Essentially what seems like apprehensiveness and anxiousness - I have possibly been in a similar stage to yours. |
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I find myself enmeshed in a web of synchronicity, acting on impulse, I think, but then finding the path laid out as with signposts in front of me. I keep coming across movies that point me toward lucidity. Yesterday I found Abre los Ojos at Half Price Books (it's the movie "Vanilla Sky" was based on, basically a nightmarish series of FAs leading to lucidity), and today I randomly grabbed Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind at the video store (I was in line with another movie, noted ESOTSM on the "new arrivals" board, and went and got it instead). About 45 minutes of that movie involves an attempt to become lucid after having given over control of one's mind to others. Also, various situations keep bringing up unpleasant memories and forcing me to choose either to face them lucidly or suffer in their grip (for me, the span from Halloween to my birthday in early February is basically one big mass of overlapping trauma--deaths and sour relationships and whatnot). |
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If you have a sense of caring for others, you will manifest a kind of inner strength in spite of your own difficulties and problems. With this strength, your own problems will seem less significant and bothersome to you. By going beyond your own problems and taking care of others, you gain inner strength, self-confidence, courage, and a greater sense of calm.Dalai Lama
Essentially what seems like apprehensiveness and anxiousness - I have possibly been in a similar stage to yours. |
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