Shawndow, strangely I woke with you on my mind today. I don't think you should give up lucid dreaming. Remember to focus on God, friend. From reading a lot of your posts, I think we have a very similar view on spirituality and religion. Perhaps this thought will help you a little. You can use Lucid Dreaming to combat the shadows within you! Conquer your subconscious evils in your dreams! I fight demons sometimes in my dreams and I have to say, it is scary but it feels wonderful to witness firsthand those battles going on inside of you. You'll be in my prayers. Keep your chin up.