A'hoy hoy,

As a child, I had hallucinations when first realizing I had lucid dreams (false awakenings caused several problems). I had normal dreams that turned to nightmares which contained a consistent demon that represented all that I feared.

That was when I was 7. The past two days I have had lucid dreams interrupted by this demon, as though he was an unwanted hacker invading my sanctuary of dreams. The first time, his wailing, stern, ominous voice, that also sounded with the whimpering of a small childs, and as it played backwards at the sametime (also sounded muffled), along with the wailing of thousands of people in pain, it said to be, "I am back." Through it's blood encrusted armor and with his rotten and bleeding lips.

The first time he came into my dreams, nothing happened other than an immense amount of fear. I rationalized it and I felt better, not afraid anymore, and deemed it a conscious collection of stress induced symbolism throughout my dreams - that the demon was nothing more than a figment of my stress and problems projected in my dreams, and they are so strong that they can come present even in lucid dreams. However, I then had another lucid dream this morning, and he came to me again (during meditation). He stares at me and rambled on jibberish I couldn't quite understand, and I felt my skin burn.. it felt as though I was burning to death, or melting..

I just recently studied all about the somatosensory pathway and the receptors of pain and temprature along with results from my previous blood tests and functional magnetic resonance imagining (fMRI), to find that there is nothing abnormal through my cortex or thalamus - my periqueductal grey and reticular formation are perfectly fine and normal. Even more, my ventral posterior medial nucleus has abnormal synaptic firing, but abnormal in the sense as advanced. I do not theorise that can effect my fear, however, as it is not affiliated with the amygdala or primarily active during REM sleep.

Aside from reductionist guesses, and the result of which I mean:
I woke up to find my nose bleeding, my mouth full of blood, and rashes on my arm that were not present before.

I am perfectly healthy, no cold, no skin reactions, no laundry detergent change recently, nothing that could have a key elemental significant change to my physiological structure.

I fear for I still have random nose bleeds, and I feel my ears aching sometimes - I especially fear bleeding from my ears or eyes.

Have not been taking drugs lately either, and my diet has not dramatically changed at all.

The only co-related incident I can theorise is my relationship problems. But why would relationship problems be projected through a demon from my childhood?

Anyways, that's the drift of it. Thank you to anyone whom reads and I look forward to your feedback.

Thank you,
~ O'nus

Edit: (This is very important to) I always called this demon by the name of Bloodshed.