Okay, last night was rather unusual for me. (Not too scary, but it made me rather nervous, anyway.)
The last couple of nights I've been going to bed much later than usual and they were those rare times where I could fall asleep almost within seconds as long as I wasn't daydreaming or moving around. (For some reason I can't seem to tell when I'm tired anymore without trying to fall asleep.) Anyway, I was still thinking about stuff and not ready to fall asleep just yet. Each time I would stop moving for a few moments, voices were beginning to appear in my mind automatically (but I didn't actually hear them since I was still awake). In this case, they weren't really scary; they were just random voices saying random, fairly ordinary phrases or sentences that made sense alone, but didn't have much meaning due to lack of context. They were in my mind but amazingly clear, and it seemed that I could just barely actually hear them. In fact, a couple of times when one occurred I tried replaying it in my mind right after that, and noticed that when I replayed it it didn't seem quite as clear as when it first occurred.
I don't remember many images popping up in my mind; there might have been a few but the only one I remember looked like a flashlight swung in a circle, making a brief, bright flash at the point where it would be aiming right at me. Again, it was in my mind but seemed to border on being able to actually see it.
The weirdest part was when I was experimenting by seeing if I could hypnotise myself. I was lying still and saying a sentence in my mind that I would have a really great lucid dream and have dream control, etc. Each time I finished thinking that sentence, this robotic "duck-like" voice in my mind involuntarily started replying to it and making remarks like "What?" and "In English, please!" I stopped and sat up a little bit, because I thought that was pretty weird.
Then, when I actually started falling asleep I think I actually did have HI/HS, but I don't remember any of it. I don't think it was scary, but I'm uncomfortable with this and WILDing for right now, so it kept waking me up. It took a few attempts to fall asleep without consiously experiencing it.
I remember a few very brief sensations that also caused me to wake up: twice (once that night, and again later in the morning) my legs felt like they were straightening a bit by themselves, as if something were gently tugging on them. On another occasion I woke up because, although I couldn't really recall clearly, I felt that my consiousness picked up on a hint that it felt like my body was moving when it shouldn't have been.
Maybe I'd better start going to bed earlier again.
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