I really need an answer to this. How do I explain. I'm not a lucid dreamer, I'm interested in being a lucid dreamer and have tried but had no success yet. But for years, since i was a child, I have been having this experience on occasion and find it very frightening and thought someone here might know what it is.
It usually happens when I lay down for a nap, I think I may have had it only once from when I have gone to bed.
I think I wake up I certainly know that I' am asleep but I cannot move or open my eyes I try to open my eyes and open them a little way but not the whole way and they fight to close again. I cannot hear anything. I try to reach out and touch things and think that I can feel them but then realise that I have not moved my arm. On several occasion I think I have sat up and resumed by daily activities only to find myself back asleep a few minutes later. After a while I begin to become panicky until I finally wake up.
At first I thought it might be sleep paralysis but it feels like a dream when I finally wake up. Sometimes there are odd occurrences. Once when I was a child I walked to my bedroom door, down the stairs and into the living room everyone was sitting around the table talking but then I realised they could not see me and went back to knowing I was asleep but when I woke and went downstairs everyone was in the same place, talking about the same thing. And once I tried to open my eyes and saw my mum knitting and when I woke she actually was.
this morning included in this not being able to wake up, thing. I sat up thinking I was awake and my Mum was sitting at the bottom of the bed in a chair and was talking to me, I can't remember what she said but I know she said she was there to watch over me when my brother was not around. Another time I did the same thing and she was talking to someone in a cloak and the third time she was sitting where she always used to sit and I asked her, "you are not going anywhere this time are you?" and she replied "no I'm not going anywhere"
I know this part was most likely just a dream but it has left me with a strong emotional response and an uneasy feeling, she was very vivid but I felt eerie maybe even a little disturbed and still do. My Mum passed five weeks ago. And today is her birthday and this morning, even though I had only just got up I couldn't keep my eyes open.
Any ideas? I need answers.
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