Ok so i tryed to WILD last nite, many of you know me, and for those of you that dont, i used to LD alot, and it was so easy, the first time i found out about LDing i had 5 Dreams 2 LD none controlled, i then lost my aspiration... to LD, mainly because i got to busy with life, i think i wanted to LD to finally say goodbye to my grandmother who died about 2 months ago... anyways

i've recently tryed to regain aspiration to want to LD so far its OK... i have the basics but i just keep forgetting to do RC's because i have bipolar and it messes up my memory....

i dont WILD with the WBTB i just WILD when i go to bed, i layed in bed last nite (prettty tired) and did the whole WILD thing (i usually breath in then breath out with a humming noise from my voicebox to keep my brain concious) i did it for about 5 minutes, my legs started going numb, it felt like someone was sitting on them or a giant slabstone of concrete was on them... i then felt my hands etc go numb now during this course i had a few distractions (coughs, shooting pain in my back and a unrelaxed left arm) i was worried because my heart was racing and my left arm felt numb, wasnt sure weather it was a heart attack (bare in mind im only 17) or it was just general numbness, i then finally got back to being numb, felt a few wierd things EG: my legs felt like someone was slowly pulling me off the bed and pushing me back on, nothing else moved, i had a few muscle jerks throughout my body simuntaniously. then i stopped humming as i was breathing, my heart began to race and i wasnt sure weather i was dreaming or awake, the whole time i was WILDing after my body was numb i closed my eyes tight and tryed my hardest to picture something, somewhere, nothing... then pictures randomly started popping up infront of me, i had no idea they where there untill i fully woke up.... but i closed my eyes again and i could see an imprint of my brain on my eyelids, but you know when you close your eyes and the imprint on your eyes lids are usualy flashing spirals (looks like your going down a tunnel) its usualy just black an white but my brain looked browny pink on my eye lids... i then fell asleep had a few dreams (dont remember alot about em apart from one where i could hear this music playing and i wanted it played different... then i woke up

was this a WILD or a near?? can someone tell me what im doing wrong (i dont do WBTB because i sleep heavily alot as im a late sleeper, and the alarm wouldnt wake me up..)