Hey, well with my dryspell getting well in to its 2nd month i decided to stop moaning about it and try ou some induction techniques, WILD hasn't worked or me in the past since i find it incredibly difficult to get bac to sleep whilst being aware and i heard that MILD was fairly easy to do so i thought i'd give it another bash after my previous failure with it. I used BohmaNs guide and combined it with a WBTB, the first night i tried it i had a long vivid dream, and i have tryed it every day after that with no results what so ever, not even a dream to remember, nothing at all, my recall isn't too bad but i don't remember a dream and even if i did i doubt i was even close to becoming lucid, my dreams seem to convince me too easily, i never even get the opportunity to question reality, it could be because my dreams are really vivid.

Now i'm not giving up on the MILD, i must admit the first few days were hard but this morning i gave it my best shot so far but got nothing, maybe i'm being impatient but darn it i want another lucid dream! But also, every night i go to bed i put it firm in my mind that i will have a lucid drem that night, i wake up after 5 hours to do a combination of WBTB and MILD, and then try and wake up hours later feeling disappointed and annoyed at myself, i feel that these failures are giving me this negative outlook and at the back of my mind recently i can hear a voice saying "you've failed previously so why would it work now", well something along the lines of that, last night i really put emotion into trying and managed to beat that negative thought, but then this morning came doubt but i still persisited and then i awoke yet again to that disapointed feeling. I'm not going to quit, my persistance will still remain but i can't understand why nothing seems to be working or showing any sort of improvement since i've not been under alot of stress like previous days, these past few days have been quite pleasant.

This then lead me into the thought that maybe its possible that induction techniques simply do not work for me, i've tried alot of things and with alot of the techniques being similar i can expect the same results, it seems like a never ending battle between me and my dream world, i can never carry a thread of consciousness into the dream, and after a day of analysing my dreams and going back to them i could not find a reoccuring dream sign, i realise that for some people it comes much easier but like alot of things in my life lucid dreaming has been difficult and to be honest i'm not entirely sure what to do now, i'm unsure where to go from now. Thanks for any feedback if you can offer it