For several years I have thought about this, I have felt the fear to dream because I always am lucid dreaming. My most immidiate instinct is to jump in the air and fly, yet it seems the moment I do so, I am pulled down and kept on the ground. Another force taking control. I have experienced dream paralysis, but this is different. Honest, it is like the moment I awaken in my dreams, I am attacked and held down. I LOVE the lucidity, but fear this presence. Anyone have any thoughts or know what I am talking about? I actually drink to prevent dreaming, when I don't take sleeping pills or depressents, I can get "lost" all day in this realm. No I think I am not crazy, just hoping to hear more about this.