Hey guys,
I recently got back to lucid dreaming and quickly encountered a problem that I now remember I've had in my previous experience.
Not always, but quite often, my lucid self seems a little clueless. I often don't remember what I wanted to do in a dream so I just fly around and do completely random things and I don't mean exciting random, but really boring stuff (I went to a supermarket today, what?). It's like I'm trying to access an area in my memory dedicated to lucid ideas and techniques but I've got nothing. Same with stabilization techniques, sometimes I remember them, sometimes I don't. Also, despite doing countless reality checks and being absolutely sure that I'm dreaming I'm too scared to jump out of the window because it seems so real. With my normal level of intelligence I'm pretty sure that I'd know that it's safe to fly if my finger goes through my palm
I think that this leads to less and less lucidity in a dream. I start with a false awakening that seems absolutely real but with each stupid decision my surroundings get more and more distant and I end up mindlessly floating around. On the other hand, I do have dreams when I'm in control and I know what I'm doing. Can anyone relate and maybe have some tips for me? Thanks in advance.