I have decided that I can exist outside my body. I'm pretty convinced when I LD that the experience is not connected to the body.
I can't seem to leave it consciously until this special trance state is achieved. Which I can only attain for some reason once I have slept a while and bordering on waking and sleeping towards the morning.
Yesterday when I felt my tooth is lose. That's becoming a common sign I'm dreaming. As none of my tooth are ever loose. What is weird is when I get out of bed. It's such a subtle change that I don't even notice that it's not real. I only suspected it was the dream state. The first time I had to confirm. And I was reality checking. Except the reality check failed. And my friend said "what are you doing". And I said dam. The reality check failed I thought I was dreaming.
The stupid part is my friend is over the other side of the world right now. So it's impossible he would be at my house. But this didn't even enter my logic. When I woke up, I realized how dumb I had been. I was concerntrating so much on the reality check. I wasn't noticing the bizarre fact my friend at my house when it was impossible.
This suggests that my logic and awareness was badly effected in this state. When I woke up I had much more mental power to reason properly. Even though in the dream I had been close to aware.
The second time I fell asleep. Again I got up out of bed. Thinking I may have got up for real, not sure. It never entered my thoughts to check my body. I just went straight ahead and thought I'm just going to dive through this window and if I get through the window I must be dreaming.
This is even more bizarre logic that I would never attempt in real life. I believed I could go through the window and I went through it. Then I convinced myself fully after that it must be a dream. It didn't last long, as I spent the rest of the dream looking for a hot chick. I woke up before I could find one.
Then I realized I was an idiot. As I should not be wasting time looking for chicks. And in addition, why did I think that diving through the window is a good idea for a reality check. That was a terrible idea. It's seems my dream self is 10 times more stupid than when I wake up.
any comments?
oh also one other thing. Between this lucid state that day. I found that I could hear music. I was making the music up, and I could physically hear it. I forgot the tune. But I have never been able to compose music that well. It was amazing. not only did I have the ability to create amazing music. But I had the luxury of simply hearing what I wanted to compose straight away. That must be how Beethoven did it.
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