
I realized that I was lucid dreaming.
Immediately upon noticing I was in a dream state, I tried to jump around.
Jumping around was easy and I fell through the air slowly.
However, I wanted to float in the air -- not fall through it.
Floating in the air proved to be harder than slowly falling through it.

I was starting to float around better.
I was getting more "hang-time".
Everything seemed to be moving very slowly so I had a decent amount of time to react to everything.
I had a lot of time to think when I was in the air.

After a few floaty leaps, I tried to push off my table (with my feet) backwards.
My back arched through the air as I rotated backwards.
At that moment, while slowly twisting backward, I thought, "I want to land face first in a pool of shimmering blue water."

At that moment, things went black.
I may have shut my eyes in order to block out the current visual I had of my house.
I think I was hoping that when I opened my eyes my head would be plunging into the pool.
But my head did not plunge into any liquid.
I just saw was blackness.
And that was the last thing I remembered.
[/dream]

So that was my dream.
It was very interesting and I definitely want to do more lucid dreaming.

However, I have a question about it:

Was I actually lucid dreaming?
I mean, I remember feeling that I was in a dream.
And I remember trying to do things that I thought should be possible in a dream.
But was I actually aware that I was in a dream?

What I'm saying is, what if my dream was actually just myself simply imagining that I became aware I was in a lucid dream.
Was I dreaming normally about being lucid?

Another important question would be this: Is there even a difference between actually becoming lucid and having a dream that you have become lucid?

Could this be chalked up to a difference in dream awareness?

I would really love some feedback from some lucid dreaming veterans here.
I just can't shake the feeling that I wasn't really aware that it was a dream.
I feel like I was just pretending that I was in a lucid dream.
But then again, maybe there isn't any subjective difference.


Thanks for letting me drag you along through all this speculation!
query.