I used to be obsessed with the whole idea of lucid dreaming a few years ago, but I settled down and didn't really think about it much anymore until lately. The reason its on my mind again is because I've been having ridiculous amounts of them. I used to struggle to just have one and now I'm having them so often, I kind of got annoyed in my last one, yesterday morning.

They're ALWAYS the same. I wake up in my bed, everything is dark as it would be at night, somehow realize i'm dreaming and immediately get this awful paranoid feeling that I need to get out of my house asap. So I rush out quickly with the feeling that something is in the room with me but once I'm outside I'm okay and I make things get brighter. There's always the first thing I want to do, and thats make my crush appear in front of me x). I've wasted so many dreams trying this because every time i mess up. Either I can't get him to appear at all, or if he does he looks extremely different. But once I succeed in doing this, I always have a false awakening so I can't even do anything. Still aware that I'm dreaming, I go and try to do the same thing, waking up yet again, generally with the sinister feeling in my room. I may have 5-6 false awakenings in one dream. I hate these false awakenings, recently something really scary happened in one, and another one was a close call but i got out of my house in time. I used to love lucid dreaming and do so many fun things but I just can't get them to last anymore because I just get a chain of false awakenings. Can anyone tell me why this might be happening and what I can do about it?